hey guys did you watch the last fireworks display last night? it was spectacular. although the rain kept on pouring, we stayed at the pagibig building. it feels so lonely not having to share it with someone special. it was such a cold night that you might really need someone to hold on to and hug. for me, i hugged toby, my youngest cousin. hehehe...anyway i wasn't able to sleep well coz like it was 2 am and my cousin was still talking on the cell phone to this guy. i tried not to listen to their conversation but she was right beside me. grrr....i was really sleepy but if ever i get to wake up in the middle of the night, i would find it hard to go back to sleep. i was too tired to log on the net...by the way, when we went to the dermatologist yesterday to get my cousin denise checked up, there was this lady who said she was a member of a prominent family here in cebu practically nagged her head of because her niece won't be entertained unless they'll be able to get a referral from a certain doctor. i understood her demise but she was just full of bull that she made the secretary cry. she acted as if she was all high and mighty. when would those people learn that no matter how much plastic surgery they undergo, it would always show in their personality that they are uneducated... i didn't want to get involve coz you know me, i won't be able to talk back, so i just kept my eyes on the magazine i was reading. well anyway we also brought our dog to the vet. the poor fella had a fever. he was injected with medicine four time... he's so cute.... i wish i could bring him to our house...but its my cousin molly's dog,given by her boyfriend. what else happened yesterday, well i guess that about covers it... have some resolutions but i'm still deciding of whether i'd be posting them...till then...HAPPY NEW YEAR TO YOU ALL....*mwaah**wink*

I’m trying to concentrate on making my lab reports but it seems that my mind drifts of to something or rather someone else. I finally finished the watching the entire “Bruce Almighty”! And his prayer at the end was really touching. It got me thinking, what if I wouldn’t pray to God the same way I always do. I mean I do pray for my HT’s good health and peace of mind but honestly deep inside I’d also pray for him to like me back… Pretty selfish don’t you think? But in the end I’d realize that it should be God’s will not mine that would be done. Somehow it really struck me when Bruce said “ I pray for her happiness no matter what it means!” Imagine that… Of course it doesn’t always follow that the one person you truly like or love’s happiness includes having known you… I know that I have nothing to complain about coz I’m practically blessed to have been his friend. Anyway I realized another thing today. While we were waiting for my cousin’s car to be repaired, I tried to amuse myself by listening to those mechanics’s conversation. While they were explaining to my cousin Denise her car’s problems, I got really interested. Although I honestly didn’t understand the importance of each part, I find fuddling over the different car parts really amusing. To start with, her car needed a fan belt so that it wouldn’t keep on over heating. Next she needed a compressor; that I have no idea what for. Anyway, I promised myself that someday, I’d study automation and well hopefully assemble my very own car. I think that would be possible coz my other cousin in L.A. Paul Young assembled his own sports car. Kinda strange for a girl to be so interested in those stuff, right? Well each one of us has his/her own eccentricity. And that’s what makes life more interesting…. By the way, here’s an article I found in my laptop, I think my brother saved it here. Enjoy reading and your comments and suggestions or violent reactions would be very much appreciated.

LISTEN FOR LOVE
There are times when we are timid and shy about expressing the love we feel. For fear of embarrassing the other person, or ourselves, we hesitate to say the actual words "I love you." So we try to communicate the idea in other words.
We say 'take care' or 'don't drive too fast' or 'be good.' But really, these are just other ways of saying 'I love you,' 'you are important to me,' 'I care what happens to you,' 'I don't want you to get hurt.'
We are sometimes very strange people. The only thing we want to say, and the one thing that we should say, is the one thing we don't say. And yet, because the feeling is so real, and the need to say it is so strong, we are driven to use other words and signs to say what we really mean. And many times the meaning never gets communicated at all and the other person is left feeling unloved and unwanted.
Therefore, we have to LISTEN FOR LOVE in the words that people are saying to us. Sometimes the explicit words are necessary, but more often, the manner of saying things is even more important. A joyous insult carries more affection and love within the sentiments, which are expressed insincerely.
An impulsive hug says I LOVE YOU even though the words might be saying very different. Any _expression of a person's concern for another says I love you. Sometimes the _expression is clumsy, sometimes even cruel. Sometimes we must look and listen very intently for the love that contains. But it is often there, beneath the surface.
A mother may nag her son constantly about his grades or cleaning his room. The son may hear only the nagging, but if he listens carefully, he will hear the love underneath the nagging. His mother wants him to do well, to be successful. Her concern and love for her son unfortunately emerge in her nagging. But it is love all the same.
A daughter comes home late, way past her curfew, and her father confronts her with angry words. The daughter may hear only the anger, but if she listens carefully, she will hear the love under the anger. "I was worried about you," the father is saying. 'Because I care about you and I love you. You are important to me.'
We say I love you in many ways - with birthday gifts, and little notes, with smiles and sometimes with tears. Sometimes we show our love by just keeping quiet and not saying a word, at other times by speaking out, even brusquely.
We show our love sometimes by impulsiveness. Many times we have to show our love by forgiving someone who has not listened to the love we have tried to express. The problem is listening for love is that we don't always understand the language of love, which the other person is using. A girl may use tears or emotions to say what she wants to say, and her boyfriend may not understand her because he expects her to be talking his language. Thus, we have to force ourselves to really listen for love. The problem with our world is that people rarely listen to each other. They hear the words, but they don't listen to the actions that accompany the words or the _expression on the face. Or people listen only for rejection or misunderstanding. They do not see the love that is there just beneath the surface, even if the words are angry. We have to listen for love in those around us. If we listen intently we will discover that we are a lot more loved than we realize. Listen for love and we will find that the world is a very loving place after all. LOVE is a happy thing.
It makes us laugh.
It makes us sing.
It makes us sad.
It makes us cry.
It makes us seek the reason why.
It makes us take.
It makes us give.
Above all else it makes us LIVE.
It is not the presence or absence of people that makes the difference because a person need not be lonely even if he is alone. Sometimes it is good to be alone. But that does not make us lonely. It is not a matter of being present WITH someone. It is a matter of being present to someone. So remember... If you love someone, tell him or her. Remember always to say what you mean. Never be afraid to express yourself. Take this opportunity to tell someone what he or she means to you. Seize the day and have no regrets.
Most importantly, stay close to your friends and family, for they have helped make you the person that you are today and are what it's all about anyway.

I had just posted some pics on the link at the side...just click My Pictures... These were taken during our Christmas party...I didn't place some comments yet coz its just the partial pics...anyway, slept at around 5 am coz my cousin's heartbroken and I have to comfort her. and guys, I got my hair cut...don't know if I look good basta the thing is it feels good...Surprise nalang when we see each other at school...mis you guys...mwaah

This is for my HT...eventhough he doesn't have a clue that I'm completely crazy about him...well at least we are friends and there's always something to look forward to everyday...*mwaah*

Artist: Mariah Carey
Album: Merry Christmas
Title: All I Want For Christmas Is You

I don't want a lot for Christmas
There's just one thing I need
I don't care about presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true...
All I want for Christmas
Is you...

I don't want a lot for Christmas
There is just one thing I need
I don't care about presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I don't need to hang my stocking
There upon the fireplace
Santa Claus won't make me happy
With a toy on Christmas day
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is you...
You baby

I won't ask for much this Christmas
I won't even wish for snow
I'm just gonna keep on waiting
Underneath the mistletoe
I won't make a list and send it
To the North Pole for Saint Nick
I won't even stay awake to
Hear those magic reindeer click
'Cause I just want you here tonight
Holding on to me so tight
What more can I do
Baby all I want for Christmas is you
You...

All the lights are shining
So brightly everywhere
And the sound of children's
Laughter fills the air
And everyone is singing
I hear those sleigh bells ringing
Santa won't you bring me the one I really need -
won't you please bring my baby to me...

Oh I don't want a lot for Christmas
This is all I'm asking for
I just want to see baby
Standing right outside my door
Oh I just want him for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
Baby all I want for Christmas is
You...

All I want for Christmas is you baby... (repeat)

I just finished cleaning my room. Gosh can't believe I've enough parties to attend to... Last Friday, we had our batch party. I was really tired coz we, Canence, Tonet, Leslie and I were incharge with the games, prizes and awards which by the way was not finished. The award for the crush ng bayan, both male and female as well as the mr.suave was not given out. I don't know why the people were bored. I mean maybe it was because of the weather. The sky couldn't have poured enough rain. But the after party was great. The people who got left behind(Florence, Edgar, Soekarno, Freedom, Feona, Marvin, Jay, Harvey, Leslie, Manuel, Roderick, Pates, Gary, Stanley, Canence and a lot more....) We kept on singing and dancing. Everyone was taking turns in holding the mic. We officially ended the party at around 12 coz the place was to close down. I arrived at my aunt's house at around 12:50 am. hehehe I'm no cinderalla anymore. Anyway, I wonder if we'll go caroling again coz I want still to get out of the house and go somewhere with friends and my... hehehe... never mind. I'm in enough trouble already. Cge guys till then... Nence, ang The Grunch??? Tomorrow, laag ta...I'll try to contact leslie...mwaah*wink*

Im so sleepy. I arrived late coz my mom and I roamed around ayala to buy some stuff. Gosh can't believe that everybody's into shopping freak out. Anyway, the reason why I blogged today because I am just so happy. I mean, got lots of confirmation from my friends most especially Deanne that its great to have your HT as your friend. I mean, I know for a fact that sometimes it could be such a drag but on the other hand, I could get to spend more time when we're friends. By the way, I really had fun today with Canence, Chige, Leslie, Maan, Emans and Deanne when we went to SM to buy the prizes for the party. We kept on laughing and talking about that certain someone...hehehe...kung assuming enough cya, makaingn mapud to nga gilibak cya...hehehe...Nence grabe, cge gyud agi2x sa room pag come 321 c mr.flash! cge bya tan.aw sa ato room...maybe he sensed that you're there... Will we watch "The Grunch" tomorrow?I've already bought my gift for my manito na bya kay hehehe charge to mama man...I still have one more goal to achieve before Christmas break...Nence you know na... cge oi, sleep nako kay if I keep on typing I might divulge more info on my HT...can't get enough chika about him that I still blog and write on my diary about him... hehehe...cge take care peeps!

Your soul is bound to the Rose Bud: The
Naive.

"I keep all of my secrets somewhere inside
and though I haven't let myself shine to the
world, I'm good for something but too good to
give to you."

The Rose Bud is associated with innocence,
curiosity, and confidence. It is governed by
the god Cupid and its sign is The Dewdrop, or
Puppy Love.

As a Rose Bud, you may have grand ideas about love
and you may well be inexperienced. You tend to
be optomistic, idealistic, and curious, but
it's just because you like being a positive
person. You also may have high thoughts of
yourself, and can come off a bit conceited, but
it's just a mask to hide your lack of
experience.


What Rose Is Your Soul Bound To?
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Its like 7:42 in the morning. My mom wondered why I woke up so early. Well honestly I had to go the bathroom and do my thing. Secondly, I slept early last night. I tried to read Harry Potter but then it seemed that it was like putting me into a trance and making me fall asleep. Hehehe Or I was just plainly tired and sleepy. Anyway, I have lots of things to do today. I finally have to go to a dermatologist to have my face examined. My mom kept on bugging me to go. And so my brother set an appointment today. We’re gonna go caroling again. One of the most favorite things I’d rather do on a Saturday night. And I also have to start looking for gift possibilities for my “MANITO”. I’m pretty excited for the party although I still have no idea what to wear. Leslie and I agreed on having a baking session at her house on the 19th and well I’m pretty excited on that event too. The only things that I’m not looking forward to are our quizzes next week…Anyway, I’m still in a state of euphoria. Hope it never ends… By the way, about the thing I blogged last time, well I like most part of it. The mental stimulation thing are really present with my HT. Am I correct? I mean lately, we keep on arguing and I have to think clever thoughts to beat him in a conversation. Anyway, nence here I go again talkin bout my HT...hehehe

Here are some stuff about me… If some things are quite questionable then just tag me or ask me in person. Okay?

10 bands you've been listening a lot to lately:in no order.
1. Evanescence
2. Saliva
3. Incubus
4. Three doors down
5. System of a down
6. 311
7. Dunkin Sheik
8. No Doubt
9. Five for Fighting
10. Matchbox Twenty
9 things you look forward to:
1. Sleeping/Dreaming
2. Being with my HT
3. eating
4. Reading Harry Potter
5. Emails
6. Christmas break
7. my aunt’s coming home
8. the lord of the rings the return of the kings
9. tomorrow
8 things you like to wear:
1. my contacts
2. my torn blue jeans
3. my new sandals
4. highschool shirts
5. my lip gloss
6. sunglasses
7. my red underwear
8. my star necklace
7 things that annoy you:
1. traffic jam
2. not being able to talk to my HT
3. all decisions poured down on me
4. someone getting annoyed
5. having colds
6. people wearing t-back and showing them off
7. snob people
6 things you say most days:
1. Ha?
2. Are we there yet?
3. aminimony
4. Dai?
5. My Gosh Becky!
6. Kaon ta na!
5 things you do everyday:
1. eat
2. pray
3. sweep my room
4. daydream
5. sleep
4 people you want to spend more time with:
1. my HT
2. family
3. my bestfriend Ebyang
4. the chix of TC, my classmates
3 movies you could watch over and over again:
1. Bring it on
2. Save the last Dance
3. Uptown girls
2 of your favorite songs at the moment:
1. Why can’t I? – Liz Phaire
2. Unwell, Matchbox 20
1 person you could spend the rest of your life with:
1. my HT still

Its 1 pm in the afternoon and I am so sleepy. I have this terrible cold and I have to drink medicine. Since I ran out of no-drowse Decolgen, I drank the other one. And so now here I am, feeling so dizzy facing my laptop. Anyway, this is supposed to be my second blog for the day but then I got disconnected and the one I have typed this morning was deleted…

Klave, its not that I’m protecting your gender or something but I know deep inside you are not gay. I mean, your actions are totally different from those who are gay. Anyway, Canence you really have a point about guys being so attached to their feminine side. I know lots of them but then it doesn’t bother me anymore because I like it when guys be like that rather than acting all macho around us girls. I like it especially when we could openly say what ever we want, even if its girl-talk because our guy friends don’t mind. You know nence, we are lucky because most of our guy friends are like that...

by the way, here's an email sent to me by Kittin. I really like it... To all the guys who keeps asking the same question all over again, here's our answer...

In a brief conversation, a man asked a woman. he was pursuing he question "What kind of man are you looking for?"

She sat quietly for a moment before looking him in the eye and asking "Do you really want to know?" Reluctantly, he said "Yes."


She began to expound..." As a woman in this day and age, I am in position to ask a man what he can do for me that I can't do for myself. I pay my own bills. I take care of my household with out the help of any man...or woman for that matter. I am in the position to ask "What can you bring to the table?"


The man looked at her. Clearly he thought that she was referring to money. She quickly corrected his thought and stated "I am not referring to money. I need something more. I need a man who is striving for perfection in every aspect of life."

He sat back in his chair, folded his arms, and asked her to explain.



She said, "I am looking for someone who is striving for perfection mentally because I need conversation and mental stimulation. I don't need a simple minded man. I am looking for someone who is striving for perfection spiritually because I don't need to be unequally yoked...believers mixed with unbelievers is a recipe for disaster.



I need a man who is striving for perfection financially because I don't need a financial burden. I am looking for someone who is sensitive enough to understand what I go through as a woman but strong enough to keep me grounded.



I am looking for someone who I can respect. In order to be submissive, I must respect him. I cannot be submissive to a man who isn't taking care of his business. I have no problem being submissive...he just has to be worthy. God made woman to be a help mate for man. I can't help a man if he can't help himself."


When she finished her spill, she looked at him. He sat there with a puzzled look on his face. He said "You are asking a lot."

She replied "I'm worth a lot."

Just arrived home from our Christmas carol practice… It was a bit frustrating since there were only 4 of us girls and well, we kept on laughing and the guys most especially Manuel kept on making jokes. Anyway, by the end of the practice, we were hopeful because at least somehow we did improve, as a group that is. Anyway, Deanne??? Where did you go? Why man wala mo ni apas???

My head is throbbing a bit… Lack of sleep maybe…

I wanna share this article with you. Got this from the Philippine Daily Inquirer dated November 9, 2003


By: Ramon J. Farolan

Once upon a time in the kingdom of heaven, God was missing for six days. Michael the Archangel found Him on the seventh day, resting. He inquired of God, “Where have You been?” God with a deep sigh of satisfaction and pride pointed downwards through the clouds, “Look, Michael, look what I have made.”
The Archangel looked puzzled and said, “What is it?” “It’s a planet,” replied God, “and I’ve put life in it. I’m going to call it Earth, and it’s going to e a great place of balance.”
“Balance?” inquired Michael, still confused. God explained, pointing to different parts of the Earth. “Northern Europe will be a great place of opportunity and wealth, but cold and harsh. Southern Europe is going to be poor but sunny and pleasant. I’ve made lands abundant in water and while others are parched deserts. This one will be extremely hot, while this one will be very cold and covered with ice.”
Michael, impressed by God’s work, then pointing to a group of islands and asked, “What are these?
“Ah,” said God, “Those are the Philippine islands, the most glorious place on Earth. There are beautiful beaches, rivers, mountains and forests. The people are going to be handsome, intelligent and humorous. They are going to be found traveling all over the world. They will be extremely sociable, hardworking and high-achieving, and they will be known throughout the world as bearers of peace and love.”
Michael gasped in wonder and admiration but then proclaimed, “What about balance, Lord? You said there would be balance.”
And the Lord replied, “Wait until you see the idiots I put in the government.”

This article really is amusing. Sad but true…

Anyway, I have to say, this is day is one of the most amazing days I have lived. I mean the weather was perfect. I kept on laughing and well I was able to sing with my friends…

By the way, during our REED 40 class, one of my classmates happened to question our teacher:

If God wants only the good things to happen, then why does He allow people to experience pain?

For me, God didn’t just place us in a situation so that we would suffer. He gave us lots of choices, both advantageous and disadvantageous on our part. As far as I’m concerned, most choices are like this. Anyway, suffering is like the effect of a bad choice. And one of my classmates said that how could we learn if we haven’t experienced it. How would we feel happy if we haven’t experience pain? One cannot exist without the other.

What about you, what’s your opinion on this? Tag me…