Monday, September 29, 2003

This is dedicated to my HT...

Artist: Duncan Sheik
Album: Daylight
Title: Half-life

I'm awake in the afternoon
I fell asleep in the living room
and it's one of those moments
when everything is so clear

before the truth goes back into hiding
I want to decide 'cause it's worth deciding
to work on finding something more than this fear

It takes so much out of me to pretend
tell me now, tell me how to make amends

maybe, I need to see the daylight
to leave behind this half-life
don't you see I'm breaking down

lately, something here don't feel right
this is just a half-life
is there really no escape?
no escape from time
of any kind

I keep trying to understand
this thing and that thing, my fellow man
I guess I'll let you know
when i figure it out

but I don't mind a few mysteries
they can stay that way it's fine by me
and you are another mystery i am missing

It takes so much out of me to pretend

maybe, I need to see the daylight
to leave behind this half-life
don't you see I'm breaking down

Lately, something here don't feel right
this is just a half-life
is there really no escape?
no escape from time
of any kind

come on lets fall in love
come on lets fall in love
come on lets fall in love
again

'cause lately something here don't feel right
this is just a half-life,
without you I am breaking down

wake me, let me see the daylight
save me from this half-life
let's you and I escape
escape from time

come on lets fall in love
come on lets fall in love
come on lets fall in love
again

Well today I have discovered that there is this big chance that he just sees me as a friend... And you know what in spite of the thought of him not liking me the way I want him to, I'm glad he thinks of me as his friend...Its a big thing for me coz....Can't elaborate on that ... I'm nervous for our reporting in ECE... I used to not fear speaking in front of the entire class coz when I was in high school, I usually talk to the entire student populace...anyway, guys we have to study coz finals is fast approaching...take care and God bless...

Sunday, September 28, 2003

Funny Sayings

* He who laughs last thinks slowest.
* Everyone has a photographic memory. Some don't have film.
* A day without sunshine is like, well, night.
* On the other hand you have different fingers.
* Change is inevitable except from a vending machine.
* I just got lost in thought. It was unfamiliar territory.
* When the chips are down, the buffalo is empty.
* Seen it all, done it all, can't remember most of it.
* Those who live by the sword... get shot by those who don't.
* I feel like I'm diagonally parked in a parallel universe.
* He's not dead... he's electroencephalographically challenged.
* You have the right to remain silent. Anything you say will be misquoted, then used against you.
* I wonder how much deeper the ocean would be without sponges.
* Honk if you love peace and quiet.
* Despite the cost of living, have you noticed how it remains so popular?
* Nothing is foolproof to a sufficiently talented fool.
* It is hard to understand how a cemetery raised its burial cost and blamed it on the cost of living.
* The 50-50-90 rule: Anytime you have a 50-50 chance of getting something right, there's a 90% probability you'll get it wrong.
* It is said that if you line up all the cars in the world end to end, someone would be stupid enough to try and pass them.
* You can't have everything....where would you put it?
* Latest survey shows that 3 out of 4 people make up 75% of the world's population.
* The things that come to those who wait, may be the things left by those who got there first.
* A fine is a tax for doing wrong. A tax is a fine for doing well.
* It was recently discovered that research causes cancer in rats.
* I wished the buck stopped here as I could use a few.
* I started out with nothing, and I still have most of it.
* Light travels faster than sound. This is why some people appear bright until you hear them speak.

got these funny sayings from....http://www.jardmail.co.uk/factslists/funnysayings.shtml
Got caught up with all these projects and reports that I have forgotten to clean my room...And so I decided to dust off a little...You know, I have allergies...So I'm crying right now because of ya know...kept on sneezing too... Anyway, I still don't know how I'd present my report on Transistors...

Here's the song we've been singing all the days of last week. Even while we took the test in our ECE 312 lab, Deanne and I kept on singing this song... I don't know why...

Artist: All American Rejects
Album: All American Rejects
Title: Swing Swing
Days swiftly come and go.
I'm dreaming of her
She's seeing other guys
Emotions they stir
The sun is gone.
The nights are long
And I am left while the tears fall.

Did you think that I would cry,
on the phone?
Do you know what it feels like
being alone?
I'll find someone new

Swing, Swing, Swing from the tangles of
My heart is crushed by a former love
Can you help me find a way
To carry on again.

Wish cast into the sky
I'm moving on
Sweet beginnings do arise
She knows I was wrong
The notes are old,
They bend, they fold
and so do I to a new love.

Bury me
(you thought your problems were gone)
Carry me
(away. away, away...)

Saturday, September 27, 2003

The programming exam was easy in the view of the gifted ones...but for us low life's it could've been but we were not ready to take the risk of failing... The one thing that shocked me was that other people expected me to know... They think that I'm good in that stuff... Honestly, I don't think I'm better than my other classmates. I mean we attend the same classes so how could I have much higher level of understanding compared to them. Anyway, for me, I'll try not to regret anything...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO CHRISTINE IVY PAULA VESIN SACEDA!!!!
LOVE YOU BESTFRIEND....

Friday, September 26, 2003

You are a Romantic Realist


Okay, so you fall in the middle.

You know that love isn't like a greeting card…

Yet you can always find a greeting card to describe your feelings.



You are the best of both worlds

Girly yet independent, dreamy yet serious.

Almost any guy can find balance with you.




Are You Romantic or Realistic? Take This Quiz :-)




Find the Love of Your Life
(and More Love Quizzes) at Your New Romance.


You Guy May Be Playing With You!


He could be playing around - or maybe he's just playing games.

Either way, your guy is sending you mixed signals…

And leaving you confused about his love for you.

It's time for you to do some major recon … and see what he's up to.




Is He a Player? Take This Quiz :-)




Find the Love of Your Life
(and More Love Quizzes) at Your New Romance.

I typed some stuff a minute ago and I practically closed the window. My brother is watching my bestfriends wedding again...nice movie...I especially like the song "the way you looked tonight". I'm not sure if that's the correct title of the song... Anyway, I'm trying to improvise our GUI for our calculator program... Many of you might think I'm such a nerd or something but guys won't you ever feel guilty that someday you'll fail because you just didn't do anything to prevent it before it happened??? That's just my problem, I easily feel guilty...is it a problem??? Anyway, about this love thingy almost everybody is infected with, I'm just happy that everybody is happy. Well if not everybody then at least the people I'm close to. I'm glad to share to you that me and my HT are well, getting a bit closer???? hehehe...I see him everyday, yet I still look forward to tomorrow...So meaning, dli gyud ko mapul.an??? Took this quiz and here's my result...

You're Almost Ready to Get Married, But Not Quite


No doubt that you've warmed up to the idea of marriage and life long love

You just aren't quite ready to follow up with your desires, yet.

You may be a bit young, or a bit commitment phobic… give it time.

Concentrate on guys who you can imagine being with next year. Forever can wait.




Are You Ready for Marriage? Take This Quiz :-)




Find the Love of Your Life
(and More Love Quizzes) at Your New Romance.

Sunday, September 21, 2003

Just finished making my last portfolio for our ECE lecture. We still haven’t finished our project in ComE. And well our power supply still lacks the capacitor coz we haven’t computed for it. Basically, I don’t know how. Gosh, can’t believe I’m living this life… I know I didn’t ask for any of this to happen but you know what, the most unexpected things happen to me. I can’t write them all here coz some people would probably have a clue by now who I’m always talking about. If not then its much better left unknown. If I could only replay everything that happened I would probably go over it again until I got bored. Sometimes I think I’m dreaming but then everything is real, so real that I prayed that time would just freeze. A romantic fool such as me is so easy to please. And the most fun part of my weekend was when we (Trina, Feona, Jessa, Freedom, Leslie and I) spent the night at Deanne’s house. We had to wait for the power to turn on coz before I got there, it was brownout. So we played ice breaker and I learned lots of things and understood mostly how these girls are. The only thing I could say is that I’m lucky to have known them. I can’t stop smiling… My jaws hurt… I’m planning to change my template again coz lots of people asked me why I have a huge butterfly in my site wherein it’s Deanne’s favorite thing in life…Sorry D, had to borrow your butterfly for a short time…hehehe…I’m glad that you blogged again…

Saturday, September 20, 2003

It's still 5:52 am and like I slept at about 3:45 am! Can you ever call that sleep???hehehe...I'm here at Deanne's trying to be a genu\ius in figuring out how to make the amazing calculator...Unfortunately, I'm not that brilliant...but we had fun last night coz while waiting for the electricity to come back we played icebreaker...uy!knew lots of secrets last night and well share a couple myself....My mind's still blank and my eyes' very puffy...well have to take a bath coz I'm off to school by 7:30...Hi to all the people of the internet world...Hi to my HT...assuming he'd visit my site...hope we didn't wake you up last night coz we were practically talking about you the whole night...

Friday, September 19, 2003

Im back once again just taking a glimpse at things since I'm quite full of things to do...I actually have to go to Deanne's place to spend the night there to make our CompE project and then in the morning, I'm off to school to meet with my groupmates for another project for our ECE 312...Gosh, I wonder when this ends... Anyway, as for all the tags in my tagboard here's my reply...

Kelem: sendi ko through email sa lyrics sa Itsumo, its vanelin13v@yahoo.com. Hope to see you soon kay miss talking to you...

About the touch thingy:
Based from my recent experiences, it really makes me happy if my HT "accidentally" touches my hand or brushes his should on my shoulder or touches my arm etc... but sometimes it frightens me coz I think because of this, I'm becoming a bit conscious and assuming...I don't like the feeling...Anyway...that's all for now kay have to research pa....take care and God bless to all...

to those waiting in vain:

"Good things come to those who wait."
It might not be the one you're waiting but it may be much better....

Monday, September 15, 2003

This day is one of the most tiring days of my life. I’m not in the mood to do anything and it would seem that I’m trying so hard to laugh and smile when behind that is a very pissed off girl. It wasn’t that bad in the morning. But during our ECE 312 class, I almost blew my top coz my seatmate kept on bugging me. He’s making comments and trying to get me into a conversation in the middle of Sir Dacs discussion really is annoying. He is trying so hard to get my attention. Gosh… Right then and there I wish I could disappear or put a barrier between him and me. And then there goes my group mates in ECE… They don’t seem to care that we still haven’t decided who will report what… I mean they’re so lax and well may be I’m too agitated over the whole thing but they don’t consider the fact that almost all of us are failing this subject… The one person who made me feel better was Leslie. Mommy Les, I know that you might be wondering how and why but when we walked around ayala and me doing the thing we talked about made me feel better… Fame made me realize that these things would just pass by if you get your mind over what’s pissing you off. Anyway, that’s about it… Have to study Clipper and Clamper and Voltage Multiplier…

Sunday, September 14, 2003

I have made a very crucial decision... I have to quit dance club in order for me to give way to some vital clubs which would be important someday... I have to tell my moderator first coz it wouldn't probably right to just stop attending....hay...i already finished doing my portfolio...Mommy les, have something to ask you...later nalang coz its way personal...magkatawa tingali ka ani...anyway...have to go coz we're about to eat lunch...unfortunately, the pc my lola promised was not intended for me. I guess I have to buy my own... Maybe I'll get a job or something...What do you think?

Friday, September 12, 2003

I'm here at Jungle web with fame, leslie and deanne finishing off our applets and our documentation for our project...anyway,I'll make this short...

Well I have to say that never a day that passes by that at the end of the day, I'll be left with a huge smile on my face...

Wednesday, September 10, 2003

Im browsing through the API here in my aunt's house. I decided to go online for this since my laptop is still with my cousin Daping. Anyway, the box that my aunt from Portland sent already arrived so that means, hopefully she's gonna send the pc over. Anyway, gotta make this short since I still have lots of programming to do... take care peeps...

Tuesday, September 09, 2003


NEVER HAVE I FALLEN

Your lips speak soft sweetness
Your touch a cool caress
I am lost in your magic
My heart beats within your chest

I think of you each morning
And dream of you each night
I think of your arms being around me
And cannot express my delight

Never have I fallen
But I am quickly on my way
You hold a heart in your hands
That has never before been given away

- Rex A. Williams -

Sunday, September 07, 2003

I'm kinda tired trying to fix the problems of my laptop... I know I have to be contented having a computer but the components in this stuff is limited. I have to settle for now... Anyway, about what I posted last Saturday, I think we just need someone to share our pains and loneliness... We need someone to at least suffice the things that somehow make us incomplete... Someone who could cover up all our flaws...Anyway, this weekend is really a busy one....Aside from a whole lot of chores to be done, have lots of pending projects, reports and studying to do... so goodbye for now....

Saturday, September 06, 2003

How True Is Your Love


Are your palms sweaty, is your heart racing
and is your voice caught within your chest??
-It isn't love, it's LIKE.

You can't keep your eyes or hands off of her,
am I right??
-It isn't love, it's LUST.

Are you proud, and eager to show her off??
-It isn't love, it's LUCK.

Do you want her because you know she's there??
-It isn't love, i t's LONELINESS.

Are you with her because it's what everyone wants??
-It isn't love, it'S LOYALTY.

Are you with her because she kissed you, or held your hand?
-It isn't love, it's LOW CONFIDENCE.

Do you stay for her confessions of love,
because you don't want to hurt her?
-It isn't love, it's PITY.

Do you belong to her because the sight of her
makes your heart skip a beat??
-It isn't love, it's INFATUATION.

Do you pardon her faults because you care about her?
-It isn't love, it's FRIENDSHIP.

Do you tell her every day she is the only one you think of?
-It isn't love, it's a LIE.

Are you willing to give up all of your favorite things
for her sake?
-It isn't love, it's CHARITY.

Does your heart ache and breaks when she's sad?
-Then it's LOVE.

Do you cry for her pain, even when she's strong?
-Then it's LOVE.

Do her eyes see your true heart,
and touch your soul so deeply it hurts?
-Then it's LOVE .

Do you stay because a blinding, incomprehensible mix of pain
and relation pulls you close and holds you to her?
-Then it's LOVE.

Do you accept her faults because it's a part of who she is?
-Then it's LOVE.

Are you attracted to others,
but stay with her faithfully without regret??
Would you give her your heart, your life, your death??
-Then it's LOVE.

Now, if love is painful, and tortures us so, why do we love?
Why is it all we search for in life? This pain, this agony?
Why is it all we long for? This torture, this powerful death of self?
Why?
The answer is so simple cause it's...LOVE.

It is such an addictive thing that even people who are not having it
wish to experience it and share it with others as well.

Friday, September 05, 2003

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY TO MS.VICTORIE MAIA C. DONSEN...

I know that its your birthday but I still can't help but feel really happy today...I'm happy for you because, as far as anyone is concerned, basing from the first day I've met you, you really have changed into this one great person...You have grown mai..You changed...And upto now I still can't believe that you became one of my closest friends ever...There's never gonna be anyone like you mai, your one of a kind...I'll always be here for you my friend...Love you mai...char...hehehe

Pasensyai lang ko ha kay upto now, dako lang ghapn au ko ngisi...sakit na gani ako jaw...mommy les, you know wat I mean...

here are my test results:


Which [Finding Nemo] characters are you?




Do you need a boy/girl friend now?



What's your usual [mood]?



Which [Rainbow Colours] are you?


Thank God for a wonderful day...God bless you all...