1. What color is most reflective of you?
-- purple
2. How did you get the idea for your
friendster name?
--it's my real name
3.What time were you born?
-- around 1:10 am
4.What song are you playing now, or wish
you were playing?
-- MYMP
5. Has the death of a celebrity ever made
you cry?
--nah.
6.What color of underwear are you wearing right
now?
--GREEN
7. Do you want a baby?
-- YEP, SOMEDAY
8.What does your mom do for a living?
--she's a SECRETARY
9. What does your dad do for a living?
--HE'S A BOOKING SALESMAN
10. What is your pet's name?
--KJ, YUNA AND WHITEY
11. What color are your bedsheets?
--GREEN
12. What are the last 4 digits of your
phone number?
--0638
13. What song are you playing now?
--i think this has been asked already!?
14. What was the last concert you
attended?
--BAMBOO, SINULOG 05
15. Who was with you?
--LESLIE, RHOD AND JHE-AR
16. What was the last movie you saw?
--kung fu hustle.brainless yet entertaining.
17. Who do you dislike most at this
moment?
-- SURPRISINGLY, NO ONE AS OF THE MOMENT
18. What food are you craving right now?
--CADBURRY'S ALMONDS
19. Did you dream last night?
-- NAH, WASN'T ABLE TO SLEEP...
20.What was the last tv show you
watched?
--TRU CALLING
21.What is your fave piece of jewelry?
-- MY DANGLING STAR EARRINGS
22. What is to the left of you?
--DINNER TABLE
23. What was the last thing you ate?
--PORKCHOP AND AMPALAYA
24. Who is your best friend of the
opposite sex?
-- JHE-AR
25. Write a song lyric that's in your
head?
--
26. What song is that from?
-- Boulevard of Broken Dreams by Greenday
27. Who last IMed you?
--NO ONE
28. Where is your signifigant other right
now?
-- none.
29. Do you have a crush?
-- yupyupyup
30. What is his/her name?
-- not worth going into trouble for
31. What shampoo do you use?
--pantene
32. When was the last time you cut your
hair?
--last month
33. Are you on any meds?
--nah
34. Do you have a mental disease?
-- i hope not. i like to think i'm pretty normal.
35. What shirt are you wearing?
--my juniors shirt...from my high school
36. What time is it?
-- 10:12 pm to be exact
37. What color is your razor?
--sea green
38. What is your fave frozen treat?
--ice cream
39. Are you sexy?
-- hell yeah!
40. Whats your favorite shopping store?
--not such a fan of shopping...
41. Are you thirsty?
-- just a little bit
42. Can you imagine yourself ever getting
married?
-- yep, actually i dreamt it already
Sunday, July 17, 2005
Tuesday, July 12, 2005
My cousin Claudette emailed this to me and I just want to share it with you...so enjoy reading...
And by the way, a fellow from a very far away place inspires me nowadays...
God bless my new found friend...
Why aren't you married?
Why aren't you married?
and the very, very popular:
Why aren't you married?
... give or take another 999,999,997 more such questions.
Unfortunately, I can’t fix you up with any cute guys or girls to help you avoid these questions in the future. However, I can fix you up with some good snappy comebacks to fling at anyone who dares to question your single status.
So, next time somebody dares to ask you that “Why aren't you married?” question, pause, smile sagaciously (I love that word; it means “wisely”), and offer up one of the following. Or, just review them for your own personal satisfaction.
1. In the beginning, there were no elliptical trainers or low-fat/high-fiber muffins, and so people lived to only about 40-something. Maximum. Meaning, the pressure was on to get married before age 25. However, today, thanks to medical advances, we can all hope to live to 80. Easy. Meaning? Even if we marry at age 40, that's still 35, 45, even 55 years to be with a mate. Plenty of time to be married. What's the hurry?
2. Married people are not necessarily better catches simply because they were caught. I mean, have you taken a look at some of the married people out there? Seriously. Even Frankenstein got married. Obviously married people are not superior people.
3. Meanwhile, look at some of our cool single role models:
Catwoman: Single.
Buddha: Single.
The Lone Ranger: Single.
Actually, virtually all superhero types are single: Superman, Wonder Woman, Dudley Do-Right. And then there’s The Ultimate Superhero: God—also single.
4. Plus, when you think about it, there’s no such thing as a Stepford Single Woman.
5. Why limit myself to being dissatisfied by one relationship when I can be dissatisfied by an infinite variety?
6. It’s interesting how our culture has the _expression “happily married,” but no _expression “happily single.” And those words are 100% certified by the US Census Bureau. Statistics show that although married men are reported to be happier than single men (surprise, surprise!)—single women are reported to be happier than married women (also a big surprise, surprise!). Meaning? This only furthers the irony that single women are branded as "unhappy” and “lonely” and “loser-esque"—when single women are just boldly holding out for the right situation, rather than getting married just to get married.
7. It's easy to become married. Millions of people do it every year. If you want to pressure me to become something, hey, why not pick something a little more challenging—like an astrophysicist.
8. True love is rare. That's why it's called "love" and not "really like" or "settling." And why we don't say: "I’m settling for you, honey" over candlelit dinners. True love is worth waiting for…and that’s what I’m doing.
And by the way, a fellow from a very far away place inspires me nowadays...
God bless my new found friend...
Why aren't you married?
Why aren't you married?
and the very, very popular:
Why aren't you married?
... give or take another 999,999,997 more such questions.
Unfortunately, I can’t fix you up with any cute guys or girls to help you avoid these questions in the future. However, I can fix you up with some good snappy comebacks to fling at anyone who dares to question your single status.
So, next time somebody dares to ask you that “Why aren't you married?” question, pause, smile sagaciously (I love that word; it means “wisely”), and offer up one of the following. Or, just review them for your own personal satisfaction.
1. In the beginning, there were no elliptical trainers or low-fat/high-fiber muffins, and so people lived to only about 40-something. Maximum. Meaning, the pressure was on to get married before age 25. However, today, thanks to medical advances, we can all hope to live to 80. Easy. Meaning? Even if we marry at age 40, that's still 35, 45, even 55 years to be with a mate. Plenty of time to be married. What's the hurry?
2. Married people are not necessarily better catches simply because they were caught. I mean, have you taken a look at some of the married people out there? Seriously. Even Frankenstein got married. Obviously married people are not superior people.
3. Meanwhile, look at some of our cool single role models:
Catwoman: Single.
Buddha: Single.
The Lone Ranger: Single.
Actually, virtually all superhero types are single: Superman, Wonder Woman, Dudley Do-Right. And then there’s The Ultimate Superhero: God—also single.
4. Plus, when you think about it, there’s no such thing as a Stepford Single Woman.
5. Why limit myself to being dissatisfied by one relationship when I can be dissatisfied by an infinite variety?
6. It’s interesting how our culture has the _expression “happily married,” but no _expression “happily single.” And those words are 100% certified by the US Census Bureau. Statistics show that although married men are reported to be happier than single men (surprise, surprise!)—single women are reported to be happier than married women (also a big surprise, surprise!). Meaning? This only furthers the irony that single women are branded as "unhappy” and “lonely” and “loser-esque"—when single women are just boldly holding out for the right situation, rather than getting married just to get married.
7. It's easy to become married. Millions of people do it every year. If you want to pressure me to become something, hey, why not pick something a little more challenging—like an astrophysicist.
8. True love is rare. That's why it's called "love" and not "really like" or "settling." And why we don't say: "I’m settling for you, honey" over candlelit dinners. True love is worth waiting for…and that’s what I’m doing.
Wednesday, July 06, 2005
Its been quite a while since I had this feeling again...you would think na love2x nasad ni noh?well not really...
I just seem to enjoy my subjects and teachers now more than ever...am i making any sense here? i don't know, it all seems so easy, the comprehension, the time, the moments of being all alone just fits in perfectly...its like in my 4+ years of college i have never felt so interested with what i do until lately...
Oh well I don't understand myself most of the time...
When someone says he misses me, especially if its the person I least expect...I would really go gaga over it...
And you know what happened?
I wrote a song...
I just hope that guys wouldn't keep on playing with a girl's heart. Its so taxing, the process of falling in and out of the love spell. But it seems that its a natural feeling, even if its not meant to be...Right?
For now, il probably stick to my plan of putting my focus on one goal only...and that is
TO GRADUATE THIS COMING MARCH!
crazybeautiful dancing on the moon...
I just seem to enjoy my subjects and teachers now more than ever...am i making any sense here? i don't know, it all seems so easy, the comprehension, the time, the moments of being all alone just fits in perfectly...its like in my 4+ years of college i have never felt so interested with what i do until lately...
Oh well I don't understand myself most of the time...
When someone says he misses me, especially if its the person I least expect...I would really go gaga over it...
And you know what happened?
I wrote a song...
I just hope that guys wouldn't keep on playing with a girl's heart. Its so taxing, the process of falling in and out of the love spell. But it seems that its a natural feeling, even if its not meant to be...Right?
For now, il probably stick to my plan of putting my focus on one goal only...and that is
TO GRADUATE THIS COMING MARCH!
crazybeautiful dancing on the moon...
Thursday, June 23, 2005
AND SO HERE I AM...
I love change...its so overwhelming at this time that i cannot even properly describe how it really feels to be this free...
Classes has started but then my sched is not that hectic yet thanks to the conference the Comp E teachers are having every 10:30-12:00. My class is still at 12:00 at the AS building.Oh well, Im gonna enjoy this week coz I'd probably be up on my sleeves with lots of things to do next couple of months or so.
If I hadn't gotten to my 5th year I wouldn't have known personally my batchmates. I was always stuck with the same people, hanging out at the canteen. More like isolating myself from the rest of the TC population. But now, not anymore... Every single so-called barkada I had before had gone off to a different direction. Me? Im still the same ol' me...hehehe
Anyway, I'd better get back to researching for a possible thesis...its gonna be one hell of a rollercoaster ride...
Peace out!
crazybeautiful holding one's dagger!
I love change...its so overwhelming at this time that i cannot even properly describe how it really feels to be this free...
Classes has started but then my sched is not that hectic yet thanks to the conference the Comp E teachers are having every 10:30-12:00. My class is still at 12:00 at the AS building.Oh well, Im gonna enjoy this week coz I'd probably be up on my sleeves with lots of things to do next couple of months or so.
If I hadn't gotten to my 5th year I wouldn't have known personally my batchmates. I was always stuck with the same people, hanging out at the canteen. More like isolating myself from the rest of the TC population. But now, not anymore... Every single so-called barkada I had before had gone off to a different direction. Me? Im still the same ol' me...hehehe
Anyway, I'd better get back to researching for a possible thesis...its gonna be one hell of a rollercoaster ride...
Peace out!
crazybeautiful holding one's dagger!
Tuesday, June 07, 2005
My class sched is crazy...I have no choice but take those subjects because there's no other sched...
Anyway, no matter how much I try to evade the SUBJECT of you-know-who everybody including the teachers seems to keep bringing it up...Can't they understand that I don't want any trouble? Is it too much to ask? LEAVE ME ALONE! They seem to slap the whole idea into my face! I'm trying to be a very PRIVATE person...*sigh*
Oh well, you know maybe I'll swear off guys for a while...
Up until I graduate...
By then, maybe if I get lucky enough I'll bump into my PRINCE in Boracay...
hehehe...
SO IM ON MY LAST TERM...
I'm looking forward to sleepless nights cramming for exams, typing like crazy finishing my thesis and working on the prototype...Drowning myself with coffee...
I'm looking forward to losing some of this extra weight.
I'm looking forward to another semester of adventure and hopefully fun...
I'm looking forward to living in an apartment...I bet that would be difficult considering there's lots of things to do other than our project...Like doing laundry, cleaning the toilets, cooking, paying rent, electricity and water...
I'm looking forward to replenishing my issues...
Finally IM FREE...
Anyway, no matter how much I try to evade the SUBJECT of you-know-who everybody including the teachers seems to keep bringing it up...Can't they understand that I don't want any trouble? Is it too much to ask? LEAVE ME ALONE! They seem to slap the whole idea into my face! I'm trying to be a very PRIVATE person...*sigh*
Oh well, you know maybe I'll swear off guys for a while...
Up until I graduate...
By then, maybe if I get lucky enough I'll bump into my PRINCE in Boracay...
hehehe...
SO IM ON MY LAST TERM...
I'm looking forward to sleepless nights cramming for exams, typing like crazy finishing my thesis and working on the prototype...Drowning myself with coffee...
I'm looking forward to losing some of this extra weight.
I'm looking forward to another semester of adventure and hopefully fun...
I'm looking forward to living in an apartment...I bet that would be difficult considering there's lots of things to do other than our project...Like doing laundry, cleaning the toilets, cooking, paying rent, electricity and water...
I'm looking forward to replenishing my issues...
Finally IM FREE...
Sunday, May 29, 2005
LESSONS FROM STARWARS EPISODE III: REVENGE OF THE SITH
Well the movie was really action packed and I kept grabbing my seat coz it seemed that every time their ships launch the movie theatre would shake…. Anyway, the main reason for every thing that’s happened mainly, the turning of Anakin Skywalker into Darth Vader, is LOVE! Well to make the long story short: TOO MUCH LOVE CAN BE DESTRUCTIVE, THEREFORE TOO MUCH LOVE IS EVIL! Would you agree?
Got me and the rest of us trainees extended till June 11th. I don’t know we just seem to enjoy our work. Traveling here and there, fixing things, learning more!
Got back on reading love stories…It seems that I wanted to feel the tingles again lately. I don’t know however what triggered the eagerness!
Well the movie was really action packed and I kept grabbing my seat coz it seemed that every time their ships launch the movie theatre would shake…. Anyway, the main reason for every thing that’s happened mainly, the turning of Anakin Skywalker into Darth Vader, is LOVE! Well to make the long story short: TOO MUCH LOVE CAN BE DESTRUCTIVE, THEREFORE TOO MUCH LOVE IS EVIL! Would you agree?
Got me and the rest of us trainees extended till June 11th. I don’t know we just seem to enjoy our work. Traveling here and there, fixing things, learning more!
Got back on reading love stories…It seems that I wanted to feel the tingles again lately. I don’t know however what triggered the eagerness!
Thursday, May 26, 2005
Summer is almost over! Wow could not believe it went by so quickly with out me having to shed off a few pounds but rather gained some! But still life is beautiful! But you know Im never this eager to go back to school! I JUST WANT TO GRADUATE... And hopefully by March of next year I would be able to achieve that goal.
My new HT happens to ignore the fact that I exist. Oh well I can't do anything about it coz I probably would not see him anymore since summer is almost over!
Moving on, got tons of report ot finish and well I'm kinda planing on extending my training at Globe! I truly love the job! Its tiring but really exciting and fun.
Gotta go!
Chill...
My new HT happens to ignore the fact that I exist. Oh well I can't do anything about it coz I probably would not see him anymore since summer is almost over!
Moving on, got tons of report ot finish and well I'm kinda planing on extending my training at Globe! I truly love the job! Its tiring but really exciting and fun.
Gotta go!
Chill...
Wednesday, April 27, 2005
IM A WORKING GIRL!
I'm here at Globe Innove Plaza, 5th floor, Network Ops/Transmission WLL department!it so happened that the secretary, Gene went to Manila for a week to attend a conference and the ILAW Awards. She and the supervisors asked me to take over! I kinda got the hang of things since all I do is receive and send fax, get signatures and log papers on the log books...well it was very mind bogling at first but then, hey I'm a fast learner...
Anyway, our trip to singapore was great...once again acquired lots of experiences while I was there...maybe il get to write it the next time i blog...
well as for now, im truly inspired by this one guy whom i just recently met...he's got a great character and very hard working. oh i know here i go again...right? there's no end to this falling in and out of love...but this is not love...its just going there!
I'm here at Globe Innove Plaza, 5th floor, Network Ops/Transmission WLL department!it so happened that the secretary, Gene went to Manila for a week to attend a conference and the ILAW Awards. She and the supervisors asked me to take over! I kinda got the hang of things since all I do is receive and send fax, get signatures and log papers on the log books...well it was very mind bogling at first but then, hey I'm a fast learner...
Anyway, our trip to singapore was great...once again acquired lots of experiences while I was there...maybe il get to write it the next time i blog...
well as for now, im truly inspired by this one guy whom i just recently met...he's got a great character and very hard working. oh i know here i go again...right? there's no end to this falling in and out of love...but this is not love...its just going there!
Saturday, April 02, 2005
SUMMER CRAZE AGAIN!
So what am I up to these days?
Since last Wednesday I have been out all day long having my ojt at Globe Innove! I have to admit that I still don't like the scorching heat but eventually I have to get used to it as my job requires to stay under the heat for like 30 mins to an hour! We go around the city to fix dsl connections! although this is not what my major requires of me but heck, i want to experience what its like to really expose yourself in real work...we still get to have hands on...I finally understood the concept behind LAN and DSL...
Anyway, Paypims you are right! I have made all possible ways to make the most of my college life...I have gone through a lot of shocking events! and believe me, it wasn't easy! but you know, this heart is strong so I guess that leaves me, still moving forward!coz you know NOT TRYING TO MOVE ON means SUICIDE!
What I wanted the most for the first semester is to get away...GET AWAY FROM THE PEOPLE WHO I THOUGHT WERE TRUE! but they ended up being just some stranger who without second thoughts or whatever will do their best to hurt you and bring you down!DAMN, I shouldn't have fooled myself of the notion that the friendship we shared was unique and blessed. I thought that I had found myself in their company but here I am, searching for myself again in other people's companionship...
And so anyway, have one more year to go and I'm outta here...
First Love
Hikaru Utada
Chords: [open] EADGBe
[Bm] 024432 [C/D] xx0010 [CM7] x35343 [D] xx0232
[Ds4] xx0233 [Em] 022000 [G] 320003 [G/D] x55430
Intro:
G D Em G/D
CM7 C/D G G
Verse:
G D
Saigo no KISU wa
Em G/D
TABAKO no flavor ga shita
CM7 C/D G G
Nigakute setsunai kaori
Em Bm
Ashita no imagoro niwa
CM7 Ds4
Anata wa doko ni irun darou
Em Bm CM7 CM7
Dare wo omotterun darou
Chorus:
G D
You are always gonna be my love
Em G/D
Itsuka dareka to mata koi ni ochitemo
CM7 C/D
I'll remember to love, you taught me how
G D
You are always gonna be the one
Em G/D
Ima wa mada kanashii love song
CM7 C/D G G
Atarashii uta utaeru made
Interlude:
CM7 C/D G G
Verse:
G D
Tachidomaru jikan ga
Em G/D
Ugokidasou to shiteru
CM7 C/D G G
Wasuretakunai koto bakari
Em Bm
Ashita no imagoro niwa
CM7 Ds4
Watashi wa kitto naiteru
Em Bm CM7 CM7
Anata wo omotterun darou
Chorus:
G D
You will always be inside my heart
Em G/D
Itsumo anata dake no basho ga aru kara
CM7 C/D
I hope that I have a place in your heart too
G D
Now and forever you are still the one
Em G/D
Ima wa mada kanashii love song
CM7 C/D CM7 Ds4
Atarashii uta utaeru made
Chorus:
G D
You are always gonna be my love
Em G/D
Itsuka dareka to mata koi ni ochitemo
CM7 C/D
I'll remember to love, you taught me how
G D
You are always gonna be the one
Em G/D
Mada kanashii love song
CM7 C/D G G
Yeah, now and forever
Coda:
G D Em G/D
CM7 C/D G G
ooh I love this song...I'm trying to learn Japanese now!That reminds me, I should get my book from Tonette!
C yah guys!have a great summer!
So what am I up to these days?
Since last Wednesday I have been out all day long having my ojt at Globe Innove! I have to admit that I still don't like the scorching heat but eventually I have to get used to it as my job requires to stay under the heat for like 30 mins to an hour! We go around the city to fix dsl connections! although this is not what my major requires of me but heck, i want to experience what its like to really expose yourself in real work...we still get to have hands on...I finally understood the concept behind LAN and DSL...
Anyway, Paypims you are right! I have made all possible ways to make the most of my college life...I have gone through a lot of shocking events! and believe me, it wasn't easy! but you know, this heart is strong so I guess that leaves me, still moving forward!coz you know NOT TRYING TO MOVE ON means SUICIDE!
What I wanted the most for the first semester is to get away...GET AWAY FROM THE PEOPLE WHO I THOUGHT WERE TRUE! but they ended up being just some stranger who without second thoughts or whatever will do their best to hurt you and bring you down!DAMN, I shouldn't have fooled myself of the notion that the friendship we shared was unique and blessed. I thought that I had found myself in their company but here I am, searching for myself again in other people's companionship...
And so anyway, have one more year to go and I'm outta here...
First Love
Hikaru Utada
Chords: [open] EADGBe
[Bm] 024432 [C/D] xx0010 [CM7] x35343 [D] xx0232
[Ds4] xx0233 [Em] 022000 [G] 320003 [G/D] x55430
Intro:
G D Em G/D
CM7 C/D G G
Verse:
G D
Saigo no KISU wa
Em G/D
TABAKO no flavor ga shita
CM7 C/D G G
Nigakute setsunai kaori
Em Bm
Ashita no imagoro niwa
CM7 Ds4
Anata wa doko ni irun darou
Em Bm CM7 CM7
Dare wo omotterun darou
Chorus:
G D
You are always gonna be my love
Em G/D
Itsuka dareka to mata koi ni ochitemo
CM7 C/D
I'll remember to love, you taught me how
G D
You are always gonna be the one
Em G/D
Ima wa mada kanashii love song
CM7 C/D G G
Atarashii uta utaeru made
Interlude:
CM7 C/D G G
Verse:
G D
Tachidomaru jikan ga
Em G/D
Ugokidasou to shiteru
CM7 C/D G G
Wasuretakunai koto bakari
Em Bm
Ashita no imagoro niwa
CM7 Ds4
Watashi wa kitto naiteru
Em Bm CM7 CM7
Anata wo omotterun darou
Chorus:
G D
You will always be inside my heart
Em G/D
Itsumo anata dake no basho ga aru kara
CM7 C/D
I hope that I have a place in your heart too
G D
Now and forever you are still the one
Em G/D
Ima wa mada kanashii love song
CM7 C/D CM7 Ds4
Atarashii uta utaeru made
Chorus:
G D
You are always gonna be my love
Em G/D
Itsuka dareka to mata koi ni ochitemo
CM7 C/D
I'll remember to love, you taught me how
G D
You are always gonna be the one
Em G/D
Mada kanashii love song
CM7 C/D G G
Yeah, now and forever
Coda:
G D Em G/D
CM7 C/D G G
ooh I love this song...I'm trying to learn Japanese now!That reminds me, I should get my book from Tonette!
C yah guys!have a great summer!
Sunday, March 06, 2005
alright i should admit...he's sweet all along...just don't know if he's only like that to me or to every single girl in school...aargg....hate what he's doing to me coz i kinda told myself im not interested in him! i don't want to swallow my own vomit...that would be awfully disgusting...
anyway, i don't know but hanging out with guys and hearing what they had to say about girls like as if im not one myself made me rethink my trust on guys...yes they're my friends, very close ones at that but then it seems that they don't respect our kind that much...
am i turning into a man-hater?
i hope not...
im still looking forward to that guy who's gonna come along soon...as what gera told me when she read my palm...all the things she told me already happened except for that last one...
well im still waiting in vain...
don't know who im waiting for though
but then im still hopeful!
anyway, i don't know but hanging out with guys and hearing what they had to say about girls like as if im not one myself made me rethink my trust on guys...yes they're my friends, very close ones at that but then it seems that they don't respect our kind that much...
am i turning into a man-hater?
i hope not...
im still looking forward to that guy who's gonna come along soon...as what gera told me when she read my palm...all the things she told me already happened except for that last one...
well im still waiting in vain...
don't know who im waiting for though
but then im still hopeful!
Tuesday, March 01, 2005
okay maia...to answer your question...how am i supposed to explore college before its too late...well guess what, you're gonna help me...now why should it be you?coz well the rootofallthings are the kind of people i need...the free spirited ones...the persons wouldn't be afraid to take that rollercoaster ride over and over again...and marecor just told me that you guys are very empathic...hehehe...
anyway, project making tonight...hope we could finish this within this week...
i can't wait to get away for the summer...
someone's been on my mind lately...i don't know he just seems so sweet this week...and the week before...but then doyle's voice kept ringing in my ear!
AYAW LAGI BUTANGIG COLOR ANG PANGBUHATON SA MGA TAO NIMO KAY IKAW RAY MASAKITAN!
well, what can i say, im just a girl!
anyway, project making tonight...hope we could finish this within this week...
i can't wait to get away for the summer...
someone's been on my mind lately...i don't know he just seems so sweet this week...and the week before...but then doyle's voice kept ringing in my ear!
AYAW LAGI BUTANGIG COLOR ANG PANGBUHATON SA MGA TAO NIMO KAY IKAW RAY MASAKITAN!
well, what can i say, im just a girl!
Monday, February 21, 2005
il be very brief...
the next few weeks' going to be crazy...
i dont feel i deserve her friendship...sometimes im okay with things, sometimes im not...is it because i havn't fully accepted the whole situation? still felt like she took something away from me...well she changed my entire life in just a snap of a finger...i think i needed it to explore college before its too late...somehow im thankful coz the situatioin made me stronger.we're still best of friend but then i still fear that someday im gonna be another reason...
anyway, what should i do with this? kept avoiding them/her in school... im like a nomad...
how could i stand going overnights making projects?
focus...
got lots of stuff to do...better get going coz i still have 2 chapters to study for our data com.
things i look forward to nowadays:
getting my ass out of tc.
going home.
my father's birthday.
my aunty baggy's arrival.
end of my 4th year.
ping's arrival.
molly's wedding.
singapore tour.
i guess that's about it for now...
God bless to all...
"The greatest gift is not found in a store nor under a tree,
but in the hearts of a true friend."
i hope that true friend exists within this life time of mine.
the next few weeks' going to be crazy...
i dont feel i deserve her friendship...sometimes im okay with things, sometimes im not...is it because i havn't fully accepted the whole situation? still felt like she took something away from me...well she changed my entire life in just a snap of a finger...i think i needed it to explore college before its too late...somehow im thankful coz the situatioin made me stronger.we're still best of friend but then i still fear that someday im gonna be another reason...
anyway, what should i do with this? kept avoiding them/her in school... im like a nomad...
how could i stand going overnights making projects?
focus...
got lots of stuff to do...better get going coz i still have 2 chapters to study for our data com.
things i look forward to nowadays:
getting my ass out of tc.
going home.
my father's birthday.
my aunty baggy's arrival.
end of my 4th year.
ping's arrival.
molly's wedding.
singapore tour.
i guess that's about it for now...
God bless to all...
"The greatest gift is not found in a store nor under a tree,
but in the hearts of a true friend."
i hope that true friend exists within this life time of mine.
Thursday, February 10, 2005
Im confused as ever...I know where I'm going but who am I supposed to trust along the way? Some people say that they are my friends but do they really care?Do they even know how I truly feel right now?Maybe its better this way, I have no one close in school...No definite group to belong to...A total Nomad for that matter...
I am selfish, I have to admit...these past few days I have been thinking of how I feel...but is it wrong to choose not to hurt?I guess the best way to make it alright for everybody is for me to protect my heart at the same time avoid hurting other people...I think and feel too much...I think that's my biggest problem...anyway, I know this blog is full of emotions, might be even full of shit!but then this is my blog and therefore this is my shit and anyone who has a problem with that then don't read...
Am I becoming bitter?I hope not...
God bless to all!
I am selfish, I have to admit...these past few days I have been thinking of how I feel...but is it wrong to choose not to hurt?I guess the best way to make it alright for everybody is for me to protect my heart at the same time avoid hurting other people...I think and feel too much...I think that's my biggest problem...anyway, I know this blog is full of emotions, might be even full of shit!but then this is my blog and therefore this is my shit and anyone who has a problem with that then don't read...
Am I becoming bitter?I hope not...
God bless to all!
Monday, February 07, 2005
Just finished my lunch and I got the most wonderful news ever...going home for lunch has its disadvantages and lots of advantages...had to go to my mom's office to get the key but i glad i took that excrutiating ride under that extreme heat...i got in the house and read my aunt's email...
anyway here i am, all alone but happy...
here i am, with out a companion but contented...
here i am, still searching for myself amidst the people who don't expect too much of me...but they are there...for no reason whatsoever...they are open to any kind of conversation...they may or may not judge you but then who cares? so as long as they don't hurt me, I'll be fine with total strangers...
I am not lost. I may not have anyone to call my own but then I know where I am going....
so long for now...superficials....
anyway here i am, all alone but happy...
here i am, with out a companion but contented...
here i am, still searching for myself amidst the people who don't expect too much of me...but they are there...for no reason whatsoever...they are open to any kind of conversation...they may or may not judge you but then who cares? so as long as they don't hurt me, I'll be fine with total strangers...
I am not lost. I may not have anyone to call my own but then I know where I am going....
so long for now...superficials....
Thursday, January 27, 2005
Wednesday, January 26, 2005
Another day to look forward to?
Well a thought came to me lately that I think I am crazy...Well who wouldn't tell that to themselves wherein almost everybody has his or her dilemma to face...But believe me if you could only venture my mind you'd understand why I say something like that to myself...
Oh well, so much for my follies...
I'm listening to A Perfect Circle right now, their music is kinda twisted but on the good side...I don't know, its like it makes you relax...the guitars are great and the vocals is splendid...The first time I heard it at my friend's house I liked it right away...I think I'm becoming peculiar when it comes to choosing my music...
What's for lunch?
butter croissant...is that the right spelling?hehehe
I finally watched THE NOTEBOOK yesterday with my mom...and well my soft side took over and I cried...But I'm glad I cried..Why did I cry? Well because of the realization that there is really that someone who is destined for us...And that maybe my prince charming is from another planet...but then I thought why would I look?When I search I end up finding and then getting hurt which means I really hadn't found that prince charming yet.A guy told me that the person whom you truly love would never become yours...I hope its not true coz if that is the case then marriage is bullshit right?I mean, how could you marry someone you don't love?Could you even stand to sleep(literally speaking) with that person? But why do I choose to love in the first place?Why did I allow myself to gamble my heart instead of using my head and cut the crap of wishful thinking?BECAUSE IM JUST SO FULL OF HOPE! And what do I get from all of this? I FOUND MYSELF AGAIN...I kinda lost it when I was so blinded by the thought that *Tooot* likes me...But then he doesn't and man did that suck...Then Maia's words kept on whispering to me: "ITS NOT YOUR LOSS"...those powerful words of Ms. Donsen kept me alive...
Oh well, life for Vanessa must go on because maybe I wasn't placed on earth to love him...I was made to love somebody else...
Watch the movie with an open mind and heart, you'll like it...
And hey, Meet the Fockers is now showing...Wanna watch it with me?
God bless to all!mwaah...
Well a thought came to me lately that I think I am crazy...Well who wouldn't tell that to themselves wherein almost everybody has his or her dilemma to face...But believe me if you could only venture my mind you'd understand why I say something like that to myself...
Oh well, so much for my follies...
I'm listening to A Perfect Circle right now, their music is kinda twisted but on the good side...I don't know, its like it makes you relax...the guitars are great and the vocals is splendid...The first time I heard it at my friend's house I liked it right away...I think I'm becoming peculiar when it comes to choosing my music...
What's for lunch?
butter croissant...is that the right spelling?hehehe
I finally watched THE NOTEBOOK yesterday with my mom...and well my soft side took over and I cried...But I'm glad I cried..Why did I cry? Well because of the realization that there is really that someone who is destined for us...And that maybe my prince charming is from another planet...but then I thought why would I look?When I search I end up finding and then getting hurt which means I really hadn't found that prince charming yet.A guy told me that the person whom you truly love would never become yours...I hope its not true coz if that is the case then marriage is bullshit right?I mean, how could you marry someone you don't love?Could you even stand to sleep(literally speaking) with that person? But why do I choose to love in the first place?Why did I allow myself to gamble my heart instead of using my head and cut the crap of wishful thinking?BECAUSE IM JUST SO FULL OF HOPE! And what do I get from all of this? I FOUND MYSELF AGAIN...I kinda lost it when I was so blinded by the thought that *Tooot* likes me...But then he doesn't and man did that suck...Then Maia's words kept on whispering to me: "ITS NOT YOUR LOSS"...those powerful words of Ms. Donsen kept me alive...
Oh well, life for Vanessa must go on because maybe I wasn't placed on earth to love him...I was made to love somebody else...
Watch the movie with an open mind and heart, you'll like it...
And hey, Meet the Fockers is now showing...Wanna watch it with me?
God bless to all!mwaah...
Monday, January 24, 2005
SO AM I OKAY?
Well for now I am since I got most of my exam in ComE 423 lecture...it was like revenge of the nerds thing...hehehe...
Everything seems okay, I'm such a good pretender...
To JOhn:
please don't put me in the same situation you placed me this afternoon while we were having our Sosci class...to answer your query, yes my HT was there...he's with me all the time...gets?
anyway, I'm done watching MY LITTLE BRIDE and its another korean hit...highly recommended by moia!
condemn me all you want
im just being human
feeling the pain
and pretending that
it would not affect me
but then i do cry
when i am alone
with my maker
so condemn me all you want
i don't give a damn
im just human
who made a huge mistake
of falling inlove
~plum~
Well for now I am since I got most of my exam in ComE 423 lecture...it was like revenge of the nerds thing...hehehe...
Everything seems okay, I'm such a good pretender...
To JOhn:
please don't put me in the same situation you placed me this afternoon while we were having our Sosci class...to answer your query, yes my HT was there...he's with me all the time...gets?
anyway, I'm done watching MY LITTLE BRIDE and its another korean hit...highly recommended by moia!
condemn me all you want
im just being human
feeling the pain
and pretending that
it would not affect me
but then i do cry
when i am alone
with my maker
so condemn me all you want
i don't give a damn
im just human
who made a huge mistake
of falling inlove
~plum~
Saturday, January 22, 2005
What is independence?Could I have it for my self?Could I live my life without having to depend on anyone else but me?Would it be a sign of loneliness?HOw do I feel right now?IM VERY NUMB!I know I feel something Im just not sure what it is...And you know what I don't really care what anyone has to think!I don't want to talk about what happened but I want this emotions to get out before I become such a cynical,pessimistic person. Do I have the right to blame THEM/HER/HIM for what Im going through right now?And the funny thing is they seem to think of how I feel but in reality it wouldn't matter!Am I a love poacher?As what the psychologist in our Social Science class discussed...HUMAN LOVE POACHING is the new trend nowadays...what the hell is that?it is when a person bolts into a relationship...and either steals the boy or the girl...I wouldn't steal anything...or anyone!im not a theif nor a BITCH!I wish I was so that I wouldn't feel this way!it is better to be normally bad than try hard not to be!what am I saying?if you're confused with all this shit that I'm writing then so am I!And somehow I've come to hate the song Fallin'!I used to like it but it kinda plays everytime I'm with him riding in her car!what a scene!couldn't have been so perfect!I don't usually swear but just give me this chance to just say anything!I hope writing is therapeutic!That after today I would once again go back to my same ol bubbly self!My world is crashing down on me but it seems that I'm carrying it on my shoulders and not letting it fall down completely!I need coffee, beer, vodka what ever!Will I get through this?I don't know!And like john I want to graduate and fly off to Portland and forget every single person I was attached to in college!Just forget that they exist that I existed with them!and that they used to mean the whole world to me!now spoof!NOTHINGNESS!
Tuesday, January 18, 2005
Everyday's the same I feel them merge
I try to separate, resist the urge
But they tell me I'll be fine
That it will all get better
Just try to write it down
Or put it in a letter
But the words won't play
And there's no easy way to say
Goodbye, goodbye
Keep my head on straight and don't look down
With all I've pushed away, I'm losing ground
But they tell me I'll be fine
That it will all get better
Just try to write it down
Or put it in a letter
But the words won't play
And there's no easy way to say
Goodbye, goodbye
And from the sidelines
Watch me fall down
And I don't understand the things I do
But I'll probably be fine
As long as I keep moving
I'll try to write it down
So things just keep improving
Still the words won't play
Cause there's no easy way to say
GOODBYE, GOODBYE
I try to separate, resist the urge
But they tell me I'll be fine
That it will all get better
Just try to write it down
Or put it in a letter
But the words won't play
And there's no easy way to say
Goodbye, goodbye
Keep my head on straight and don't look down
With all I've pushed away, I'm losing ground
But they tell me I'll be fine
That it will all get better
Just try to write it down
Or put it in a letter
But the words won't play
And there's no easy way to say
Goodbye, goodbye
And from the sidelines
Watch me fall down
And I don't understand the things I do
But I'll probably be fine
As long as I keep moving
I'll try to write it down
So things just keep improving
Still the words won't play
Cause there's no easy way to say
GOODBYE, GOODBYE
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