I really had an interesting day. Even though I woke up around quarter to ten, I was able to help my aunt with the laundry. We had to resort to doing the old fashion way of washing clothes coz the damn washing machine broke down again. In spite of the minor back pain, I enjoyed the laundry thing coz I really love to play with water. I’m sort of like a water person. After that, Toby, Maricar and I helped my uncle clean the car. We ended up splashing water at each other. It was really fun to just play around. After lunch, I had to get back to my house coz my neighbor texted me that we were supposed to have a volleyball game at 2 p.m. I was really nervous coz it seemed ages that I try to get the ball across the net. I wasn’t even sure if I could still do a correct service. Unfortunately (as if!) the game was forfeited because the opposing team from the other town didn’t show up. Truthfully, we needed practice and it was a good thing we weren’t able to play.
Anyway, I’m still thinking of that guy… Mitch sorry I can’t spill the beans coz I don’t want to brag about my insanity. Come to think of it, I don’t want anyone to know whom that person is coz if I’ll tell you; you’d probably laugh your heart out. Mitch, you might say that I would be so unfair coz I know who your happy thought is but it just isn’t the time to divulge highly confidential information.
I tried to find the lyrics of “Tattooed on my mind” but I just couldn’t find the lyrics. I think I have to settle for another song as of the moment…

"Love Song For No One"
John Mayer

Staying home alone on a Friday
Flat on the floor looking back
On old love
Or lack thereof
After all the crushes are faded
And all my wishful thinking was wrong
I'm jaded
I hate it

I'm tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here
So tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here

Searching all my days just to find you
I'm not sure who I'm looking for
I'll know it
When I see you
Until then, I'll hide in my bedroom
Staying up all night just to write
A love song for no one

I'm tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here
So tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here

I could have met you in a sandbox
I could have passed you on the sidewalk
Could I have missed my chance
And watched you walk away?

I'm tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here
So tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here
You'll be so good
You'll be so good for me

This is for my happy thought...If only he would visit my site...(sigh)

Is this a positive thing?


You are a child's kiss. Completely sweet and
innocent and pure. You mean no harm and only
love in your sweet kisses.


What kind of kiss are you?
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Today I realized that I’m absolutely, indefinitely CRAZY! I cannot believe I’d end up thinking on this one person who’d probably be the last person on my mind if I were not insane. But then may be, I am just being honest with myself. It’s happening again. Here I am, letting the boredom of summer get to me. Is this just an effect of my being constantly idle? And you know what’s weird, I dreamed of this person and then the following day, I saw him. This is totally outrageous! I thought I have controlled this urge to think of you know, “happy thoughts” because I have realized that in spite of my soothing fantasies, I end up feeling lonely and insecure coz in the end of my insanity, reality would hit me hard that I can’t just snap my fingers and let that person fall for me as much as I have fallen for him. Love really does suck! That is if I am in love which I probably am not…Or is it something to do with the weather? Hehehe. Who knows?

Well, I bet you must think that all of this is sort of a CLICHÉ. Right? But no matter how hard the truth gets me in the end; I would keep on going back into this kind of situation. What could a girl like me do but WAIT? ALL IS FAIR IN LOVE AND WAR…

Right now I’m thinking of his smile. You know the kind that makes you wanna hug him. And the twinkle in his eyes every time he stresses his point. I wish you could picture in your mind what I meant so that somehow, you could relate to how I am feeling. I guess, right now I should be contented that I could keep his image in my mind because it’s the only thing that makes me look forward for another day. Maia? Still remember the song “Tattooed On My Mind”? It’s kind of like that. It’s not for you-know-who any more. It’s for my happy thought. Wow, event though we hardly know each other, we already have a theme song? Hehehe.

Being content
holds the content
of all happiness

NORAH JONES LYRICS

"Don't Know Why"

I waited 'til I saw the sun
I don't know why I didn't come
I left you by the house of fun
I don't know why I didn't come
I don't know why I didn't come

When I saw the break of day
I wished that I could fly away
Instead of kneeling in the sand
Catching teardrops in my hand

My heart is drenched in wine
But you'll be on my mind
Forever

Out across the endless sea
I would die in ecstasy
But I'll be a bag of bones
Driving down the road along

My heart is drenched in wine
But you'll be on my mind
Forever

Something has to make you run
I don't know why I didn't come
I feel as empty as a drum
I don't know why I didn't come
I don't know why I didn't come
I don't know why I didn't come

ITS BLACK SATURDAY!
My cousins are playing mahjong… did I get the spelling right? We kept on baking some pastries. The effect of the crazy summer craving for food...Bill you should visit me sometime.hehehe Anyway, here’s a few jokes to make you laugh your heart out…
“I should be in charge”, said the blood, “because I circulate oxygen all over so without me you’d all waste away.”
“I should be in charge”, said the stomach, ”because I process food and give all of you energy.”
“I should be in charge”, said the legs, “because I carry the body where ever it needs to go.”
“I should be in charge”, said the eyes, “because I allow the body to see where it goes.”
“I should be in charge”, said the rectum, “because I’m responsible for the waste removal.”
All the other body parts laughed at the rectum and insulted him, so in a huff, he shut down tight. Within a few days, the brain had a terrible headache; the stomach was bloated; the legs got wobbly; the eyes got watery; and the blood was toxic. They all decided that the rectum should be the boss.
The moral of the story?
The asshole is usually in charge….

Gary, sometimes spells won't work because you don't believe in it... so, try to put more faith in your spells... Just be careful in casting them okay?

deanne, we have the same results...hehehe me? likes PINK?


Pink:
You see the world in bright pink. The world is a
happy, happy place! You love all people and
things!! Life is great! You're just like a
happy child. Spread the cheer.

*this quiz was made by href="http://www.uinmind.com/sara">Sara


What color do you see the world in?
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took this test with my cousin TSAI...


Frodo


Who is your Ideal Lord of the Rings (male) Mate?
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Your pain is the breaking of the shell that encloses your understanding. Even as the stone of the fruit must break, that its heart may stand in the sun, so must you know pain.
Gibran, Kahlil

Well I ended up going to the beach after all. I felt fulfilled since I was able to do all the things I planned on doing. I’m supposed to go to school today to lend Karyll, Francis girlfriend my TCWAG and get some cd’s from Hayden. But I changed my mind since I don’t feel like going anywhere. We had a few drinks last night while watching KC’s debut on TV. I passed on the second glass since I have this thing of going to the bathroom every 2 minutes or so. Tsai and Molly ended up drinking the rest of the island punch. Comments from TSAI, WALA DAW CYA NA HUBOG. I hate watching debuts and then winding up thinking of the lapses of my own party. Anyway, my cousin told me that hopefully we could start working on the last week of April. At least I’d get around 5000 at the end of our working days. And by the way, last Friday’s meeting with John, Mitch, Ray and Maia got me thinking…Could I survive the next semester with 4 orgs to handle? There’s the Dance Club where, well I’m the president, the VOT where I’m the Managing Editor, which by the way is planning to make a literary folio. I have got tons of editing to do not to mention all the articles to make while managing the office and making changes at the same time. And I kind of promised Ms. Mari last year that I’d joined the Engineering Jazz dancers this school year to dance for the Pop Jazz competition come Intramurals. So I’ve decided to give up my position as secretary for the council. I have a lot of extra curricular activities that I have no more room to improve my grades. It’s not like I’m that smart like ***e* *.hehehe… But I still have to convince John that I cannot take the pressure. I think it’s enough that I’m the VP of our batch. I can still help the council coz basically, we see each other everyday, but I can’t go around handling the paper works with other commitments at hand. I think IPAY could do a much better job on this one than me. Right Pay?

Some people out there would think they have no reason for living. Could you help me convince them that there is? I mean, I had a really hard time convincing this one friend that he does have worth… tag me okay? By the way, BELATED HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JOHN MITCHELL "aka BOSLEY" DELA CRUZ!!!

Well I was able to get my grades and Thank God, most of the subjects I feared of failing, passed. There’s nothing much to tell coz I’m living the same life except that I still am confused over things such as friendship and relationships. Anyway, yesterday I learned that we are not allowed by our department to take advance classes. So I guess, Les, Deanne, we will still be classmates in ES 20 after all. I’m really eager to learn Far Behind by Candlebox. And Doyle knows the chords so he still owes me a lesson. John if you could read my blog today, I won’t be going to the beach tomorrow, you know for the VOT thing. My mom and my aunt won’t allow me to go. So I guess I’ll see you on our meeting with the new chairman, Dr. Mah? Did I get that right? I’m kind of looking forward in meeting the new chairman. Well guys till next time...

Here's a poem for those on the verge of a very rocky relationship...ponder on...

“To let go does not mean to stop caring; it means I can’t do it for someone else.”
“To let go is not to cut myself off; it’s the realization I can’t control another.”
“To let go is to admit powerlessness, which means the outcome is not in my hands.”
“To let go is to enable, but also to allow learning from natural consequences.”
“To let go is not to try to change or blame another; it’s to make the most of myself.
“To let go is not to judge, but to allow anther to be a human being.”
“To let go is not to be in the middle arranging all the outcomes, but allow others to affect their destinies.”
“To let go is not to be protective; it’s to permit another to face reality.”
“To let go is not to nag, scold, or argue but instead to search out my own shortcomings and correct them.”
“To let go is not to criticize and regulate, but to try to become what I dream I can be.”
“To let go is not to regret the past, but to grow and live for the future.”
“To let go is not to deny, but to accept.”
“To let go is not to fear less, and love more.”

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WORTHLESS EFFORT

Lately, I have realized that most of the people I know tend to live very complicated lives. Even more complicated than my so-called life. I’ve always wondered how my life differs with that of a typical girl. Am I typical? Well in some ways, yes. It just confuses me why some people tend to prioritize things, which mean less and tend to waste their time making questions. This is too broad, right? Lately, someone close to me asked my advice and well really needed some counseling of some sort. In my utmost pity, I tried my very best to be patient and thought of so many reasonable answers to her unending interrogation that would ease her longing for realization. God knows how hard I tried to give her some wake up call, but in the end my good intentions were defeated. She gave in to her loss of control over the whole situation. My point is why does a person have to ask someone else’s advice or opinion of some sort if one has already made up one’s mind way before asking for some ideas? I really don’t see the logic in this. And the sad thing is, in the argument of LOVE, I extended to her that a person couldn’t love another if he/she doesn’t love himself/herself. I guess it’s a pretty clear message. I learned its worth because of my ex-boyfriend. I now realize that no matter how much I try to put some sense into her brilliant mind, no matter what comparison I make with my lonely yet happy love life, we still are two different people living totally different lives. And I cannot answer her problems for her. She should be the one to take a risk and make her choice.

LONELY BUT HAPPY

I have to admit that some times, I would ask myself if I’ll ever find the person who’s right for me. And I would end up feeling lonely and sad that I’d be in the verge of tears. But in spite of all of these insecurities, my friends (you know who you are) helped me realize that if you have no one who would let you feel secured, loved, cared for etc. doesn’t mean I cannot permit myself to let the tingles just flow in and experience it in a totally different situation. I am happy and contented to be who I am today. The most important thing is, in spite of all the bad experiences on relationships I had in the past, I am not closing my door to anyone who’s willing to accept the person that I am and I am just sitting here waiting for that right person to come along.

You're Shallan Chenoa. Good for you! The only
reasons anyone could use to dislike you is the
fact that you're the sweetest, most innocent,
cautious, sensitive character! You wouldn't
hurt a fly. You're the type that would try to
save the whales/earth etc. You're very
compassionate and conservative. You mostly
physically resemble Shakira.


Which of my female chars are you?
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I'm quite busy right now coz last March 31 was my dear brother's graduation and today its my cousin Ace's graduation. And my aunt wants me to help around preparing for lunch since the party's at noon. Anyway, to keep myself from getting really bored, I played with Toby, from playstation to monopoly to running around the block. Imagine, me running around?hehehe pretty funny scene but yes I did that just to make my summer exciting. Eventhough most of my companions here are kids, I get to learn new things from them. How about you guys, what have you been up to these past few days? Tag me...I mean PINCH ME instead...hehehehe

IM BACK FROM THE GRAVE... I can just imagine the bloggers right now are really very eager to jott down every single event that's happening in their summer lives...hehehe
I'm really tired. I slept really late. About 3 am. A lot of people arrived yesterday to pig out on a lot of food...I thought of inviting Bill(WHERE'S OUR PASALUBONG???)along with Maia, Ipay and Deanne but they weren't able to come. Anyway, there's not much that's going on in my life right now...Toby is beside me right now, bugging me to play with him. We just finished playing Tekken III.hehehe He cried coz I beat him... Take care peeps...HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY UNCLE JOHN!