Pride and Prejudice

Well I know I kinda promised to give you my review on the movie but when I roamed around national bookstore yesterday, I found the book and decided to buy one on my payday.

And so I must postpone my review on the movie.

No really, I don't have anything to say about the movie except that I liked it and most of the scenes got me like bolt of lightning...still sends a shiver down my spine...

I don't really know why every single nice movie I watched I can relate to. It seems that I have certain experiences which seemed kinda similar with the plot of the movie. Maybe its always like that, its not as if the stories are not based on people's lives.

Well enough said about the topic...

Yesterday was one of the best days I had. Got less calls but fortunately I was able to solve most of it. And when we had a meeting for the yearbook, he was there. I was so glad to see him and talk to him about what's he been up to lately...

What I don't understand is that when we're together, I feel so safe and so contented with what we are and what I am to him.

But when I don't see him and miss him, I would tell myself that I would one day tell him that I like him but I ended up admitting that I cannot do that to our friendship.I am confused and I also am confusing every single person who knows about this. hahaha... It seems that I am not making sense anymore...

Oh well, he's going to borrow my digi cam next week coz he's going to take pictures of TC for the yearbook. I'm so jealous coz I wanted to practice photography and its going to be a great opportunity but then I have to work...

Anyway, he says he's going to take care of it...so we'll see...hehehe...

Till next time...

by the way, try to check out this site: goddesslexie.blogspot.com!I'm going to add it to my links...Loved the site and I'm sure you will too...

bye and take care!

I'm done with work and I feel really good...

Felt that I have accomplished something today and that would be:

1.)improved my customer service
2.)bonded with my buddy
3.)found a new friend -->lexie

well i know its only 3 things but its major...

well anyway, lesson for today???

be very keen on details!

and by the way, I watched Pride and Prejudice and unfortunately Canence, it didn't put me to sleep. It was a very moving, interesting movie...

my review would be due tomorrow...hehehe:)

I tried to believe in that "first impression never lasts" saying...But then why is it that everytime I give it a second chance on knowing the person it seems that they are getting worse. I mean take this guy for example, I got pissed of (forgive my french) by his aggressive behavior. Well I was not the only one who felt offended by his forwardness but then we had to live with it because he's one of our team mates... so I tried to avoid him coz I might end up insulting the hell out of him.

And today, since Vanessa is in a good mood, I tried to give it a second chance. And guess what, he's still the way he is.

It just boils down to one conclusion: He is who he is...And I or anyone else for that matter can change that!

WE CANNOT CONTROL OTHER PEOPLE BUT WE CAN CONTROL OURSELVES!

So there goes my pet peeves for the day!

I hope I can see him(wink) soon!That would be such a treat!!!

No not the latter...YUCK!!!

A dose of mushiness...

It took me a while to realize that what I need for my day to be complete is a pinch of tingles.

Just say my name and I'll be in cloud nine...
tap in the shoulder and I will dream of you
And when you talk to me don't look away
Look me straight in the eye
coz even if you won't feel what I feel
if you see right through my wall
I would die in peace
Just by knowing that you exist...

One of those Days!!!

One of those Days!!!

I’m not myself tonight...Well not my strong self that is. Passivity and paranoia over things keep haunting me right now. I just finished textin’ my friend and planned for a hook up this Saturday night. Haven’t seen some people for ages now and well the only way I could snatch them from their busy schedule is when I declare that I will celebrate my birthday! Yeah... Its really that hard...Anyway, back to my self loathing...

It seems that this is always the case with me. I meet some guy, spends time with him, becomes his friend then eventually turns into his close friend that I would almost seem like a best friend and end up falling for that guy...Arggg...Its really frustrating! Its like my relationships seem to have a pattern of some sort. What sucks is that in the end, when I have given all of me (well not really all of me), when I have finally let my defenses down and raised the white flag of my heart, they ran off with some girl who they think is right for them. My heart might have scared them off...Or maybe they think of me as a sister and feels weird...

I know what my problem is...Its my heart. Or is it my entire being that’s causing all this sad and lonely life stories to occur. *Sigh* Fate is playing tricks on me. When will it ever stop spinning and finally point the bottle towards my very existence? When will all this convincing that there is or there is nothing there for me to hope for? Why is it always end up being this complicated?

I know I must live my life by the moment and be grateful for what I am, what I have achieved and what I have right this very instant...I have no right whatsoever to ask for more than this...

So I’ll shut up now and swallow this lump that’s slowly filling up my throat!

Saying goodbye and taming a wild bore

Its been two days since my rainy 22nd birthday. The party was great and everybody was happy, and yes it does include me because aside from my family being there including my nephew and my Aunt Baggy, both my old and new friends were there.

Today we had to say goodbye to two of our team mates. Sonny and Tristan...

Sonny, the law student was kind and truthful...although he played mysterious guy right from day one but then he's really kind and caring and he's like the older brother I never had.

Tristan was the Mr. Know-It-All guy who said that I was a moralist. Oh well its his opinion of me, and he is entitled to his own opinion. He's really a very articulate guy and although most of us can't understand his attitude, I always thought he is a very talented person.

Most of the girls cried. I was sad and wished that the company could've given them a second chance and gave us time to help them improve what they needed to improve but then as what the president said, they need to let go because the company has its standards which should be met to attain the stability it so protects.

I know Sonny's going to be a great lawyer, truthful and with heart.

And Tristan, well maybe he would make it to Pinoy Big Brother...

As for me, I fear for Friday. We're going to have another evaluation. But then, as what I tell Jesus everyday...I trust in You Lord!!!

How do you tame a wild bore?

My brother seems to be way over his head. Yeah he hasn't reached 21 yet and he already thinks he's always right. And one thing that I hate is when he talks back to my mom. She deserves better. I just wish and pray that he would someday grow up and develop patience and responsibility of owning up to his mistakes. I don't want to argue nor fight with him or anyone for that matter. I want peace in my home and in my life...

So you would ask, how's my heart???

Well, its excited and hopeful...

EXCITED because I had realized that I am now ready to eradicate those standards that I had set for my dream guy...That I am now more mature at how I look at relationships and very open in meeting anyone for that matter...

HOPEFUL because in spite of my HT's passive attitude towards our complicated friendship, he's still here... he may not be the guy who would catch me when I fall but I know he'll be there when I wanted a shoulder to cry on...

REVIEWS:

Guys you have to read Jessica Zafra's book Twisted... Its amazing and well written...Realistically humorous and well defined. So grab a copy now!!!

2 Strikes and I am still Standing

I'm getting used to the MAC OS 10 environment that I think I'm loving it. The other day we used Canence laptop but yesterday we used the president's. Hehehe...

Well anyway, yep received 2 strikes from 2 different people, well actually 2 of my team mates in CallTek! What got me is the realization that they see me that way. It occurred to me that even in my innocent foray of the complexities of the human mind, I am still at awe at my own self.

HE THINKS THAT I AM A MORALIST!!!

Am I really? I told them that I am not, well I think I'm not! Having my own values and principles in life doesn't make me a moralist. I don't shove in people's faces my beliefs. I don't even know where they came from. I guess it just sprung from the different experiences I have. I feel the need to talk to my friend Maje. I know she's the only person who could bring some light into this confusion.

I AM SO GOOD THAT I ENDED UP BEING BORING!!!

Well I don't know about this but I know I have tried to change myself several times but always end up being the same ol me. Its hard to be bad! Its even harder to be good. I asked my friend Sue to elaborate on the matter and she told me that I am such a typical girl, good character, highly intellectual, good family background, pretty(she said it not me) and a great friend but all of that seems so boring.

I guess most guys want wild women! I am wild if I wanted to but to a certain degree...

I don't know, maybe I do need a make over of some sort. Maybe I should look at my life and find out what's missing.

But I have to take one step at a time. Live the moment.

And I have once again gotten to the point where I know I must let go of the ravine that I am hanging...

It takes time and effort and willingness...And my heart is willing...


So tell me people, am I a boring moralist???