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Wednesday, July 14, 2004
Just finished typing our report on our ComE 414L and after a very tiring practice, Im still alive and kicking...had a very scary afternoon. I was cornered by such unexpected people.I just don't understand why I can't seem to lie about my feelings. I just sat there, smiled like hell and let the aliens eat me alive...anyway, in spite of bruises and sores all over, Im still glad I got in the Engr. Pop jazz...its like somehow, my dreams are slowly coming to reality...except for like a bit of...you know na...well we can't always get what we want...
Tuesday, July 06, 2004
This is what maia was talking about!This is our lesson in ethics...At first I thought that Buddhism is a considerable religion...not that I have any plans changing religion but I mean the teachings are reasonable enough to poke you right in the head...just read through and reflect!
The first part of the Eightfold Noble Path is RIGHT VIEW or RIGHT UNDERSTANDING. This means knowing the Four Noble Truths.
The First Noble Truth is the knowledge that ALL that has been CREATED is IMPERMANENT. And whatever is impermanent is inherently ILL. And what is impermanent and ill is SELFLESS.
Two is the knowledge that the arising of ill is based on ignorance and it is perpetuated by the craving and intoxication for sensuality and sensations, becoming and rebecoming, delusion and ignorance.
Three is the knowledge that the CEASING of this ill that has arisen, the stopping of all future becomings, is Nirvana. True Reality realized, freed of this ill.
Four is the knowledge of the Eightfold Noble Path that leads to the cessation of this ill and to winning the goal: Nirvana. True Permanent State of Self, Permanent Changeless Absolute Reality ITSELF, Suchness, Perfect Wisdom.
The second part is RIGHT THINKING or RIGHT AIM. This means to aspire to attain realization of Perfect Wisdom, the Ultimate True Permanent Reality. To abstain from all evil acts of thought. To attain the total destruction of all cravings. To renounce all manifesting, all constructions, all that is "created" make-believe.
To develop dispassion, total detachment, absolute renunciation, self-surrender. To bring about the cessation of all "created" realities. To Self-Realize the Incomparable Awakening of Self. To win the freedom of Mind, the freedom through Perfect Intuitive Wisdom, the sane and immune emancipation of Will.
The third part is RIGHT SPEECH. To abstain from all lying speech, all perjurious speech, all evil abusive speech and all frivolous speech. To engage in speech and discussion that pertains to and leads to Nirvana, to what’s actually PERMANENT and REAL.
The fourth part is RIGHT ACTION. To abstain from all killing of all creatures. To abstain from all stealing. To abstain from all sensual and sexual misconduct. To abstain from all evil acts. To abstain from all forms of intoxication.
The fifth part is RIGHT LIVING. To abstain from all evil ways of living; to abstain from all evil methods of livelihood.
The sixth part is RIGHT EFFORT. To destroy all EVIL STATES OF MIND that have already arisen; to keep NEW evil states of mind FROM arising; to maintain and grow GOOD STATES OF MIND that have already arisen; and to make grow NEW good states of mind that have not yet arisen, such as loving kindness for ALL Beings, compassion and pity for ALL creatures, sympathetic joy and equanimity.
The seventh part is RIGHT MINDFULNESS. To contemplate as impermanent, ill and Selfless: Body, Feelings, Perception, Mind, Consciousness, Thought, Mental States, Mental Objects and Mental Activity. To grow revulsion for the world, seeing it for the decaying creation that it is, and to grow dispassion, total detachment, calm, tranquility, seeing that everything is not Self. To disregard all that is perceived, remaining aloof from both the pleasures as well as the pains arising from the creation of senses and sensuality.
The eighth part is RIGHT CONCENTRATION. Aloof from the world, aloof from evil states, aloof from all sensations from the senses, dwelling in solitude, seclusion, ardent, diligent, Self-resolute, develop one-pointedness of Mind through intense meditation and reflection.
To enter in, AND THEN TRANSCEND, eight higher states of consciousness that lead to increasing Intuitive Wisdom, Insight and Direct Super-Knowledge, and to destroying the addictions and cravings, and to realizing True Reality, effectively piercing the shell of ignorance and delusion. As one attains the higher states of Mind, Consciousness, the true nature of how things really are can be seen clearly, both intuitively and with supreme effort, by direct Super-Knowledge. True Reality unfolding, Self-Enlightenment of Self by Self.
So anyway, I'm having second thoughts on the pop jazz...Don't get me wrong, I really like to dance but then just realized that it would really require much of my time...Have to make lots of sacrifices... but then again, I still want to practice. It don't only make me loose weight but it also inspires me, in a way...hehehe...SECRET NA NA!Because of....nevermind...
I grew tired of waiting
it always makes me confused
who am I really?
to you I mean...
how long should we go on like this?
pretending nothing's happened
or yet happening...
others could see
but why can't you?
Are you that blind?
I know you're not stupid
but sometimes you are...
not that I'm blaming you
its just that...
my heart has had enough!
~plum~
The first part of the Eightfold Noble Path is RIGHT VIEW or RIGHT UNDERSTANDING. This means knowing the Four Noble Truths.
The First Noble Truth is the knowledge that ALL that has been CREATED is IMPERMANENT. And whatever is impermanent is inherently ILL. And what is impermanent and ill is SELFLESS.
Two is the knowledge that the arising of ill is based on ignorance and it is perpetuated by the craving and intoxication for sensuality and sensations, becoming and rebecoming, delusion and ignorance.
Three is the knowledge that the CEASING of this ill that has arisen, the stopping of all future becomings, is Nirvana. True Reality realized, freed of this ill.
Four is the knowledge of the Eightfold Noble Path that leads to the cessation of this ill and to winning the goal: Nirvana. True Permanent State of Self, Permanent Changeless Absolute Reality ITSELF, Suchness, Perfect Wisdom.
The second part is RIGHT THINKING or RIGHT AIM. This means to aspire to attain realization of Perfect Wisdom, the Ultimate True Permanent Reality. To abstain from all evil acts of thought. To attain the total destruction of all cravings. To renounce all manifesting, all constructions, all that is "created" make-believe.
To develop dispassion, total detachment, absolute renunciation, self-surrender. To bring about the cessation of all "created" realities. To Self-Realize the Incomparable Awakening of Self. To win the freedom of Mind, the freedom through Perfect Intuitive Wisdom, the sane and immune emancipation of Will.
The third part is RIGHT SPEECH. To abstain from all lying speech, all perjurious speech, all evil abusive speech and all frivolous speech. To engage in speech and discussion that pertains to and leads to Nirvana, to what’s actually PERMANENT and REAL.
The fourth part is RIGHT ACTION. To abstain from all killing of all creatures. To abstain from all stealing. To abstain from all sensual and sexual misconduct. To abstain from all evil acts. To abstain from all forms of intoxication.
The fifth part is RIGHT LIVING. To abstain from all evil ways of living; to abstain from all evil methods of livelihood.
The sixth part is RIGHT EFFORT. To destroy all EVIL STATES OF MIND that have already arisen; to keep NEW evil states of mind FROM arising; to maintain and grow GOOD STATES OF MIND that have already arisen; and to make grow NEW good states of mind that have not yet arisen, such as loving kindness for ALL Beings, compassion and pity for ALL creatures, sympathetic joy and equanimity.
The seventh part is RIGHT MINDFULNESS. To contemplate as impermanent, ill and Selfless: Body, Feelings, Perception, Mind, Consciousness, Thought, Mental States, Mental Objects and Mental Activity. To grow revulsion for the world, seeing it for the decaying creation that it is, and to grow dispassion, total detachment, calm, tranquility, seeing that everything is not Self. To disregard all that is perceived, remaining aloof from both the pleasures as well as the pains arising from the creation of senses and sensuality.
The eighth part is RIGHT CONCENTRATION. Aloof from the world, aloof from evil states, aloof from all sensations from the senses, dwelling in solitude, seclusion, ardent, diligent, Self-resolute, develop one-pointedness of Mind through intense meditation and reflection.
To enter in, AND THEN TRANSCEND, eight higher states of consciousness that lead to increasing Intuitive Wisdom, Insight and Direct Super-Knowledge, and to destroying the addictions and cravings, and to realizing True Reality, effectively piercing the shell of ignorance and delusion. As one attains the higher states of Mind, Consciousness, the true nature of how things really are can be seen clearly, both intuitively and with supreme effort, by direct Super-Knowledge. True Reality unfolding, Self-Enlightenment of Self by Self.
So anyway, I'm having second thoughts on the pop jazz...Don't get me wrong, I really like to dance but then just realized that it would really require much of my time...Have to make lots of sacrifices... but then again, I still want to practice. It don't only make me loose weight but it also inspires me, in a way...hehehe...SECRET NA NA!Because of....nevermind...
I grew tired of waiting
it always makes me confused
who am I really?
to you I mean...
how long should we go on like this?
pretending nothing's happened
or yet happening...
others could see
but why can't you?
Are you that blind?
I know you're not stupid
but sometimes you are...
not that I'm blaming you
its just that...
my heart has had enough!
~plum~
Sunday, July 04, 2004
Here I am again, blogging after a very long ang tiring day. My only consolation is that I get to see and hang-out with "you-know-who" and well of course my ka berks...
My everyday dilemma includes 25 units of mixed major and minor subjects and a whole lot of love problems...Well not all are mine. I think just a few but then again, why would I make our relationship a problem? If anyone should ask, I'd still say we're friends but with a little twist...Most of the time that he's with me, we talk ALOT! We never ran out of stories to tell. He'd like, poke me on the shoulder if I fell silent or pinch me then we then begin our very much awaited conversations. I like it very much when I joke around and he hugs me, well sorta like that, or puts his arm around me. It makes me feel secured!But then again, WE'RE JUST FRIENDS! I therefore conclude that he doesnt have a clue that I LIKE HIM A LOT! Of course I like him, why would I hang-out with a guy like him if I didn't enjoy every single minute of it.Right?And so in spite of my plan which is to avoid him, we end up being together all the time. But I never grow tired of being with him, laughing at his jokes, listening to his crazy and wild stories and ideas even if sometimes I just nod my head even if I didn't quite relate to it, eating out, walking home or just sitting next to him in silence. How could I ever find someone like him? For me, he's all I ever wanted in a guy and he's the one thing I could not have. D I L E M M A...What a harsh world!
I'm looking forward of going to school on Monday...
God bless!
My everyday dilemma includes 25 units of mixed major and minor subjects and a whole lot of love problems...Well not all are mine. I think just a few but then again, why would I make our relationship a problem? If anyone should ask, I'd still say we're friends but with a little twist...Most of the time that he's with me, we talk ALOT! We never ran out of stories to tell. He'd like, poke me on the shoulder if I fell silent or pinch me then we then begin our very much awaited conversations. I like it very much when I joke around and he hugs me, well sorta like that, or puts his arm around me. It makes me feel secured!But then again, WE'RE JUST FRIENDS! I therefore conclude that he doesnt have a clue that I LIKE HIM A LOT! Of course I like him, why would I hang-out with a guy like him if I didn't enjoy every single minute of it.Right?And so in spite of my plan which is to avoid him, we end up being together all the time. But I never grow tired of being with him, laughing at his jokes, listening to his crazy and wild stories and ideas even if sometimes I just nod my head even if I didn't quite relate to it, eating out, walking home or just sitting next to him in silence. How could I ever find someone like him? For me, he's all I ever wanted in a guy and he's the one thing I could not have. D I L E M M A...What a harsh world!
I'm looking forward of going to school on Monday...
God bless!
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