sweet madness

When will I ever learn?I am falling again into the abyss of the unknown.Diving head on.Unknown.Dark.Dangerous.Yet falling still.In your pain.In your smile.In your words.In knowing you.I dive further.Sinking.Drowning in my own admiration.Suffocating on the longing for more.More time.More moments.More words.More knowledge of who you really are.I can't stand still.I am living my life to the fullest.Yet every moment I breathe.Every moment I speak.Every second I smile.My heart skips a beat and I think of you.

Intersection

I just have to blog this...

Today I am beyond euphoric if there was such state. You should've seen my face, I was glowing. I can feel myself glowing and my cheeks burning.

And yet it is all too real, too fast, too much?

Who am I to complain?I have never in my entire life been treated like some precious stone - exaggerating again. But how can I ever describe this day without sounding too much? Nor being to brash about the whole situation. Urggg...I wish I could just sing all of these feelings and put it in a song. A song that I will remember everytime I feel sick and tired of being lonely.

I want to connect the dots but even that is too early to do. This is madness in its sweetest form!

~he never misses to make me smile in every single second of my day.
~he tells me how grateful he is.
~he was genuinely sorry for hurting my feelings...not knowing he was forgiven a long time ago.

Momentum-Killer

I got home early today because as I was typing away on the code that was brilliantly scripted in my brain, the power in the office went out! It was still 6:30 PM. As an obedient employee, since I got in at 8:30 AM I fixed my clock for me to go out at 7:00PM, I know 9 hours seemed too long all of a sudden. Although I turned on my pc back again, I couldn't think straight anymore. It was as if the logic that took me 10 minutes to figure out was wiped away. Darn! But I am grateful, I didn't get to stay in the office till 10PM on a Monday night.

Last 2 weeks ago I had to work from home coz guess what, I got the mumps. I was enjoying the arrangement up until Friday when my migraine begun to suck the life out of me. My fever was manageable however, I kept on vomiting everything that I ate and drank. So I had to be admitted to Chonghua to have fluids thru dextrose. For the first time in my entire life, I was an official patient - the H1N1 scare didn't count coz I was healthy as a horse then. Up until now, I still haven't gotten my appetite back. Everything is either too salty or too sweet. I'm worried coz my love for food is slowly disappearing. That when I finally had the chance to eat at Spice Fusion with college friends the weekend after I got better, the food with all its spices and marinade, was just OK for me. I waited so long to dine at Spice Fusion but to my dismay, it was just normal. Scary!

A lot of momentum-killers; aside from the freakin brownout, no budget, no time and awful people who thinks they know me better than I know myself. Sometimes I would imagine pulling their tongues out of their mouths before they could even dare to speak and twist it into a tight knot! That should keep them quiet while I try to plan my escape. But, I keep on hearing my friend Kate say to me: Van, be a lady till the end! So I smile and walk away.

Anyway, I am currently trying to look for French lessons online so that all those Saturdays of French lesson won't go to waste. I am still in love with the sound of the language. And my determination to master the language is back. I might someday write a song in French.

Gotta go listen to madamoiselle parle Francaise. Au Revior a bientot!

ICEBOX

I got this ICEBOX where my heart used to be... - Omarion

Did you know that I had a code name when I was in 4th grade? Yep I was so hooked into this football movie: Little Giants that I adopted the girl's name: ICEBOX. And there was only one person who remembered it. He admitted of having a crush on me when we were classmates under Mrs. Montebon's homeroom. Just a little trivia...

Anyway, what have I been up to lately???

Currently I am still working in the same company still doing tons of SAP work specifically only Reports from Reports Interface Conversion Enhancement Form Workflow, so you can see even if I take all the jobs from 3 different countries all at the same time I'm just learning one aspect of SAP. But on the contrary, I am also touching a bit of the functional side, learning as much as I can. I know you can't relate to this so moving on...

I am currently the president of Accenture Cebu Toastmasters Club, Core group for Accenture Cebu Photography Club and Core Group for Accenture Chorale Group Cebu. Whew, I know got my hands full and I am still very interested in teaching in Pasarelle, one of the joint initiative of USC, ACN and the French folks. Gosh I know, when will I ever stop? answer: when I am no longer breathing!

And my best office bud, lunch mate and one and only antagonist in my life: Chibby has got me all worked up with all these dances by Mia Gonzales. She's Japanese but teaches awesome hiphop and jazz. So I am more determined than ever to go to Abellana on a Saturday, jog and put some choreography into the mixes by Pitbull. Especially now, after visiting the clinic this afternoon to my horror I agained 2 pounds...Arrg...but still gratefull, coz I am healthy alive and kicking ass!

Busy busy busy.

Happy happy happy!

Je te desire...****** ~_~