Where's my Solace?

where is that place?
that I used to feel at peace?
I tried to find me in them
but all I see is confusion
a mixture of egos
all blended into one lie

I tried to find me in nature
but that is not my domain either
the wind touches my skin
but it still leaves me sad and weary

I tried to find me in music
and it soothes my soul somehow
but the words in poetry cuts like knife
on my already bleeding heart

I guess it only goes to show
that I need not question
that I need not search
that I need not walk that path
of trying to find me outside who I am