il be very brief...

the next few weeks' going to be crazy...

i dont feel i deserve her friendship...sometimes im okay with things, sometimes im not...is it because i havn't fully accepted the whole situation? still felt like she took something away from me...well she changed my entire life in just a snap of a finger...i think i needed it to explore college before its too late...somehow im thankful coz the situatioin made me stronger.we're still best of friend but then i still fear that someday im gonna be another reason...

anyway, what should i do with this? kept avoiding them/her in school... im like a nomad...

how could i stand going overnights making projects?

focus...

got lots of stuff to do...better get going coz i still have 2 chapters to study for our data com.

things i look forward to nowadays:
getting my ass out of tc.
going home.
my father's birthday.
my aunty baggy's arrival.
end of my 4th year.
ping's arrival.
molly's wedding.
singapore tour.

i guess that's about it for now...

God bless to all...

"The greatest gift is not found in a store nor under a tree,
but in the hearts of a true friend."
i hope that true friend exists within this life time of mine.

Im confused as ever...I know where I'm going but who am I supposed to trust along the way? Some people say that they are my friends but do they really care?Do they even know how I truly feel right now?Maybe its better this way, I have no one close in school...No definite group to belong to...A total Nomad for that matter...
I am selfish, I have to admit...these past few days I have been thinking of how I feel...but is it wrong to choose not to hurt?I guess the best way to make it alright for everybody is for me to protect my heart at the same time avoid hurting other people...I think and feel too much...I think that's my biggest problem...anyway, I know this blog is full of emotions, might be even full of shit!but then this is my blog and therefore this is my shit and anyone who has a problem with that then don't read...

Am I becoming bitter?I hope not...

God bless to all!

Just finished my lunch and I got the most wonderful news ever...going home for lunch has its disadvantages and lots of advantages...had to go to my mom's office to get the key but i glad i took that excrutiating ride under that extreme heat...i got in the house and read my aunt's email...

anyway here i am, all alone but happy...

here i am, with out a companion but contented...

here i am, still searching for myself amidst the people who don't expect too much of me...but they are there...for no reason whatsoever...they are open to any kind of conversation...they may or may not judge you but then who cares? so as long as they don't hurt me, I'll be fine with total strangers...

I am not lost. I may not have anyone to call my own but then I know where I am going....

so long for now...superficials....