~upto now i still wonder why i am attracted to guyz who can't seem to commit...for the questionnare in our new project, one of the question goes as: how many relationships have you had before? my answer? 0.5 =) its partly a joke partly true!why? because most if not all of the previous relationships i've had before were could haves...sad but true but it just makes me laugh now.
~and with guys not being able to commit, most guys i end up liking are some kind of what they say as the "chick boy" kind! i know, its absolutely frustrating especially when i end up realizing that it makes me so jealous because i can't demand nor can i complain because he's not committed to me.
~but then i learned to once again control my feelings. i learned to make the most of what i have with him. i have become this person who's true to what i feel. i'm not afraid to show my true feelings anymore. if i'm angry, when i'm sad, if i care or not care and even on those times when i feel jealous.
~i asked my room mate MAYANG if it is okay to be jealous on my situation and she said yes it is. i felt relieved. all those times i feel guilty feeling jealous...what a waste of emotion...
~as of now, im feeling great in a new working environment, i feel challenged and i'm starting to value the relationship i have come to be comfortable with.
~as for the person whom i left, well i'm gonna wait and see in a couple of weeks. as for now, sparks are flying!
