Sunday, April 27, 2008

Dreams do come true

My schedules' been quite full lately. It had been a week now since our summer outing and so far my tan lines are still visible but all the sun burnt skin already peeled itself off. There are still 2 more trips to look forward to: 1. Tagaytay and 2. Madrid, Spain (that is if our visa's are approved!)...Can you believe I'm traveling to Europe in about 13 days? And it hasn't sinked in yet. Although even for being considered to be one among the team to have training in Madrid is pretty awesome. Up to now I still can't believe it could be possible, that I could get to Europe and back pack towards France or Barcelona whichever is much cheaper. Anyways, let's not get too carried away here. I'm still in Cebu and I haven't even planned out my wardrobe yet. hehehe...
Okay so Tagaytay...Although I have been to Manila 3 times already, twice this year in a span of 1 month, I haven't gotten near Tagaytay. And what's more is that I'll be attending my first every Toastmaster's District Convention. Better gear up my English coz I bet most the people who'll be attending the convention are going to be awfully talkative. And I'm pretty excited coz I'll be hanging out with, let's call him August, August Rush...Why? Because he loved the movie and I loved the movie and music's one of the reasons that brought us two together...Amongst a lot of other things...But then again he's another story...
I'm very happy to report that I've lost a couple of pounds without putting effort into dieting or exercising...What in the world did I do??? I played pool - I have games every Tuesdays and Thursdays @ City Sports Club, stayed in the office late and get myself engrossed with work and fund raising initiatives.
And there's photography...I met another friend, actually she was my classmate in French 101. We're kinda similar in so many ways, independent, hardworking, domineering and thoughtful. She loves drinking tea as much as I do and delves in alternative music. And lately we share another passion: photography! Her name is Jasmin and lately she has become my trusted friend, confidante and mentor. She lent me her Nikon DSLR camera so that according to her I'll be inspired to buy my own. We took lotsa pictures during our APC (Accenture Photography Club) outing (this is one of my favorite shots) which I'm also proud to report that I won second place and had a blast this afternoon when we had our lighting class in Family park. She's like the older sister I never had...
And she's a movie addict like me...I'll post her picture as soon as I'll be able to download it from the cam.

Data Work, Barobaybay Fund Raising, photography, music, movies, billiards, August, family - Aunt Linda, Aunt Baggy and Ping are coming home on May1...yepee...They're the one's keeping me busy... And with constant prayers, faith in oneself and belief in my ultimate maker, I know I can create opportunities for myself and make all my dreams come true, one step at a time...

Toodles

Thursday, April 10, 2008

fogged glasses

Life has its way of turning things around, funny coz I always thought that if I laugh today I may cry tomorrow. That has been my belief since I was in high school. It's not pessimism but more of realism that drives me to think that way. Yet the past few days have been quite emotional for me. A simple movie, song or even phrase drives me to tears. I can' t quite explain the feeling, trusting someone with your heart and finding out that they're all the same, God-fearing, sensitive, surprisingly consistent, caring and sincere. Yet they always find ways to somehow rip a portion of your heart into tiny bits and pieces until you bleed no more. And what's worse is that I am aware of Mrs. Roosevelt's words of wisdom: Nobody can hurt you with out your consent. With these words it seems there's no one else to blame but myself and that makes me even more angry. I don't want to be consumed with this wrath, it turns me into a ticking bomb, 4 3 2 1...KABOOM! But once again I have reached boiling point, people messing around, thinking that my smile and my words of escape are one, yet I was merely putting being defensive lightly. If I say stop and smile does that mean that I want them to go on? Should I be angrier and fiercer so that they would believe a single word I'm saying? I'm riding the jeepney alone thinking that this is just one of those days, where I'm not in the mood to be teased, to be humiliated - not that I'm ever up to it -, to be put on the spot, to be fed to the wolves. I'm tired and my crying nights are getting recursive. What am I to do?

A couple of phrases that brought about this emotional rampage:

-when you forgive, you love. and when you love, God's light shines upon you...-
-happiness is real when shared-

Tomorrow's going to be another day, hopeful less disappointments and less heartaches...