and they say when it comes to boys I'm picky...

Okay, so I have finally admitted to myself that when it comes to guys I am picky... I mean come on, who isn't right? Don't tell me you don't have several things to consider before even thinking of saying yes to a date! I know that I'm supposed to go on massive dating to be able to know who my one true love is but does one really settle for someone who's there? Should one settle?

I know this is such a superficial criteria but what the heck...Here are the likes and dislikes, just in case someone who's interested blog hops and would consider dating moi!

• I definitely don't like it when a guy smokes. I mean I know smoking doesn't say everything that he is and he is not but due to my health problems, I'd stay away from those guys. I remember telling my best guy friend Doyle when we were still in college, sitting in the canteen: "Doyle, if I won't be able to meet a guy who doesn't smoke, I will never get married!" uh oh, seems like I'm on the track of not getting married Doyle!

• I'm so keen with teeth... I don't know, sometimes guys with good teeth also has clean nails and clean everything. I can't imagine talking to somebody with bad breathe, can you? I'm not saying he should have this straight-gone-through-braces kinda teeth but he shouldn't have bad breathe.

• He should have clean nails, not long nails. Being a rocker is not an excuse. I mean he could still be a rock star with short nails. Black painted nails are acceptable as long as its not long. And the nails on the feet should also be clean!

• He can have long hair as long as it doesn't cover his face. I even find this one guy nice looking and he has this long dreads on top of his head. That's because he still looks neat even if he had that kind of hair.

• I'm getting tired of having to be the one to take care of the other so I want for once in my life to be pampered. So here goes: he should at least open the door for me, be on the danger side of the road, let me go in the jeepney/taxi first, doesn't have to pull the chair for me but would definitely offer one if there are none left, would at least offer to pay for his half or for both if has the money and would at least have the decency to offer that he would take me home.

We're kinda receiving a lot of calls so I'll have to cut this short...comments people will surely be appreciated...thanks!

to be continued...

farewell tess...

My cousin left for New Zealand yesterday noon. I wasn't at the airport to send her off because I was too wasted and too sleepy to even open my eyes. Night shift job really sucks out all the energy from me.

WHO IS TESS?
Born August 12, 1984, she is named Marie Therese Labay Lambo by her parents Alastair Burgos Lambo and Concetta Salazar Labay Lambo. She is my 1st degree cousin from my father's side of the family. We basically grew up together. Went to the same school since we were nursery, were classmates from 6th grade to 3rd year high school. We were supposed to take the same course --Computer Engineering in TC but then she was convinced by my Uncle Joel to take up nursing and so she transferred to CDC.

And now she's probably trying to settle her stuff at the dormitory she'll be staying in for 5 weeks. She will still undergo training before finally working.

farewell tess...
i hope that i can still see
the goodness that you've always rendered to me
eventhough things are misunderstood
you'll have that soft spot in my heart...
I will surely miss
your smile, laughter and even the tears
i know you'll have a good life
just remember
I'll always be here...

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a message from him????

You’re all smiles and silly conversation
As if this sunny day came just for you
You twist your hair, you smile, and you turn your eyes away
C’mon, tell me what’s right with you
Now it dawns on me probably everybody’s talkin’
And there’s something here I’m supposed to realize
‘Cause your secret’s out, and the universe laughs at its joke on me
I just caught it in your eyes, it’s a beautiful surprise

When did you fall in love with me?
Was it out of the blue
‘Cause I swear I never knew it
When did you let your heart run free?
Have you been waiting long?
When did you fall in love with me?
When did you fall in love?

Make your way over here, sit down by this fool, and let’s rewind
C’mon, let’s go back and replay all our scenes
You can point out the hints, the clues, the twists and the smiles this time
All the ones that slipped by me
I bet my face is red, and you can hear my heart poundin’
Well I guess it don’t matter now that I realize
‘Cause baby I missed it then, but I can surely see you now
Right here before my eyes
You’re my beautiful surprise

When did you fall in love with me?
Was it out of the blue
‘Cause I swear I never knew it
When did you let your heart run free?
Have you been waiting long?
When did you fall in love with me?
When did you fall in love?

Was it at the coffee shop
Or that morning at the bus stop
When you almost slipped, and I caught your hand
Or the time we built the snowman
The day at the beach, sandy and warm
Or the night with the scary thunderstorm
I never saw the signs
Now we’ve got to make up for lost time
And I can tell now by the way that you’re looking at me
I’d better finish this song so my lips will be free

Have you been waiting long, when did you fall in love
I kept you waiting so long, when did you fall
Have you been waiting long
When did you fall in love with me
When did you fall in love?

my horrorscope for today...

There's no telling what could grow out of a new relationship that gets its start today, so do not cast your hopes too far into the future. Taking each day as it comes is a real test of your patience, but it is the wiser way to go. Intimate friendships and true romances evolve over time. You will have to wait until the two of you are involved in more diverse situations before coming to any conclusions about who this person is or how he or she may affect your life.

MY WORST NIGHTMARE

I'm having a headache right now and I don't know why. Its still the start of my shift but then I want it to end now. I wanted to go to the hospital and be with my family. My brother was admitted because I found him lying on the restroom floor. I thought he slipped but then when I looked at him he was having a seizure. His fingers were clenched and his eyes rolled upwards and he was like gasping for air. I was in utmost panic, not knowing whether to shake him off or to keep him still till the seizure subsides. It was the most terrifying 60 seconds of my entire life. It was scarier than facing the panel members during our final run for defense, scarier than the ride home with someone drunk taking the wheel. When it ended I helped him up with all my strength and had him lay down on our coach. I called my mom right away because basically I didn't know what to do.

He seemed okay after and he didn't seem to remember what happened saying he just passed out. But the image of what happened keep playing in my mind and it always makes me want to cry. But then I have to be strong for my brother, my mother and my father. I can't show them that I'm scared to death and break down. I insisted on having him checked, get all the tests done just to make sure that he's okay, that he's healthy and that he still have 100 more years to live.

I love my brother eventhough he seems such a pain at times. But he's also fun to be with, he keeps me in pace. We're the same in most aspect, born leader, speaker; talented and artistic; but he exerted more effort in the things that we love. His passion is greater than mine so he had most of the awards. Without either one of my family I would be broken. I would live but then my soul and heart would die.

So ladies and gentleman, there you go. I have simply give away one of my greatest fears:
TO LOSE SOMEONE I LOVE!

My brother is okay now, he's still in the hospital waiting for Monday since he still needs a CAT scan and EEG. Although I really don't know what that is for but basically its to check the brain and its functionality.

I will from now on take care of my brother. Even if he's mean to me sometimes I would master up all my patience, compassion and love to take good care of him!

im not ready to cross that line yet...what does that mean?

Happy new year. Took me a while to update again either due to the lack of inspiration or just plainly can't think of anything to blog about.

After the new year, my life basically is the same. No drastic change there.

I have been drowning myself with reruns, mostly of the Dr.House series. Ahh...Dr. Gregory House is amazing. The entire diagnostics department is absolutely entertaining, which includes Dr. Eric Foreman - the irritating black guy who tries to be like House but could never live up to the standards because he can't stand up to his decisions and can't handle the consequences of his actions, Dr. Robert Chase - the cutie doctor who keeps on second guessing and who's also irritating me since he's such a tattletale, Dr. Allison Cameron - very pretty doctor who's madly inlove with House and although he's not officially part of the team but he still contributes mostly: Dr. James Wilson, the good-hearted oncologist who is House's sole confidant.

Aside from learning a lot of medical stuff which suprisingly doesn't bore me out, I also ran into a couple of realization and life lessons on the series.

But that is not the main reason why I decided to blog today...

Ever since I realized that I had my a rude awakening a couple of months after I hit the floor, it seems that reality keeps on hitting me hard more often than it should. I mean I've already told Cathy that I had a social awakening although I'm not really sure if I understand its meaning or if it applies to what I have discovered of other people's views on life and their reaction to the circumstances that have fallen upon their decision. What am I saying? Well as what I have told my office buddy JP, I realized that I was still too naive of things. That was the night after I drank with one of my batchmates and heard from her very mouth what despicable things she did. Its not that bad actually, its just me questioning the moral aspect of the actions. But lets not talk about her too much because its not my story to tell. But then heck it was still a huge shocker. And then I got over it. I was okay for a couple of weeks and then I questioned myself again. Its a battle basically between what is morally right and what is not. What does morality have to do with any of this rude awakening? Actually, its finding out that what I thought was morally incorrect is actually acceptable in this day and age. Then I go back to the blog furies I had before about me being judged as a moralist which for me was unacceptable. But then again setting the meaning of a moralist aside, should I consider myself a moralist? Is it such a bad thing?

And what does this soul searching got anything to do with the title of this blog?

Well I was supposed to have my first real date tonight but then he blew me off... And that was his reason: I'M NOT READY TO CROSS THAT LINE YET... I didn't for a second think or rather couldn't think. I mean I wasn't supposed to say yes to his invitation for coffee since I bailed out on my friends for dinner basically because I didn't want to rush after dinner going to work. And I wouldn't like the feeling of not getting enough time to talk and catch up. My apologies to Louise and Ian. Then he called and told me he wanted to have a little chat over coffee before my shift and well I did consider thinking it would be a good adventure and experience to go through. I admit I was a bit hesitant and excited at the same time. I know how pathetic of me.

Why hesitant? because he's not exactly the type of guy you want me to go out with. I mean I haven't actually fully defined my ideal guy but to be honest he's far from my ideal ideal guy...hehehe...

continuation....

So as I was saying this guy asked me to coffee and blew me off. I was expecting that but then I was even pissed at myself for believing this romance could happen to me NOW! I'm not saying that I'm getting pessimistic on that part but then again... So here I am, trying to get over the very thought of what happened. He did go to the office and he was like several feet away from me but then he could walk to my cubicle to talk to me and apologized but he didn't instead he IMed me and well he did say he was sorry.

I don't want to dwell more on this matter anymore. There I've written it and I'm so over!