Gosh what a night...

Had to help my friend cathy and fill her in with what we did during training since she went to Manila for her cousin's wedding. I really had fun talking to her since she makes so much sense but then even if she's that sensible, she can also be extremely funny...had coffee with her and alain...twas fun and we talked about stuff...

anyhow, im still contemplating on whether i should continue with this craziness im in...I know i kinda promised myself that i would concentrate on my work and studies and won't let any distractions take my focus away from my priorities...but then here goes my heart again...playing tricks again...and here I am, back to square one... I tried to stay walled up but he keeps on breaking my defenses down. you might ask me how...but then I can't go into details here...

All i want right now is to show him I care, not just because I admire him but then its more like I want to be his friend...maybe by then I would understand him better and I would know my place...

he'll be on my mind -- from norah jones' don't know why

Horoscope and the like...

My Horoscope for today...

for Thursday, January 19:

You've got big plans for later on in the evening, but before you can get to that, you've got to tackle your 'to-do' list. While it looks substantial now, taking care of items one by one will be more efficient than you think.


Do you want to know what my plans are for tonight????


Oh well I plan to not go to sleep again...

I plan to solve this problem of UART, Universal Asynchronous Reception and Transmission in Matlab...Its kinda difficult coz its not your everyday programming thing...

I plan to refine my speech and do well in our mock calls tonight...

Well basically that is all that's on the menu tonight...

maybe FATE will add some more...

Chow!

I'M ON MY WAY TO A HUGE MAKE-OVER

When you said something to someone you care so much about and afterwards you felt bad about saying it, DO APOLOGIZE. Say you are sorry even if you think that you were correct. Well the mere bad feeling that's there even if you are logically right makes it all wrong. You won't lose anything coz if we would talk about pride, if it were somebody else maybe I would have second or third thoughts but with someone who's close to you, why risk a day of that person feeling bad or disappointed about the whole thing...

Anywayz, training's going great...Just don't be shocked to hear me go slangy while talking to you...Our trainer Gina told us that its not Slang coz that would mean street language. Gina is a great at what she does...She's also fun. Although we haven't hanged out yet coz of course she's an employee and I think she's already Level 2 but then I feel so open towards her...

Another learning I might add is:

Always question what you want!!!

And I've decided to apply that everytime I feel so impulsive. Maybe it would keep me out of trouble...

Please pray for all of our batch, that we could finish our projects and graduate this March...

CAN'T HARDLY WAIT!

This is from Seventeen.com...

The feisty nature of the Aries boy will amuse you to no end, and he'll look to you for a steadying presence that keeps him from getting carried away.Your sign ruler, Venus, will be enticed by his Mars-ruled ability to quickly decide what he wants and go after it. You'll love watching him excel at sports or business, and he'll appreciate your encouragement to stick with what he's already started. He might have to prod you from time to time, but one thing's for sure: the passion between you will be intense.You can help to balance one another's tendencies toward extremes, but if you decide he's a keeper, avoid nagging this independent guy. Plentiful compliments and a subtle way of guiding him will work best when you need to persuade him. You and your Aries guy will learn that a balance between action and determination will help you build a fabulous life together.

It seems that I am still confused with things.

But let me just say this, and I know this may sound far out or shall I say too soon to say but believe me this is how I see things between us right now...

Honestly I don't expect him to like me perce! Its not that I don't believe that he would its just that I got tired of the feeling of you know, expecting...

I am grateful that we're friends, although not that close coz I realized that I am still getting to know the different personas he's playing in this movie of ours...

And so far, all is going well with my life right now...

Everything is in place: got work at CallTek, project's progressing(Thank God!) and he's constantly there to make me laugh and listen to me...hahaha...^__^

IN OTHER WORDS: I AM CONTENTED!!!

How could I make myself forget you for a while...???

I'm watching you watch over me and I've got the greatest view...

Everything's going smoothly with our project although sometimes it really wores me out just thinking of all those modules we lack and with so little time...I'm supposed to go to TC and meet with Luis, our adviser. I hope we could finish the Matlab part so that it wouldn't be too scary since Jan.18 would be the deadline for changes and we need to at least put up all the modules before that day.

Had my first day for OJT in CallTek last night and so far it was fun. I'm kinda eager to polish my English since I know even if I have random thoughts and endless words(if my brain is not freezed) I still stammer especially if I get nervous. We were a noisy batch, says the HR, Ms. Arnie...She's got absolutely amazing accent and even if sometimes her voice kinda hurts my eardrums but she's cool...not too lenient...not too strict...in other words, she knows her place...

And I should know mine...

I want to stop liking him...Why?

Coz I don't want distractions at this time...its crucial...you know!well you wouldn't know coz you're not in my place. But then I see him almost everyday, we talk or rather if I opted not to talk he would do everything to get my attention. I should set aside all this insane thoughts and focus on what's essential..but its hard...I couldn't stop thinking of him that even when I wake up in the morning, I realized that I just dreamed of him...how sad...coz I know he doesn't see me the way I like him to...

uh oh...gotta go...

chill!!!

GET REAL AND DEAL

Sensuality

What a word...

Toto says:

WHEN YOUR HEART GETS BROKEN ITS THEN YOU WILL DISCOVER YOUR SENSUALITY...

I don't know about that but for me, when my heart got broken it wasn't long enough before i placed back the broken pieces together...it was hard but then patience still is a virtue and I guess I just realized that I have plenty of time and so far that's all I need...