Post Mortem: Documentation

We finally passed our documentation for the project yesterday. We were 39 minutes late…It means that there might be a chance that our final grade will be deducted 5%! I know that totally sucks because I placed all my energy into it. My head bled the night before and even on that day. Post mortem: severe headaches that would last for hours and would only be remedied by sleep, which I still don’t have enough.

So what have I learned from all this rush and never-ending dilemma???

I actually improved my patience. I have learned to shut my mouth even if I was already steaming with anger. I kept my focus on what I was doing instead of wasting time nagging at some useless person sitting next to me.

I learned to humble myself in times of me being wrong and even if I was already provoked, still I would try to rationalize things and think things over a thousand times before I do something stupid.

I am thankful that in spite of all the hardships and frustrations I had been through because of this project, I am still standing and I am still eager to finish this… The thing is, because of all the problems I had and I was able to get pass, I am inspired to do the things I still need to do. It seems that the force I needed to go on was in fact the same force that would cause me to cry. Weird isn’t it? But in spite of me crying and giving up, I am now willing to exert more effort into it.

My shock absorbers are very helpful because they were there with me when I needed to talk and needed to rant about what was happening to me and my group mates for the project. And what’s great about being with these 3 persons is that every time I am with them, these are the moments that I felt free of problems. I mean when I am with them, we do talk about problems but then end up laughing about it. Its when I had tears in my eyes and gas in my tummy because of this one joke we couldn’t get over with. And I do miss them when we don’t get to see each other in school or don’t get to hang out but then seeing them again after several days makes the waiting worth it.

My horoscope says that I should be grateful for having things that I need and that I am way blessed because of the things that I have and which are of greater value.

Damn right I am!

And up to now, I still surprise me… Its not that I don’t know who I am, its just that sometimes I surprise me because I am not aware that I have this certain effect on people…Maybe when I least think of myself is when most people notice that I exist.

I just hope that he-who-must-not-be-named would notice that I do exist and if he does then I hope and pray that he would notice that I CARE!