Indelible Memories

I was juggling nursing my youngest, cooking lunch and teaching my eldest her Kumon activity on verbs. While doing all that I tried to get a glimpse of what's on television, the movie Paper Towns. I didn't really get to see much of the movie or listen to all those wonderfully written dialog but towards the end I was able to zone in. You see I used to watch a lot of movies and read a lot of books. I used to get quotes from different authors and have that reflection on how it moves me and relate it to my own experiences. I still watch movies, like really watch movies when I get to have that date time with my husband who is equally interested (Thank God!). And when I have errands to run and I wait in queue for my turn I still carry a book to pass the time. But going back to the movie Paper Town, towards the end the protagonist mentioned INDELIBLE MEMORIES and said TAKE NOTICE, BEFORE IT'S TOO LATE. I noticed that he had such good friends. There are two actually. And although he had a typical high school, days were spent with such awesome experiences because he had both. Me? I had friends but not so close. Not to mention coming from an all girls high school which totally sucks by the way, it was full of intrigue and drama (to my demise). It wasn't all that bad, there were good days but insignificant ones. Now it dawned on me that I wish my daughter would have good friends growing up, especially in high school. I wish she will have genuine friendship that would last longer than her academic years. I wish that someone would go out of their way to fend for her when she is in need and would stand by her when she needs to make a major decision in life. I know we as parents won't always be there for her but if ever she will not have that kind of friendship, she always has me. Like mama was always there for me when I was growing up. I wonder how else I would make indelible memories with my kids? I am going back to work in 2 days which means I'll get to see them early in the morning and late at night. I hope I'll have the energy to play with them on the weekends. This is the time where I would say that my weekends would be sacred and solely for family. What should I be taking notice before its too late? My child's behavior? My husband's health? My father's health? My health? I wonder.

So how am I these days?

I haven't had the chance to blog again. Just now, on a quiet humid Saturday evening I sit here in our bedroom trying to figure out what to do. And then I saw my husband's laptop and thought that I so wanted to write something for months now. A lot has happened since 2014. In 2014 I was hopeful, juggling being a wife, a mother and a daughter. Not to mention a leader in a whole new different world of IT. Almost 2 years have passed and I am still juggling, trying to at least do some justice in each of the hats I wear. It's Christmas season, actually 13 days before but I haven't completed shopping for gifts yet. I am 28 weeks into my second pregnancy. I feel all sorts of discomfort; back pains, constant peeing even in the middle of the night, heavy tummy and all sorts of things I haven't noticed during my first pregnancy. Yet I am absolutely ecstatic, happy and contented. All thanks to my husband who treats me like a queen. Most of the folks I know would say that pregnancy agrees with me. They say when you're having a baby boy, you'd feel ugly and would look ugly too. But I don't feel that way. Probably because despite all the stress at work and getting stressed at how to raise my daughter and looking out for my dad and brother, I am happy.

Day 1 2014

2014... A year of hope. A year for change. It can be drastic or subtle. I basically depends on the circumstances. Important thing is I am keeping tabs on everything I do. After all the only person we have control over is ourselves. There are so many things to write about. So many lessons learned that needs to be shared. 1/365: do not waste what you have for you never know until when it is available for you.

just a thought or two...

I wish i could someday travel outside the country with hubby and Zoe...it would be fun and exciting! The urge is even greater now that my husband is leaving for Heathrow.  aarrrggg...better keep  myself pre occupied with work. 

On another note an old friend got engaged and a colleague gave birth...i am at the phase where people my age or shall we say peer group settles down and have a family of their own...somehow these news melts my heart...

Finally another weekend awaits me...more time for the little munchkin...i feel bad when im workin from home and she tugs at my leg wanting to play...if only i could stop working up until she goes to school...im not such a bad housewife...cook clean laundry take care of baby...all checked in my book...oh well wishful thinking...toodles...

Currently trying to finish 2 books...hehe

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Techy Mom

Its great they now have almost everything in mobile...even the platform I am working on is heading to that direction...and not to mention the millions of gadgets that support this cause!  I'm one of those who appeciate the fast paced world of technology because I was born in an era where emerging designs were fascinating not to mention useful...I dont have to open my desktop just to browse a recipe.

This way I can just take this small phone in our small kitchen, search for the simplest bestest recipe I could find and whip up something for the brood...

I wonder what my next cooking adventure would be!

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Back from a long Haitus

So I'm back, after more than a year of silence. Well actually a little person and this little person's dad is keeping me busy all year round. Yet I can't find myself to forget about writing. Especially now that I'm having these vivid dreams and the world is slowly turning into chaos. Not that it's not yet chaotic as it is. Moreover, marriage and motherhood adds to a new perspective of things. The little person is awake, will blog more soon!

To My Mini Me

I am looking forward to Friday because I'll be forever bound to your dad who I love so dearly.
I am looking forward to April since we'll start shopping for your stuff. I hope you won't mind that my favorite color is purple and you might get tons of those.
I am looking forward to May since I'll be spending my birthday in our new home with you inside me.
I am looking forward to June coz by then we'll see you in person and I'll get to hold you in my arms.
Be brave, be strong and be healthy... just a little more my angel.
And you'll soon see the world.

Turning a New Leaf

Happy 2011! Once again cobwebs are visible in my blogspot. Haven't done much maintenance either. My plan of changing my template every month is not that feasible anymore since I'm working my ass off for 12-14 hours a day...talk about me being workaholic. Actually I already practiced saying "NO" the past 3 months for non-work stuff but still, 12 hours is not enough to do all the delivery work. I haven't mastered the art of delegation nor time management. 4 years in the industry is not quite enough to master these vital things.

What have I actually learned the previous year? What changed in me that I could say I am a better person compared to last year?

These questions I'll ponder on for the next 4 days that I am on night shift...the only time I am since January of 2007 during my callgirl days.

Life has treated me so well last year I was finally made complete. I was blessed with so much love and care that I think its more than winning the lottery. I'm now the luckiest girl in the world, not the sad lonely loser. My future is still quite hazy but I have laid out plans and I can see the silver lining. And what's great is I am not alone in putting these plans into reality. I have an extra pair of hands, a brilliant mind and a much stronger heart which makes it more exciting.

I am turning a new leaf, another year, another exciting chapter!

Blessed year of the rabbit to all.

Au Revior A Bientot Aly

I haven’t blogged for quite sometime simply because I can’t make time to blog. There are a lot of events that happened already and I never got the chance to write about them. Okay so let’s back track to June since my last post was May. There are about 4 friends who got married last June. Amazing, it seems like it was just yesterday that we had to attend several parties for friend’s 18th birthday and now we’re attending friend’s weddings. It still makes me teary-eyed to watch the bride walk up the isle to her prince charming. I think for one, weddings are my favorite occasions. It’s a celebration of love. And me being a self-confessed romantic would surely pine on such occasions.

The highlight of my July was of course my long awaited Bohol-Manila vacation. I had the chance to travel with Alyssa for the last time before she left for the US, I was able to hang out with my cousins: Bing, Van2x and Yanyan and almost took the plunge in Danao Bohol but ended up doing the suislide...I know such a coward...probably next time coz I'm on a tight budget and the plunge cost around Php750 - and its just one drop! Finally got the chance to catch up with my Mimim: Otti. It’s almost 2 months since we saw each other. Although we talk almost every day and text 24/7, it’s still different when he’s holding my hand, watch him eat, feel him smelling my hair or just sit still and stare at me. What a feeling…I know it’s super duper cheesy but then again I don’t care anymore. I have always been like this and I know you would notice it through my previous blogs. The feeling was just suppressed probably because all those time, it was always “could’ve been”. And now that I have this chance to love freely and fully, why wouldn’t I shout it to the world. In the end, I had to say goodbye to Aly (will write about her in a separate blog) and looking forward to Otti’s arrival come August. So after our escapade in Bohol, which by the way was Sandugo Festival, I went straight to Manila to spend time with Alyssa. Spent most of the time with Otti since Aly still had her classes in JRP. Helped her pack and chat about life and love.

I'm glad I was able to spend time with Otti and Aly. I even gained another friend: Jane - Aly's bestfriend. I'm going to miss Aly and her stories. As well as Tito Alex and Tita Sally...They've always welcomed me to their home everytime I come visit Manila. Aly even said that Otti's move to Cebu is quite the perfect timing since she's also moving to L.A. That way I won't be too sad and lonely...But I'm still gonna miss her.


As Liam Neeson said: I love it when a plan comes together.

Second: Stargazing

It has been close to 4 months now that I've known him. And today we are on our second month as a couple. And I feel so blessed to have him in my life. He came at a perfect time. I am already healed of my past pains and I have come to know myself more. I have proven to myself that I am capable of loving. The moment that I have let go of the desire to be in a relationship, was the moment it all happened. And he loves me. And I've seen it, not just because of his constant reminder thru words but also because of the many small and huge things he did for me, more so the sacrifice he has done and he will be doing.

In two months time he will be moving to Cebu. It would be a huge leap for both of us. I will be helping him with the arrangements and of course be here for him to welcome him to his new home. I hope there will never come a time that he will regret this move.

I haven't written much on how strongly I feel about him. I should someday gather all my thoughts and feelings and write about how he makes me feel. His hand seems so natural when holding mine. Its like it fitted perfectly in between my small fingers. And this is one of my favorite things in the world. Someone holding my hand. And he doesn't let go.

I am in love and so blessed to be in it since this time, the one person I chose to love feels the same way. Ain't that the best birthday gift ever???

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I feel ill today.
The people that I love are either ill themselves or is causing me such a headache I just want to scream at them.