I am Worth A lot

In a brief conversation, a man asked a woman he was pursuing
the question:

'What kind of man are you looking for?'

She sat quietly for a moment before looking him in the eye & asking, 'Do you really want to know?'

Reluctantly, he said, 'Yes.

She began to expand, 'As a woman in this day & age, I am in a position to ask a man what you can do for me that I can't do for myself?

I pay my own bills. I take care of my household without the help of any man... or woman for that matter.

I am in the position to ask, 'What can you bring to the table?'

The man looked at her. Clearly he thought that she was referring
to money.

She quickly corrected his thought & stated, 'I am not referring to money. I need something more. I need a man who is striving for excellence in every aspect of life.

He sat back in his chair, folded his arms, & asked her to explain.

She said, 'I need someone who is striving for excellence mentally
because I need conversation & mental stimulation. I don't need a
simple-minded man.

I need someone who is striving for excellence spiritually because I
don't need to be unequally yoked...believers mixed with unbelievers is
a recipe for disaster.

I need a man who is striving for excellence financially because I don't
need a financial burden.

I need someone who is sensitive enough to understand what I
go through as a woman, but strong enough to keep me grounded.

I need someone who has integrity in dealing with relationships. Lies
and game-playing are not my idea of a strong man.

I need a man who is family-oriented. One who can be the leader, priest
and provider to the lives entrusted to him by God.

I need someone whom I can respect. In order to be submissive, I must
respect him.

I cannot be submissive to a man who isn't taking care of his business. I
have no problem being submissive...he just has to be worthy.

And by the way, I am not looking for him...He will find me. He will
recognize himself in me. He may not be able to explain the connection,
but he will always be drawn to me.



God made woman to be a help-mate for man. I can't help a man if he
can't help himself.

When she finished her spiel, she looked at him.

He sat there with a puzzled look on his face. He said, 'You are asking a
lot'.

She replied, "I'm worth a lot".

Trivial

I know its awfully late but I can't sleep. I think I slept too much on the supercat on the way home and when I got home I took a nap again before we attended the 6PM mass.

I am currently opening up to a total stranger. Well he's not entirely a stranger. I met him 13 years ago and didn't see him after the year 1997. We were in the same dance group in 2004 but then parted ways again since he was in a different department. And now surprisingly we are talking about me and my love problems. And then for the first time and the only person who had the guts to point out to me one thing.

Ask yourself why it didn't turn out to be what you wanted!

That's the thing I need to ponder on. And it would probably take me a while to figure it out. And it had to be somebody from my past who just popped out of now where who's going to help me out.

And I think I'm almost back to my old self throwing away the cynicism, living romance again, feeling the words from songs again. Yep that's me, the hopelessly hopefull and romantic me...

And he sings: I WAS BORN TO TELL YOU I LOVE YOU!

Au revoir a bientot!

Quick ?

Is it too soon to say that I'm going to give LOVE another try?

Everytime

Watched MYX and heard Aiza Seguerra play this with her band. She made a nice rendition of the song. I hope I could sing this someday with Attorney and friends...^_^

I'm afraid, I'm starting to feel
What I said I would not do
The last time really hurt me
I'm scared to fall in love

Afraid to love so fast
'Cause everytime I fall in love
It seems to never last

But every time your love is near
And every time I'm filled with fear
'Cause every time I see your face
My heart does begin to race everytime

One half wants me to go
One half wants me to stay
I just get so all confused
I'm scared to fall in love

Afraid to love so fast
'Cause every time I fall in love
It seems to never last

But every time your love is near
And every time I'm filled with fear
'Cause every time
My heart does begin to race everytime

I'm scared to fall in love
Afraid to love so fast
'Cause everytime I fall in love
It seems to never last

But every time your love is near
And every time I'm filled with fear
'Cause every time I see your face
My heart does begin to race everytime

It's everytime
It's everytime

'Cause everytime your love is near
And every time I'm filled with fear
'Cause every time I see your face
Could it be that this will be the one that lasts?

The fear does start to erase everytime
Oh could it be that this will be the one that lasts
For all my times, oh yeah, for all my times

This will probably be very quick...

We talked, August and I. And I just realized, it is the month of August that I am almost healed. And I felt at peace now, with him and even with myself.

I am living life the way I want to live it, and the way it should be. Although not at all devoid of worries but then I am left without any heartaches now.

I told him I liked somebody else now and he said what if...

I learned my lesson and I say "I'll cross that bridge when I get there!"

And so I fell out of love for August and I am admiring the character of another. They are both the extremes of each other. But who am I to tell, I am still beginning to know. Acting like a spy, taking note of every detail, taking in every information he reveals of himself, deciding whether he's worth another try. Yet I am still, not budging. I am going to enjoy this journey but I will try my very best not to lose myself in the process. I am blessed because I had loads of support to get back on my feet and pick up the shattered pieces. Tearful days are over and Vanelin is once again smiling, beaming, ecstatic, joyful and full of hope!