hey guys did you watch the last fireworks display last night? it was spectacular. although the rain kept on pouring, we stayed at the pagibig building. it feels so lonely not having to share it with someone special. it was such a cold night that you might really need someone to hold on to and hug. for me, i hugged toby, my youngest cousin. hehehe...anyway i wasn't able to sleep well coz like it was 2 am and my cousin was still talking on the cell phone to this guy. i tried not to listen to their conversation but she was right beside me. grrr....i was really sleepy but if ever i get to wake up in the middle of the night, i would find it hard to go back to sleep. i was too tired to log on the net...by the way, when we went to the dermatologist yesterday to get my cousin denise checked up, there was this lady who said she was a member of a prominent family here in cebu practically nagged her head of because her niece won't be entertained unless they'll be able to get a referral from a certain doctor. i understood her demise but she was just full of bull that she made the secretary cry. she acted as if she was all high and mighty. when would those people learn that no matter how much plastic surgery they undergo, it would always show in their personality that they are uneducated... i didn't want to get involve coz you know me, i won't be able to talk back, so i just kept my eyes on the magazine i was reading. well anyway we also brought our dog to the vet. the poor fella had a fever. he was injected with medicine four time... he's so cute.... i wish i could bring him to our house...but its my cousin molly's dog,given by her boyfriend. what else happened yesterday, well i guess that about covers it... have some resolutions but i'm still deciding of whether i'd be posting them...till then...HAPPY NEW YEAR TO YOU ALL....*mwaah**wink*

I’m trying to concentrate on making my lab reports but it seems that my mind drifts of to something or rather someone else. I finally finished the watching the entire “Bruce Almighty”! And his prayer at the end was really touching. It got me thinking, what if I wouldn’t pray to God the same way I always do. I mean I do pray for my HT’s good health and peace of mind but honestly deep inside I’d also pray for him to like me back… Pretty selfish don’t you think? But in the end I’d realize that it should be God’s will not mine that would be done. Somehow it really struck me when Bruce said “ I pray for her happiness no matter what it means!” Imagine that… Of course it doesn’t always follow that the one person you truly like or love’s happiness includes having known you… I know that I have nothing to complain about coz I’m practically blessed to have been his friend. Anyway I realized another thing today. While we were waiting for my cousin’s car to be repaired, I tried to amuse myself by listening to those mechanics’s conversation. While they were explaining to my cousin Denise her car’s problems, I got really interested. Although I honestly didn’t understand the importance of each part, I find fuddling over the different car parts really amusing. To start with, her car needed a fan belt so that it wouldn’t keep on over heating. Next she needed a compressor; that I have no idea what for. Anyway, I promised myself that someday, I’d study automation and well hopefully assemble my very own car. I think that would be possible coz my other cousin in L.A. Paul Young assembled his own sports car. Kinda strange for a girl to be so interested in those stuff, right? Well each one of us has his/her own eccentricity. And that’s what makes life more interesting…. By the way, here’s an article I found in my laptop, I think my brother saved it here. Enjoy reading and your comments and suggestions or violent reactions would be very much appreciated.

LISTEN FOR LOVE
There are times when we are timid and shy about expressing the love we feel. For fear of embarrassing the other person, or ourselves, we hesitate to say the actual words "I love you." So we try to communicate the idea in other words.
We say 'take care' or 'don't drive too fast' or 'be good.' But really, these are just other ways of saying 'I love you,' 'you are important to me,' 'I care what happens to you,' 'I don't want you to get hurt.'
We are sometimes very strange people. The only thing we want to say, and the one thing that we should say, is the one thing we don't say. And yet, because the feeling is so real, and the need to say it is so strong, we are driven to use other words and signs to say what we really mean. And many times the meaning never gets communicated at all and the other person is left feeling unloved and unwanted.
Therefore, we have to LISTEN FOR LOVE in the words that people are saying to us. Sometimes the explicit words are necessary, but more often, the manner of saying things is even more important. A joyous insult carries more affection and love within the sentiments, which are expressed insincerely.
An impulsive hug says I LOVE YOU even though the words might be saying very different. Any _expression of a person's concern for another says I love you. Sometimes the _expression is clumsy, sometimes even cruel. Sometimes we must look and listen very intently for the love that contains. But it is often there, beneath the surface.
A mother may nag her son constantly about his grades or cleaning his room. The son may hear only the nagging, but if he listens carefully, he will hear the love underneath the nagging. His mother wants him to do well, to be successful. Her concern and love for her son unfortunately emerge in her nagging. But it is love all the same.
A daughter comes home late, way past her curfew, and her father confronts her with angry words. The daughter may hear only the anger, but if she listens carefully, she will hear the love under the anger. "I was worried about you," the father is saying. 'Because I care about you and I love you. You are important to me.'
We say I love you in many ways - with birthday gifts, and little notes, with smiles and sometimes with tears. Sometimes we show our love by just keeping quiet and not saying a word, at other times by speaking out, even brusquely.
We show our love sometimes by impulsiveness. Many times we have to show our love by forgiving someone who has not listened to the love we have tried to express. The problem is listening for love is that we don't always understand the language of love, which the other person is using. A girl may use tears or emotions to say what she wants to say, and her boyfriend may not understand her because he expects her to be talking his language. Thus, we have to force ourselves to really listen for love. The problem with our world is that people rarely listen to each other. They hear the words, but they don't listen to the actions that accompany the words or the _expression on the face. Or people listen only for rejection or misunderstanding. They do not see the love that is there just beneath the surface, even if the words are angry. We have to listen for love in those around us. If we listen intently we will discover that we are a lot more loved than we realize. Listen for love and we will find that the world is a very loving place after all. LOVE is a happy thing.
It makes us laugh.
It makes us sing.
It makes us sad.
It makes us cry.
It makes us seek the reason why.
It makes us take.
It makes us give.
Above all else it makes us LIVE.
It is not the presence or absence of people that makes the difference because a person need not be lonely even if he is alone. Sometimes it is good to be alone. But that does not make us lonely. It is not a matter of being present WITH someone. It is a matter of being present to someone. So remember... If you love someone, tell him or her. Remember always to say what you mean. Never be afraid to express yourself. Take this opportunity to tell someone what he or she means to you. Seize the day and have no regrets.
Most importantly, stay close to your friends and family, for they have helped make you the person that you are today and are what it's all about anyway.

I had just posted some pics on the link at the side...just click My Pictures... These were taken during our Christmas party...I didn't place some comments yet coz its just the partial pics...anyway, slept at around 5 am coz my cousin's heartbroken and I have to comfort her. and guys, I got my hair cut...don't know if I look good basta the thing is it feels good...Surprise nalang when we see each other at school...mis you guys...mwaah

This is for my HT...eventhough he doesn't have a clue that I'm completely crazy about him...well at least we are friends and there's always something to look forward to everyday...*mwaah*

Artist: Mariah Carey
Album: Merry Christmas
Title: All I Want For Christmas Is You

I don't want a lot for Christmas
There's just one thing I need
I don't care about presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true...
All I want for Christmas
Is you...

I don't want a lot for Christmas
There is just one thing I need
I don't care about presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I don't need to hang my stocking
There upon the fireplace
Santa Claus won't make me happy
With a toy on Christmas day
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is you...
You baby

I won't ask for much this Christmas
I won't even wish for snow
I'm just gonna keep on waiting
Underneath the mistletoe
I won't make a list and send it
To the North Pole for Saint Nick
I won't even stay awake to
Hear those magic reindeer click
'Cause I just want you here tonight
Holding on to me so tight
What more can I do
Baby all I want for Christmas is you
You...

All the lights are shining
So brightly everywhere
And the sound of children's
Laughter fills the air
And everyone is singing
I hear those sleigh bells ringing
Santa won't you bring me the one I really need -
won't you please bring my baby to me...

Oh I don't want a lot for Christmas
This is all I'm asking for
I just want to see baby
Standing right outside my door
Oh I just want him for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
Baby all I want for Christmas is
You...

All I want for Christmas is you baby... (repeat)

I just finished cleaning my room. Gosh can't believe I've enough parties to attend to... Last Friday, we had our batch party. I was really tired coz we, Canence, Tonet, Leslie and I were incharge with the games, prizes and awards which by the way was not finished. The award for the crush ng bayan, both male and female as well as the mr.suave was not given out. I don't know why the people were bored. I mean maybe it was because of the weather. The sky couldn't have poured enough rain. But the after party was great. The people who got left behind(Florence, Edgar, Soekarno, Freedom, Feona, Marvin, Jay, Harvey, Leslie, Manuel, Roderick, Pates, Gary, Stanley, Canence and a lot more....) We kept on singing and dancing. Everyone was taking turns in holding the mic. We officially ended the party at around 12 coz the place was to close down. I arrived at my aunt's house at around 12:50 am. hehehe I'm no cinderalla anymore. Anyway, I wonder if we'll go caroling again coz I want still to get out of the house and go somewhere with friends and my... hehehe... never mind. I'm in enough trouble already. Cge guys till then... Nence, ang The Grunch??? Tomorrow, laag ta...I'll try to contact leslie...mwaah*wink*

Im so sleepy. I arrived late coz my mom and I roamed around ayala to buy some stuff. Gosh can't believe that everybody's into shopping freak out. Anyway, the reason why I blogged today because I am just so happy. I mean, got lots of confirmation from my friends most especially Deanne that its great to have your HT as your friend. I mean, I know for a fact that sometimes it could be such a drag but on the other hand, I could get to spend more time when we're friends. By the way, I really had fun today with Canence, Chige, Leslie, Maan, Emans and Deanne when we went to SM to buy the prizes for the party. We kept on laughing and talking about that certain someone...hehehe...kung assuming enough cya, makaingn mapud to nga gilibak cya...hehehe...Nence grabe, cge gyud agi2x sa room pag come 321 c mr.flash! cge bya tan.aw sa ato room...maybe he sensed that you're there... Will we watch "The Grunch" tomorrow?I've already bought my gift for my manito na bya kay hehehe charge to mama man...I still have one more goal to achieve before Christmas break...Nence you know na... cge oi, sleep nako kay if I keep on typing I might divulge more info on my HT...can't get enough chika about him that I still blog and write on my diary about him... hehehe...cge take care peeps!

Your soul is bound to the Rose Bud: The
Naive.

"I keep all of my secrets somewhere inside
and though I haven't let myself shine to the
world, I'm good for something but too good to
give to you."

The Rose Bud is associated with innocence,
curiosity, and confidence. It is governed by
the god Cupid and its sign is The Dewdrop, or
Puppy Love.

As a Rose Bud, you may have grand ideas about love
and you may well be inexperienced. You tend to
be optomistic, idealistic, and curious, but
it's just because you like being a positive
person. You also may have high thoughts of
yourself, and can come off a bit conceited, but
it's just a mask to hide your lack of
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Its like 7:42 in the morning. My mom wondered why I woke up so early. Well honestly I had to go the bathroom and do my thing. Secondly, I slept early last night. I tried to read Harry Potter but then it seemed that it was like putting me into a trance and making me fall asleep. Hehehe Or I was just plainly tired and sleepy. Anyway, I have lots of things to do today. I finally have to go to a dermatologist to have my face examined. My mom kept on bugging me to go. And so my brother set an appointment today. We’re gonna go caroling again. One of the most favorite things I’d rather do on a Saturday night. And I also have to start looking for gift possibilities for my “MANITO”. I’m pretty excited for the party although I still have no idea what to wear. Leslie and I agreed on having a baking session at her house on the 19th and well I’m pretty excited on that event too. The only things that I’m not looking forward to are our quizzes next week…Anyway, I’m still in a state of euphoria. Hope it never ends… By the way, about the thing I blogged last time, well I like most part of it. The mental stimulation thing are really present with my HT. Am I correct? I mean lately, we keep on arguing and I have to think clever thoughts to beat him in a conversation. Anyway, nence here I go again talkin bout my HT...hehehe

Here are some stuff about me… If some things are quite questionable then just tag me or ask me in person. Okay?

10 bands you've been listening a lot to lately:in no order.
1. Evanescence
2. Saliva
3. Incubus
4. Three doors down
5. System of a down
6. 311
7. Dunkin Sheik
8. No Doubt
9. Five for Fighting
10. Matchbox Twenty
9 things you look forward to:
1. Sleeping/Dreaming
2. Being with my HT
3. eating
4. Reading Harry Potter
5. Emails
6. Christmas break
7. my aunt’s coming home
8. the lord of the rings the return of the kings
9. tomorrow
8 things you like to wear:
1. my contacts
2. my torn blue jeans
3. my new sandals
4. highschool shirts
5. my lip gloss
6. sunglasses
7. my red underwear
8. my star necklace
7 things that annoy you:
1. traffic jam
2. not being able to talk to my HT
3. all decisions poured down on me
4. someone getting annoyed
5. having colds
6. people wearing t-back and showing them off
7. snob people
6 things you say most days:
1. Ha?
2. Are we there yet?
3. aminimony
4. Dai?
5. My Gosh Becky!
6. Kaon ta na!
5 things you do everyday:
1. eat
2. pray
3. sweep my room
4. daydream
5. sleep
4 people you want to spend more time with:
1. my HT
2. family
3. my bestfriend Ebyang
4. the chix of TC, my classmates
3 movies you could watch over and over again:
1. Bring it on
2. Save the last Dance
3. Uptown girls
2 of your favorite songs at the moment:
1. Why can’t I? – Liz Phaire
2. Unwell, Matchbox 20
1 person you could spend the rest of your life with:
1. my HT still

Its 1 pm in the afternoon and I am so sleepy. I have this terrible cold and I have to drink medicine. Since I ran out of no-drowse Decolgen, I drank the other one. And so now here I am, feeling so dizzy facing my laptop. Anyway, this is supposed to be my second blog for the day but then I got disconnected and the one I have typed this morning was deleted…

Klave, its not that I’m protecting your gender or something but I know deep inside you are not gay. I mean, your actions are totally different from those who are gay. Anyway, Canence you really have a point about guys being so attached to their feminine side. I know lots of them but then it doesn’t bother me anymore because I like it when guys be like that rather than acting all macho around us girls. I like it especially when we could openly say what ever we want, even if its girl-talk because our guy friends don’t mind. You know nence, we are lucky because most of our guy friends are like that...

by the way, here's an email sent to me by Kittin. I really like it... To all the guys who keeps asking the same question all over again, here's our answer...

In a brief conversation, a man asked a woman. he was pursuing he question "What kind of man are you looking for?"

She sat quietly for a moment before looking him in the eye and asking "Do you really want to know?" Reluctantly, he said "Yes."


She began to expound..." As a woman in this day and age, I am in position to ask a man what he can do for me that I can't do for myself. I pay my own bills. I take care of my household with out the help of any man...or woman for that matter. I am in the position to ask "What can you bring to the table?"


The man looked at her. Clearly he thought that she was referring to money. She quickly corrected his thought and stated "I am not referring to money. I need something more. I need a man who is striving for perfection in every aspect of life."

He sat back in his chair, folded his arms, and asked her to explain.



She said, "I am looking for someone who is striving for perfection mentally because I need conversation and mental stimulation. I don't need a simple minded man. I am looking for someone who is striving for perfection spiritually because I don't need to be unequally yoked...believers mixed with unbelievers is a recipe for disaster.



I need a man who is striving for perfection financially because I don't need a financial burden. I am looking for someone who is sensitive enough to understand what I go through as a woman but strong enough to keep me grounded.



I am looking for someone who I can respect. In order to be submissive, I must respect him. I cannot be submissive to a man who isn't taking care of his business. I have no problem being submissive...he just has to be worthy. God made woman to be a help mate for man. I can't help a man if he can't help himself."


When she finished her spill, she looked at him. He sat there with a puzzled look on his face. He said "You are asking a lot."

She replied "I'm worth a lot."

Just arrived home from our Christmas carol practice… It was a bit frustrating since there were only 4 of us girls and well, we kept on laughing and the guys most especially Manuel kept on making jokes. Anyway, by the end of the practice, we were hopeful because at least somehow we did improve, as a group that is. Anyway, Deanne??? Where did you go? Why man wala mo ni apas???

My head is throbbing a bit… Lack of sleep maybe…

I wanna share this article with you. Got this from the Philippine Daily Inquirer dated November 9, 2003


By: Ramon J. Farolan

Once upon a time in the kingdom of heaven, God was missing for six days. Michael the Archangel found Him on the seventh day, resting. He inquired of God, “Where have You been?” God with a deep sigh of satisfaction and pride pointed downwards through the clouds, “Look, Michael, look what I have made.”
The Archangel looked puzzled and said, “What is it?” “It’s a planet,” replied God, “and I’ve put life in it. I’m going to call it Earth, and it’s going to e a great place of balance.”
“Balance?” inquired Michael, still confused. God explained, pointing to different parts of the Earth. “Northern Europe will be a great place of opportunity and wealth, but cold and harsh. Southern Europe is going to be poor but sunny and pleasant. I’ve made lands abundant in water and while others are parched deserts. This one will be extremely hot, while this one will be very cold and covered with ice.”
Michael, impressed by God’s work, then pointing to a group of islands and asked, “What are these?
“Ah,” said God, “Those are the Philippine islands, the most glorious place on Earth. There are beautiful beaches, rivers, mountains and forests. The people are going to be handsome, intelligent and humorous. They are going to be found traveling all over the world. They will be extremely sociable, hardworking and high-achieving, and they will be known throughout the world as bearers of peace and love.”
Michael gasped in wonder and admiration but then proclaimed, “What about balance, Lord? You said there would be balance.”
And the Lord replied, “Wait until you see the idiots I put in the government.”

This article really is amusing. Sad but true…

Anyway, I have to say, this is day is one of the most amazing days I have lived. I mean the weather was perfect. I kept on laughing and well I was able to sing with my friends…

By the way, during our REED 40 class, one of my classmates happened to question our teacher:

If God wants only the good things to happen, then why does He allow people to experience pain?

For me, God didn’t just place us in a situation so that we would suffer. He gave us lots of choices, both advantageous and disadvantageous on our part. As far as I’m concerned, most choices are like this. Anyway, suffering is like the effect of a bad choice. And one of my classmates said that how could we learn if we haven’t experienced it. How would we feel happy if we haven’t experience pain? One cannot exist without the other.

What about you, what’s your opinion on this? Tag me…

Enjoy these quizzes...break sa ko on talking about my HT...hehehe


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GAry sent me this through friendster and I answered this as best as I could...enjoy...

1. birthday?
-may 13, 1984

2. what school did you go to in highschool?
-University of San Carlos Girls High School

3.where would you wanna go right now?
-In Bed (yaawn!)

4. what is ur wish ryt now?
-Hmmm… For my HT to like me back.

5. When did you last cry?
-I can’t remember

6. Do you like your handwriting?
-Most of the time I do…

7. Any bad habits?
-eating sweets

8. What is your most embarrassing moment?
-Lately, during >>>>’s teasing me in front of my HT.

9. what would u change about u?
-nothing

10.Are you a daredevil?
-I think I am…

11.who inspires you to live?
-God, my family

12. Do looks matter?
-no

13. what is you cellphone model?
now???
-2100

14. Do you believe in ghosts?
-yes

5. how many piercings do you have?
-one pair on my ears

16. Are you trendy?
-not really

17. How do you release anger?
-I cry or talk to my heart’s content

18.Where are your second homes?
-my aunt’s house at Mt. View, TC

19.What was your favorite toy as a child ?
-cooking stuff

20. favorite subject/s?
-english and math, music

21.best moment of your life?
- still ongoing, college years

22. favorite dessert?
-apple pie ala mode

23.ABS-CBN or GMA?
-abs-cbn

24.favorite bands?
-incubus, saliva, audioslave, no doubt

25.What do you look for in a guy/girl?

-good sense of humor, sensitivity, wits, thoughtfulness

26. What are your nicknames?
- Van, Bani

27. Would you bungee?
-someday I would

28. what do you wear when u sleep?
- pajamas, sometimes shorts and shirt

29. What are you worried about right now?
- lots of things

30. did u ever go on a diet?
-no

31.when was ur first kiss?
-never been kissed

32. who's ur crush sa showbiz?
-collin farrel

33. What's your favorite colour combination?
-yellow and blue

34. favorite ice cream flavor?
-mocha

35. favorite animal?
-dog

36. Are you in love?
-can’t tell

37. what will be ur wedding song?
- still thinking of one...

38.instead of telling who ur crush is describe
her/him nalang.
-class clown, witty, talented, good-looking in his own ways, critic, crazy, adventurous, loves foods, talkative, moody, movie addict, game addict, musically inclined, caring, mysterious

39.mommy or daddy?
-mama

40. greatest regret?
- no regrets

41. kyla or nina?
-Nina

42. motto in life?
-Live your life as if it were your last…

47. one nyt stand or long term relationship?
-long term

48. future profession?
-lawyer

49.what is the perfect date?
-anything that would make the both of us look forward to the next date

50. what would u like for Christmas?
-a pc?

51. what will be your new years resolution?
-risk more

52. torpe or straight forward?
-straight forward

53.what is the one thing you cant live without?
-a family

54. what is/are ur best asset/s?
-my eyes

55.are u a better listener or a better adviser?
-listener

Artist: Five For Fighting
Album: Easy Tonight
Title: Something About You
I don't know where to begin
I don't know how to get out there to see you
I don't know where to dig in.
I don't know how to get in there¡to feel you

It's been to long and i'm about to be in time for me
It's been to long and i'm in time

Baby there's something about you that
I can hold on to
I'm going to hold on to that
Baby there's something about you that
I can hold on to
I'm going to hold on to that

I never thought i would win
I never thought much about that.
(it's been a long time coming)
I never stopped to begin
Thinking about the process.
(it's been a long time coming)

It's been to long and i'm about to be in time for me
It's been to long and i'm in time

Baby there's something about you that
I can hold on to
I'm going to hold on to that
Baby there's something about you that
I can hold on to
I'm going to hold on to that

I don't know where to begin
I don't know how to get out there to see you

Baby there's something about you that
I can hold on to
I'm going to hold on to that
Baby there's something about you that
I can hold on to
I'm going to hold on to that

It's been a long time coming
I'm going to hold on to that

And i'm going to be there¡be there¡alright

SHED OF LIGHT

I really don’t know if I should be relieved or I should dread even more the days to come… John answered my questions profoundly and well it did help me ease out most of my confusion on my HT. And I must admit that I do value friendship more than passion as what Gelie tagged. But the thing is Gel, I have been doing that for quite some time. Maybe that is the reason why up to now I am still single because most of my past HT became my close friends and I don’t want to go beyond friendship fearing that I might break the bond between us. My cousin Tsai told me that its about time to be honest with my self and face my demons, my true feelings that is. Its just that I’m not the type of person to risk friendship just to suffice my loneliness. Why am I experiencing this right now? *sigh* I’ve always preferred liking friends rather than falling for a complete stranger but now, it seems harder as you get to know your friend/HT more. And what’s worse is that we get along so well and we have lots of things in common. Honestly, when we hang out, I always remind myself of the big word: FRIEND. He is my friend and there is a big chance that he’ll stay that way forever. Once again, REALITY BITES!

From John’s blog:

Van, I think he (whoever your HT is) knows that you like him. Some guys love to assume that and most of the time they are confident about it lalo na if they have tested you and na-buking ka. You haven't told me who that person is, so mahirap i-analyze ang intentions nya and how his mindframe is. To be safe, so that I don't judge anyone here, my analysis is that he's not ready yet for such things. Most likely he has someone special other than you. But then again that someone could be YOU. I don't know, but it's a possibility. Maybe hindi pa naging "kayo" kasi wala pang "spark" on his side. Tinatamad lang siya siguro or maybe he knows that since you like him, you'll always be there... so parang spare tire ka na rin. You won't like that to happen.

Well John, I have accepted that maybe I’m just not his type of girl or that he only sees me as a friend. The only consolation to this is that, if he happens to notice that I like him, at least he didn’t take advantage of me liking him. It just goes to show that I have met a TRUE friend in him. As of him having someone special, well I have to investigate more on that…hehehe… As of now, the only thing that runs through his mind is his vice… What vice? Well I still can’t elaborate on that…

Anyway, guys I’m really sorry if this is boring you. I just need to get these thing out of my system because its killing me not to be able to let this emotions and confusion out. Pasensya na if it doesn’t interest you… Cge lang, I’ll think of other stuff… INTERESTING STUFF…

How should I describe what I’m feeling right now if I myself don’t understand it? It would take me forever to analyze all the things that are happening and the implications of the events that took place in my life. Confusing isn’t it? Anyway, we’ve met most of our teachers except for our ECE 321 lab; which would still be tomorrow. Actually, I have an oral exam in my English 3 tomorrow. Wondering why I’m still taking up speech wherein my batch mates are already taking up English 23? I was left behind because of the new enrollment system implemented during the first semester of our second year. Its frightening at the same time exciting coz, I get to meet a whole different group people, mostly Fine Arts and Architecture students. And believe it or not, got a class at TEC. Our ReEd 40 got dissolved that’s why we had to move to another schedule and I ended up choosing a class there. It still has its advantages because the south campus is just a stone’s throw away from our house. I don’t have to wake up early during TTh.

On my distinctively colorful lovelife…as if I have one…

I’ve always wondered whether my HT has feelings… Let me just elaborate on that… I know that guys can be totally dense and extremely passive but do they ever feel the closeness between two people? Or are we girls always over analyzing things? But is it too assuming to just wonder what those actions mean to a person? Sometimes, I think that he is insensitive when it comes to things like, “kilig” moments. I don’t know… This stuff makes want to laugh at the same time cry all day…

Got some questions for all of you…

If someone lets just say, a person who doesn’t know that you have a thing for your HT, teases you in front of him or her, what would you do? What would your reaction be??

If your HT becomes your close friend over a period of time, would you be pleased or would you hate the idea of you being his/her buddy?

If you showed him/her that you truly care for him/her and he/she still ends up being totally clueless of how you feel what would you do???

Please tag me for your answers or you can email me at vanelin13v@yahoo.com

EXAMS NEXT WEEK:
EE 321 – please refer to you notes…
COME 321 – Number system

NO CLASSES ON:
November 26, 2003 – Ramadan
For ECE/EE subjects:
November 27-29, 2003 – ECE/EE conference

Happy Birthday to Jamerson Palanca!!!

Wow got lost for like 8 days and then there’s the flooding of the tagboard again… I love that…hehehe Anyway, guys; Deanne and Lupin, I wish I were a very good joker or something so that my blogs wouldn’t be too serious but I’m just me. Sometimes serious but most the time I’m just the type to laugh at jokes not make them. Don’t worry, I’ll try to place something here that would amuse you…

My brother sent me this through friendster...It might come in handy somday...

There are 12 months a year...30 days a month...7
days a week...24 hours a day...60 minutes an
hour...but only one like you in a lifetime.

There are two reasons why I wake up in the
morning: my alarm clock and you.

Great minds contain ideas, solutions and reasons;
scientific minds contain formulas, theories and
figures; my mind contains only you!

Love can be expressed in many ways. One way I
know is to send it across the distance to the
person who is reading this.

If I could change the alphabet, I would put U and
I together!

Minsan caring is better than loving. Minsan tea
is better than coffee. Minsan smile is better
than laughter. Pero nobody is better than you.

There is night so we can appreciate day, sorrow
so we can appreciate joy, evil so we can
appreciate good, you so I can appreciate love.

You look great today. How did I know? Because you
look great everyday.

What is love? Those who don't like it call it
responsibility. Those who play with it call it a
game. Those who don't have it call it a dream.
Those who understand it call it destiny. And me,
I call it you.

What is love? It is what makes your cell phone
ring every time I send text messages.

If love can be avoided by simply closing our
eyes, then I wouldn't blink at all for I don't
want to let a second pass having fallen out of
love with you.

I used to think that dreams do not come true, but
this quickly changed the moment I laid my eyes on
you.

Press down if you miss me. Talaga? Sweet mo
naman. You really miss me huh? Still pressing
down. Impressed na ako, ha? Sobrang miss na yan.
Well, I miss you too.

Some people were born with talents. They can do
beautiful things with their skills, knowledge and
technology. But no one is as talented as you. You
just come near, and there is already beauty.

A lady is a woman who makes a man behave like a
gentleman. You're such a lady to me.

To forget you is hard to do and to forget me is
up to you. Forget me not, forget me never. Forget
this text, but not the sender.

When situation gets you down, remember there's
Someone in Heaven who loves you and watches over
you and there's someone on Earth who cares… I do.

Cell phones can be irritating sometimes. You
always have to reload, recharge every now and
then. Messages are delayed. But there's one thing
I love about it. It connects me to you!

Words begin with ABC. Numbers begin with 123.
Music begins with do, re, mi. And friendship
begins with you and me!

Rain and sunshine do not always come together.
Night and day never coincide. But you and I,
whatever they say, is for me the perfect match.
When I dream, I dream of you...maybe one day,
dreams will come true.

There is an ocean between us. Forests and
mountains keep us apart. I may not be superman,
but give me a second and I will fly across
countries to send you my love. Have you received
it?

If, out of time, I could pick one moment and keep
it shining, always new, of all the days that I
have lived, I'd pick the moment I met you.

I'm on a mission to get over you, in other words
mission impossible.

I wish I'd be a tear in your eye to roll down
your cheek and end up with your lips but I never
wish you'd be a tear in my eye for I would lose
you every time I cry.

When it rains, you don't see the sun, but it's
there. Hope we can be like that. We don't always
see each other, but we will always be there for
one another.

I may run out of message to text you. I may run
out of jokes too. I may also run out of battery
or even a peso… but my heart won't run out of
space for you!

You'll know that you miss someone very much when
every time you think of that person, your heart
breaks into pieces and just a quick "Hello" from
that person can bring the broken pieces back.

Love. All my life I have read about it, dreamt of
it, waited for it, cried for it, needed it. Now
with you, I have found it.

Sherlock Holmes was an idiot and Robert Watt was
a fool. One was a detective, the other invented
radar. But neither of them ever discovered you.
I'm a genius!

When the time comes I can't smile anymore, don't
worry about me, I know what to do. I'll just
stare at one corner and think of you. No one else
could make me happy like the way you do.

There's a love that only you can give, a smile
that only your lips can show, a twinkle that can
only be seen in your eyes, and a life of mine
that you alone can complete.

Everyone wants to be the sun that lights up your
life. But I'd rather be your moon, so I can shine
on you during your darkest hour when your sun
isn't around.

Ah-- I forgot your name. Can I call you mine?
And, in case you forget my name too, call me
yours!

If I had the letters "HRT", I can add "EA" to get
a "HEART" or a "U" and get "HURT". But I'd rather
choose "U" and get "HURT" than have a "HEART"
without "U".

You may never see how much I care for you. You
may never hear how much I treasure you. You may
never feel how much I miss you. Coz only here in
my heart can you see them true.

There are 4 steps to happiness: 1. you, 2. me, 3.
our hearts, 4. together!

If kisses were water, I'd give you the ocean. If
hugs were leaves, I'd give you a forest. If love
were space, I'd give you a galaxy. If friendship
were life, I'd give you mine for free.

It's hard to say hello because it might be
goodbye. It's hard to say I'm okay because
sometimes I'm not. But it's easy to say I miss
you coz I know that I really do.

It's hard for two people to love each other when
they live in two different worlds. But when these
two worlds collide and become one, that's what
you call you and I.

If you're feeling lonely and you think there is
nobody there to love, support, listen or show
they care, just save this message and every time
you realize it, it will remind you that a part of
me is always there with you.

Roses are red, violets are blue. I am waiting to
hear from a cute guy like you.

They say that as long as there is one person
loving you, life isn't a waste. So if you lose
hope and thought that life is not worth living,
just remember I'm here.

Do you know that men and women are angels created
with only one wing? And they need to embrace each
other to be able to fly... Hope you can find your
angel whom you can fly with forever.

They told me I could do anything if I put my mind
into it. Yet no matter how hard I try in all that
I do, I just can't take my mind off you.

My biggest reward is to see you smile, know you
are happy, and feel you are loved. I know life is
sometimes cruel, but that's why I'm here, to show
you that life can be good when somebody cares.

I always think of you, but I always fail to know
the reason why. Is there something else I should
know about you? But there is one thing that I
know is true. That life will always be sad
without you.

Hatred infects the mind; love dissolves it. You
dissolve my mind.

Don't say you love me unless you really mean it
cause I might do something crazy like believe it.

I'm afraid to close my eyes coz I might think of
you. I'm afraid to open them coz I might see you.
I'm afraid to move my lips coz I might speak of
you. I'm afraid to listen coz I might hear my
heart fall for you.

I'm sorry to be smiling every time you're near.
I'm sorry my eyes twinkle whenever you're here.
I'm sorry that cupid has made his hit. I'm sorry
I love you, I can't help it.

Caring for someone is easy but making someone
care for you is hard. Now I keep wondering how
did you make it so easy for me to care for you.

Text me when you are sad, text me when you need
someone to listen to and you can't find anyone
who will. I don't care if I'm your last option, I
just don't want you to cry alone.

I don't want to say I miss you, though deep
inside I do, coz I'm afraid you might see thru
and know how much fear I have of losing someone
like you.

If love can be avoided simply by closing our
eyes, I wouldn't blink at all for I don't want to
let a second pass having fallen out of love with
you.

I wish one day you will miss me terribly that no
matter how hard you look for me, you won't find
me. Why? Because, I want you to miss me the way
I'm missing you right now.

If I could be any letter in the alphabet, I'd
choose "V" so I can be next to "U"; if you could
be any note, I wish you're "RE" so your always
beside "ME"!

Whatever you do, I'll walk with you. Hoping that
your every dream would come true. Anytime,
anywhere, I'll always be there. Wishing you love
and happiness because I care.

The spaces between our fingers were created so
that another person's fingers could fill them in.
Hope you'll find your dream hand to hold you
forever.

Every part of me wants you, maybe because I was
made just for you!

When you love someone, draw a circle around their
name instead of a heart coz hearts can be broken
but circles never end.

Nobody tells fish to swim, birds to fly, cows to
moo, dogs to bark - they just do. Just like
nobody tells me to remember you. I just do!

If you were a wound inside my heart, I'd rather
leave it there with all the pain locked inside
than leave it without a trace of you.

Whenever you feel blue, I will be there for you.
Whenever you are sad, I will stay by your side.
Whenever you need someone to love, I will always
be there for you to have.

They can recycle paper till it's as good as new,
reproduce cans and jars and old bottles too, but
they can never recycle another person as
wonderful as you.

I hate when you smile at me because you make me
crazy about you. I hate when you talk to me
because you make me run out of words. I hate you
when I see you because you make me love you more.

What good is beauty without brains, looks without
charm, money without happiness, a smile without
feelings, a life without you?

To be disturbed by the beep of your phone only
means that somehow, somewhere, somebody is
thinking of you and at this very moment, that's
me. Take care always.

A person you love is an extension of yourself.
Without it, you're not complete so better take
care of yourself because I don't want to lose a
part of me.

I wish my eyes could speak what my heart feels
for you, coz my lips can lie on what is true. My
eyes couldn't coz even if I close them I could
still see you.

Every time I hear my text tone, I always hope one
of them is from you. My cell phone may have
limited memory space but my heart has unlimited
space for someone like you.

I have you! If you hate me, shoot me with an
arrow, but please not on the heart coz that's
were you are!

Someone asked what makes people happy. Some said
wealth and some said fame. I was thinking about
this when my cell phone beeped and received a
text from you. Then, I smiled and said: "This
makes me happy."

You're like a target that I always try to aim at.
How I wish I could aim you at the heart. But
every time I fail, I feel so sad. You know why?
It's because I always end up missing you.

It was a simple crush, done and over with, then
you looked at me.

Love is something special, a treasure I want to
find... To others, love is blind but for me, its
not true, coz when I fell in love...I saw you.

I'll lend you my shoulder for you to cry on, my
ears to listen to, my hand for you to hold, my
feet to walk with you, but I can't lend you my
heart coz it already belongs to you.

Why do birds fall from the sky every time you
walk by? Maybe because like me they want to be
near you!

If I get takot, would you hawak me tight? If I
gawa something mali, would you make it right? If
I build an apoy, would you bantay the flame? If I
sabi I miss u, would you ramdam the same?

Do you take me to be your lawfully wedded text
mate, in sickness or in health, through metering
or not, till low bat do us part?

Someone once asked me, "Have you ever fallen in
love?" Then I answered, "Of course, once." Then
they asked me another question: "Did it hurt?" I
thought of you and told them "Yes, very much".

You must be a thief coz you stole my heart. You
must be tired coz you're always running through
my mind. And maybe I'm a bad shooter coz I keep
missing you.

I asked God for a rose and He gave me a garden. I
asked God for a drop of water and He gave me an
ocean. I asked God for an angel and He gave me
you!

I have heard from the phone company, the water
company, the electric company, but haven't heard
from you. Too bad, it's your company I love the
most.

If someone would ask me what a beautiful life
means, I would lean my head on your shoulder and
hold you close to me and answer with a
smile: "Like this!"

If only one star would fall every time I miss
you, then all the stars in heaven would be gone.
Don't wonder if there are no stars tonight! It's
your fault coz you made me miss you a lot.

Life may sometimes be a rough road to walk on
where everything seems wrong. But don't give up.
Just go on coz when you think you're all alone,
look back and you'll find me walking along.

They say as long as at least one person cares for
you, life isn't a waste. So when things go
terribly wrong, and you feel like giving up,
please remember you still got me.

True love is hard to find, special one, one of a
kind. I know because it appeared to me on a
strange day I met you.

I've been wondering why you're not texting...
Multiple Choice: a. busy b. dedma c. tired d.
thrifty e. want me to miss you.

While you gave her flowers, you gave me thorns.
While all she did was smile, all I did is mourn.
While she was so happy, I felt so blue. Because
while you loved her, I was loving you.

An angel asked me a reason why I care for you so
much. I told her I care for you so much coz…
there's no reason not to.

First time I saw you, I was scared to touch you.
First time I touched you, I was scared to kiss
you. First time I kissed you, I was scared to
love you. But now that I love you, I'm scared to
lose you!

If love is a disease then I'm very ill. But I
would not want medicine and won't take any pill.
I would instead suffer this illness and be
bedridden with joy of knowing you.

I will walk with you side by side for only one
condition: hide your wings every time we walk
together because the whole world might know that
you're my angel!

Each of us is an angel with one wing. The only
way we could fly is to hold each other and share
wings. So if you have trouble flying, I will
always share mine with you.

I used to think that the world is so unfair, that
it gave me so many reasons to hate it. But now,
how can I hate such a wonderful world that gave
me you?

Can I say I love you today? If not, can I ask you
again tomorrow? And the day after tomorrow? And
the day after that? Coz I'll be loving you every
single day of my life.

A day may start or end without a message from me,
but believe me it won't start or end without me
thinking of you…..See! I just did. Take care.

You greeted me hi, I didn't reply. You gave me a
sweet smile, I responded with a sigh. You showed
me your love, you received a shrug. But when you
bid goodbye I began to cry.

Wow didn't expect that my day would be such a mixture of fun, excitement and boredom... For the last time I'm gonna say that its really tiring to go to school and end up having no class coz its either the teachers decided to ditch their classes or the room is currently unavailable...Anyway, sometimes we ran out of things to talk about and thanks to the cool weather we, Maia, Ipay(ay Gizelle), Leslie and I felt really sleepy as if being put to a trance of some kind... And then JR arrived at the canteen followed by Benny Boo Boo and Manuel. I could not laugh enough... At the end of the day, we had no class in our Come 321 lecture coz our classroom is still being renovated...

Anyway, as for my HT, well I kinda asked Leslie if I was that obvious and she said that she thinks I care too much because what concerns me somehow concerns him also... I wish I could elaborate but I'd rather not... hehehe... To those who know, what do you think???

Till then....

To much HT...I'm gonna sing this to him one of these days...

Artist: Liz Phair
Album: Liz Phair
Title: Why Can't I?

Get a load of me, get a load of you
Walkin' down the street, and I hardly know you
It's just like we were meant to be

Holding hands with you, and we're out at night
Got a girlfriend, you say it isn't right
And I've got someone waiting too

This is, this is just the beginning
We're already wet, and we're gonna go swimming

Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you
It's inevitable, it's a fact that we're gonna get down to it
So tell me
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you

Isn't this the best part of breakin' up
Finding someone else you can't get enough of
Someone who wants to be with you too

It's an itch we know we are gonna scratch
Gonna take a while for this egg to hatch
But wouldn't it be beautiful

Here we are, we're at the beginning
We haven't fucked yet, but > heads spinning

Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you
It's inevitable, it's a fact that we're gonna get down to it
So tell me
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you

I'd love for you to make me wonder
Where it's goin'
I'd love for you to pull me under
Somethin's growin'
for this that we can control
Baby I am dyin'

Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you

Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you
It's inevitable, it's a fact that we're gonna get down to it
So tell me
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you

You Don't Have a Boyfriend Because You are Too Shy

When a guy gets to know you, he finds a great catch

Problem is... you're too shy for most guys to get to know.

From meeting someone to dating, you usually have your guard up.

And while you're just holding back, it makes you seem like you've got something to hide.




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Hey guys, I'm so glad that at least you showed that you do care coz my depression caused a stir on the readers. Its just there are times when you think you can just hold your head up and pretend everything's alright and then end up getting hurt really bad. Sometimes, not people but events hurt you... but don't worry coz I'm okay and well it just takes me a day to settle my issues... I wish I could tell you everything but some things are better left unsaid. Yesterday, Ipay asked me,"If you're claiming that you're depressed, how come you have a huge smile on your face???". Well I have probably accepted the facts... Anyway, my frustration was compensated yesterday... Gosh I'd kill myself for this but I can't help it... HAPPY, SHALALALA! ITS SO NICE TO BE HAPPY...hehehe...See how moody I could be...hehehe....
To Emans:
We'll talk next week...
To Kim:
I'm looking forward to Tuesday's date...hehehe
To Leslie:
I wish we did jog today...Maybe next time.... I loved the coffee...makaaddict..
To everyone else:

"Too often we underestimate the power of a touch, a smile, a kind word, a listening ear, an honest compliment or the smallest act of caring, all of which have the potential to turn a life around" - LEO BUSCAGLIA

I know I told manny that I didn't like this song so much but then when I listened to the lyrics, I think this is just what I need...Enjoy singing...

Artist: MICHELLE BRANCH
Album: Hotel Paper
Title: Breathe


I've been driving for an hour
Just talking to the rain
Said I've been driving crazy
Cause its keeping you away
So just give me one good reason
Tell me why I should stay
Cause I dont wanna waste another moment
Saying things we were never meant to say

And I
Take it just a little bit
I..
Hold my breath and count to ten
I..
I've been waiting for a chance to let you in

If I just breathe
How do you fill the space in between?
Oh no, everything is alright
Breathe
Everything little piece of me
You'll see
Everything is alright
If I just breathe

Well it's ours, so overrated
Not saying how you feel
So you end up watching chances fade
And wonder in which way

And I...
Give you just a little time
I...
Wonder if you realize
I...
I've been waiting till I see it in your eyes

If I just breathe
How do you fill the space between
Oh no, everything is alright
Breathe,
Every little piece of me
You'll see
Everything is alright
If I just breathe
Breathe

So I whisper and I'm,
Hoping you hear me
Do you hear me?

If I just breathe
How do you fill the space between
Oh no, everything is alright
Breathe,
Every little piece of me
You'll see
Everything is alright

THINGS THAT WILL MAKE YOU FEEL GOOD...
1. Falling in love..
2. Laughing so hard your face hurts.
3. A hot shower.
4. No lines at the supermarket
5. A special glance.
6. Getting mail
7. Taking a drive on a pretty road.
8. Hearing your favorite song on the radio.
9. Lying in bed listening to the rain outside.
10. Hot towels fresh out of the dryer.
11. Finding the sweater you want is on sale for half price.
12. Chocolate milkshake. (or vanilla!) (or strawberry)
13. A long distance phone call.
14. A bubble bath.
15. Giggling.
16. A good conversation.
17 The beach
18. Finding a 20 note in your coat from last winter.
19. Laughing at yourself.
20. Midnight phone calls that last for hours.
21. Running through sprinklers.
22. Laughing for absolutely no reason at all.
23. Having someone tell you that you're beautiful.
24. Laughing at an inside joke.
25. Friends.
26. Accidentally overhearing someone say something nice about you.
27. Waking up and realizing you still have a few hours left to sleep.
28. Your first kiss (either the very first or with a new partner).
29. Making new friends or spending time with old ones.
30. Playing with a new puppy.
31. Having someone play with your hair..
32. Sweet dreams.
33. Hot chocolate.
34. Road trips with friends.
35. Swinging on swings.
36. Wrapping presents under the Christmas tree while eating cookies and
dRinking your favorite tipple.
37. Song lyrics printed inside your new CD so you can sing along without
feEling stupid.
38. Going to a really good concert.
39. Making eye contact with a cute stranger
40. Winning a really competitive game.
41. Making chocolate chip cookies.
42. Having your friends send you homemade cookies.
43. Spending time with close friends.
44. Seeing smiles and hearing laughter from your friends.
45. Holding hands with someone you care about.
46. Running into an old friend and realizing that some things (good or bad)
nevEr change
47. Riding the best roller coasters over and over.
48. Watching the _____expression on someone's face as they open a much desired
present from you.
49. Watching the sunrise.
50. Getting out of bed every morning and being grateful for another
beautiful day.

We anticipated that we have no REED 40 class today and Engr. Barangan told us yesterday that we still won't be having our laboratory today so here I am stuck at home...But I did lots of things and kept myself busy for the rest of the morning... Anyway, I was supposed to go with Jon, Philip and I don't know who else to watch Matrix: Reloaded... But then I changed my mind and I figured it would be better to watch next week... For your info, my class ends at 1:30 every TTH.... hehehe.... Anyway, I think I like Yuna better than Avril's picture... And John, I wrote this one last night... I guess I was just depressed... I can't tell you why though... its too personal... I'm planning to make it into a song...

TRAPPED
I'm feeling so blue
Don't know about you
But my heart is in pain
tears falling like rain
cant think straight
the world rotates
but Im still stuck here
in the clear
Why does it hurt to care
for someone who doesn't
why is it so tiring
to think of you 24/7
why does it seem
that my world revolves
around the very person
who finds no reason
to think of me
the way I'm thinking of him
Is it too much to ask
for someone to love
who loves you back
the same way
would it be too hard to try
to look me in the eye
and hear from you the truth
of what you're feeling inside
Haven't you had enough pretending
haven't you realized that its sending
the wrong impression on me
so do set me free
why does it hurt to love
and end up being such a fool
why does my heart keep trying
to act like everything's cool
why do I go insane
over the thought of you
I'm sick of being paranoid
believing that you knew...

I think this is crazy...I wonder how I could cope up with this feeling the rest of the semester...

Everyone remembers the 'faked-orgasm-in-a-deli'
sequence from your kind of movie When Harry Met
Sally. It seems that you're falling for a buddy
or have already fallen for them. Uh-oh. You're
probably caught between the possibility of
having a great relationship and wrecking the
one you have now. You know what they say, it's
better to regret something you did than
something you didn't do.


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What a day! I actually spent my entire afternoon making chika with Bing, Leslie, Manny, Maan, Jonna and Trina... We talked about food and other stuff including our crushes...hehehe I was kinda nervous knowing that not all of them have any clue who he is...anyway, guys sorry coz as of the moment can't tell you any info on that matter... We went to SM except for Trina. I bumped into Maia and her sister Ann... they're going to watch My First Romance... hehehe...such romantic people.... School hasn't started officially...So most probably the chix are still super relaxed right now...

I'm looking forward to tomorrow
Coz once again my heart would be in delight
my eyes would sparkle with laughter
and knowing that you are just near
it satisfies my longing to be with you....

to my HT...

Guys Like That You're Fun

You're the type of girl guys brag about knowing

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We have no classes today...Well we assumed that the teachers won't be coming in till
Wednesday so we went home early...I'm still browsing the net for guitar tabs...hehehe...Anyway the party was great...had lots of fun until 12 coz they started talking about creepy stuff and well there are times when I don't enjoy the stories...Who's ghadin???

Here I am trying to get some decent vacation in my Aunt’s house here in Pardo. I have been thinking of things to amuse me and so far, I am still amused. Hehehe… Anyway, my cousins are pretty busy preparing for the party tomorrow. I’m still not ready to sing in front of a crowd whose faces are so not familiar to me.

Manny, sorry coz I wasn’t able to get you a sched suitable for you coz every schedule available for Engl 23 conflicts with your other sched and Dr. Maja won’t let me change your subject because I don’t have an authorization letter from you. Maybe you could change it to another available subject next week…Leslie was able to get Sosci 6. Sorry gyud manny…

Well, if anybody's interested to join there's this contest at bigfoot for a movie spoof...Its supposed to be animated using flash... Does anybody of you know flash???the prizes are amazing...hehehe

Till then...

I miss my HT and of course the chix and all my classmates....

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HI Im back. I'm currently at my cousin's house. Just hanging out catching up on things coz we haven't seen each other for like a month now. Anyway, I have finally gotten my printout. Leslie and I went to school yesterday coz she's supposed to go to Daan Bantayan today and her white form is with me. NOthing much is going on and I have to say that I really am looking forward for classes to once again make me busy...

Yeah as if these results are true.....Les, is this possible?

He Is So Into You!

Come on, why was there any question in your mind?

If he hasn't asked you out yet, he will!

All signs point to strong flirtation -

And that's always a good thing.




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To those who are gonna take english 23 and petitioned for it...bad news...wla pay room... I think muad2 napud ko sa school tomorrow. Just came from SM with my cousin and her boyfriend...The third party again...Anyway, I'm home alone right now and I'm sleepy but I don't want to sleep...

TO KLAVE: Why dont you want me to know you??? If my friends know you then there's a big chance that I also know you....So meaning, you want to be a mystery???

have to make this real quick coz you know I'm supposed to be in school by 9:30. Thank God I passed my ECE 312 and there's only one subject more to go, ES 20. Anyway, I feel so sorry for all my batchmates who didn't pass Walton's class and also Sir Dacs class.. Its really unfortunate and believe me I really felt bad...

Kim, its me Vanessa. Sorry coz I use plum all the time if I tag in any tagboard....hehehe....

Mommy les, called you up last night but your phone was really busy. And then Maia called and we talked for quite sometime coz she wouldn't believe me that she passed ECE 312.... Anyway, am I the only one who's gonna go with you to Daan Bantayan???

Deanne, I miss u na...

Hi to Bill... Your birthday is fast approaching...

Pay, can you please give me a copy of the pictures you took yesterday??? And by the way, helpl me with my template coz the pictures are not appearing...

What else.... Can you give me suggestions of what to sing this Holloween coz if ever I won't be able to go with Leslie to Daan Bantayan, I'll be attending this Holloween Party and my other mommy, Mommy JD wants me to sing....

Gosh can't believe I'm like so perked up and excited...I wonder if I passed the java exam...It was just applets but you can never be too sure...

Till later...God bless...

Hi guys...woke up early again but now I'm feeling sore all over my body...My mom told me maybe I did way too much exercise yesterday... Finally I was able to place some pictures in my other link and well I still need that photoshop installer to edit some pics coz its way too large for villagephotos to upload... Anyway, what does "CRYPTIC MUSING" really mean? FYI: Crypitc is another word for mysterious, secret.... Musing, well it means lost in thought or meditative...There you go John...Does it sound like some kind of witchcraft?Well it does sound a bit scary if you don't know what it means... What else... I wonder where Maia is...She hasn't updated her posts yet... Uy mingaw ko niya... well see you guys on Monday.... Hope we could already enrol that is if Sir Robin decides to show up... Have to go coz my stomach is rumbling... During class days my mom lets us eat breakfast thats why I'm kinda used to having breakfast in the morning.... Have a happy weekend...God bless...

I woke up very early coz feona,deanne, freedom, jam, filden and I went to Abellana to jog...Too bad mommy Leslie didn't make it... I really had fun and eventhough I felt tired it really perked me up... I have lots of things to do today... have to do the laundry and clean the house.clean my room and well watch Legally Blonde 2... How bout you guys what would you be doing on a beautiful day such as this? Anyway good luck to all those who are gonna take removal exams for walton's class this afternoon. I really hope and pray you'll pass coz I don't want our batch to break apart... Deanne I hope that we can push through with the chicken coz you know who will tag along...hehehe...Kim don't tell anyone about what I told you ha...Secret natin yun....Friends raba mo...bwahaha....why can't I seem to download templates anymore... Is something wrong with my frontpage???or my html codes??? I figured I'm not the only one who can't seem to keep my hands of the pc... While we were talking yesterday, Paul also is practicing making games with the game maker....hehehe and you know what's funny he practically made a comment about my shoulders how it was big and his was small and well it made me think maybe I should restructure my body...bwahaha and then what go on a diet...not in million years.. I love eating...Its one of the things I do best, can't get it out of my system...By the way took another test... Gosh my result is quite shocking...


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Anyway, the other day, something got me thinking... I often tell my cousin that she should not let her boyfriend hurt her emotionally I mean. I mean she does have a choice you know...Why would you let anyone hurt you if you don't want to? its really a tough question to ask...maybe its easy for me to say but then again... I don't know... Anyway I brought this up coz somehow I feel being manipulated by my HT unconsciously.. I can't seem to stop myself from thinking of him. And it would really hurt not being able to talk to him or even catch a glimpse of him...This is crazy, absolutely crazy... Anyway...That's all for now coz I know I'm getting kinda boring...

I miss all my TC friends most especially my batchmates... If only we could like live in one subdivision, it'd be very fun...hehehe Take care and God bless you all...

My inner child is ten years old!

The adult world is pretty irrelevant to me. Whether
I'm off on my bicycle (or pony) exploring, lost
in a good book, or giggling with my best
friend, I live in a world apart, one full of
adventure and wonder and other stuff adults
don't understand.


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Hi mommy les...nicall d i c tonette while we were talking on the phone..hehehe busy daw au...anyway, gets na nako... gisend nako balik ni sir... Wla lang, have nothing to do... I think I'll go take a walk or something just to excercise my bones...bwahaha...

Finally got myself registered for the 2004 elections... It was quite tiring...hehehe...

Still thinking of my HT... Hope I could see him soon...:D

Woke up to the sound of my cellphone’s alarm. I’ve decided to wake up early to catch up on the internet coz you know, its free during these times. I woke up realizing that once again I dreamt of my HT. It’s the second time I had this feeling of excitement in the morning. I don’t actually understand what it means. Maybe I’m just plainly thinking of him 24/7. Its already our sem break here and well at first I thought I had nothing to do but when I started my list there’s a whole bunch of stuff to be done here at home that I don’t even know where to start. What else… Deanne and their group in ECE went to the beach last Sunday. I bet they had lots of fun coz “PAPA RONNIE” and “PAPA JAM” were there…

Just finished reading maia’s blog and you know what I can’t stop laughing coz you know its really true… I mean the part where before your crush doesn’t seem to exist but you just haven’t noticed that you felt something for him until you’ve gotten to know him better. I mean mai, you know naman that well I knew him ever since but just haven’t felt this way up until now… Crazy in love… Well can’t say the love thingy coz I practically am still confused about the whole crush thingy. Whether this feeling is just temporary or not… I wish to find out this sem break coz according to madam maia’s predictions, the feeling will be gone by the time we go back for the 2nd sem. I can’t say I hope so coz you know, it all started out him being my secret motivator and well he sort of challenges me to do better…Gosh…here I go again talking about him as if its okay to let the whole world know…Anyway, leslie and I decided to get ourselves registered today… I wonder why yahoo mail is pretty slow…. So I still can’t fix stuff on my webbie for now… How I wish… hehehe….

Hi nalang ko ako HT oi... Bisag I know na he never visits my site or anybody else's site... Too fixated on so many stuff...

I'm trying to fix my website and it occurred to me nga if slow gani ang inet, maka wala gana... anyway, finished na gyud ang sem...And that means, my semestral fairytale is over. I wonder what my adventures would be next sem. We're trying to get into this java research group. I don't know if I'll be in it next sem coz I still have to take a programming
exam of some sort coz my gpa did't make it to 1.9! The best thing I didn't expect to happen was that my sem ended pretty well. Again things planned were altered but in the end, I didn't feel disappointed coz I got to be with my HT... I wonder what he's doing right now...probably facing his computer or playing games again... I had fun with Leslie, Maan and Eunice last night.... Deanne, we ate at KFC and the chicken was really good... I was about to text you but my stomach was rambling so I just ate and forgot to text you...You woke up really early this morning and you also woke me up... I tried to download the chikka thingy but I guess there was an error... Anyway, guys I don't have an idea what I'll be doing during the sem break but I hope we'll keep in touch coz I'd really miss you all...

I'm at home searching for the search codes for our database project... I got home late coz we attended the novena mass in honor of the canonization of Blessed Arnold and Blessed Joseph... And after the mass, dinner was served... Unfortunately, the rain poured and once again tc was flooded...
TO MY HT:
"how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you..."
By the way, to those who are interested we've decided to hold a group study for ECE lab and lec on Monday at school...We're just gonna find a room and discuss there...Bring some chalk and eraser.K? and it wouldn't be too bad if you bring some food along...hehehe...Speaking of food, I feel like eating... I just don't know what... Gotta go... Hi mommy les...Thanks for the ride home..

I have finally lessen my burden coz we finished our report today. There were some technical problems but thank God, everything turned out to be alright...I already told Doyle about my HT. You might be wondering why I had this urge to tell him. He practically knows well if not all then most of my secrets... And well like most guys I know, I received very few comments... hehehe...Mommy Les, y man YOu tagged the message I sent you??? Don't worry mommy les kay God will make a way...You know na...hehehe

Well here's the song I promised to post... Love this song...coz it tells how I usually feel most of these days...

Artist: matchbox 20
Album: More than you think you are
Title: Unwell

All day staring at the ceiling
Making friends with shadows on my wall
All night hearing voices telling me
That I should get some sleep
Because tomorrow might be good for something

Hold on
Feeling like I'm headed for a breakdown
And I don't know why

[Chorus]

But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be...me

I'm talking to myself in public
Dodging glances on the train
And I know, I know they've all been talking about me
I can hear them whisper
And it makes me think there must be something wrong with me
Out of all the hours thinking
Somehow I've lost my mind

[Chorus]

But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be

I've been talking in my sleep
Pretty soon they'll come to get me
Yeah, they're taking me away

[Chorus]

But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be

Yeah, how I used to be
How I used to be
Well, I'm just a little unwell
How I used to be
How I used to be
I'm just a little unwell

How I wish I could just reveal myself and not hide anything from all the readers of this website... I really wanted to write stuff about him. I guess that's what makes my diary so important. coz there, I'm free to write anything I want...anything at all without hiding anything from anybody... Hey guys, are you gonna have group study for ECE???When man?? and where?? Ila DEANNE???BWAHAHA... D, wla ko suko nimo ganina...ni andar lang gyud ako sinusitis...hehehe b4 EE 311 exam ba...sorry ha...

Why am I easily provoked to be angry??? I mean, this morning, I was sulking again... I feel so bad thinking stuff that are so...never mind... I asked my mom about my bad temper and my frequent mood swings and she told me that I'm so tense!!! who isn't tense when your neck and neck trying to meet deadlines and passing exams... I need to change this because its really not good... The one thing that's unforgettable today is that my HT touched my face today... Gosh what if he'll read this and he'd know. I asked fame about this and she told me that I'm not that obvoius yet...hehehe she told me that some things are just not what they used to between me and my HT... But sometimes I become so jealous with just simple things as if I had the right to be... What's happening to me? Maia, help... I never had this kind of dilemma before... I mean mai, you know all my craziness before but it never got this far... How could this be??? Les, I hope that I could control my emotions before it controls me.... hehehe...news flash: NEW COUPLE OF COME BATCH 2006.... fEOnA & FloRenCe....bwahaha...Take care...

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Top 10 flirting tips
By Fran Greene

10. Flirting is an attitude
A good flirt is self-confident and not afraid to take risks. Be enthusiastic and positive — it works!

9. Start a conversation
The best opening line is saying hello. Talk about the surroundings, ask a question, ask for help or state an opinion.

8. Have fun
Be playful, light-hearted and spontaneous. Show your vulnerability.

7. Use props
Never leave home without a prop. Props are natural conversation starters. They encourage conversation and others will be compelled to start talking to you. Great props include dogs, kids, unusual jewelry, a fabulous scent, a sweatshirt with your favorite passion, interesting ties, hats or an interesting book or newspaper.

6. Be the host
Change your behavior from guest to host. You are not a passive person waiting around for romance; instead, you're the welcome committee.

5. Make the first move
Move closer to the person you want to meet. Say hello.

4. Listen
You have two ears and one mouth because you should listen twice as much as you speak. Listening is a true art. Your flirting partner will be drawn to you. Everyone loves to be heard.

3. Eye contact
Make eye contact, but please look your partner in the eye gently (no more than a few seconds) and then glance away. Don’t stare — it’s a turn off.

2. Compliment
Compliment your flirting partner. The best compliments have the element of surprise. The "flirtee" will know that you really noticed them. Remember, your compliments must be honest, sincere and genuine. When you receive a compliment, the best response is a simple "Thank you!"

1. Smile
It's contagious. Smiling makes you so much more approachable. A smile lights up your face and draws people to you. You'll be a people magnet.

This is dedicated to my HT...

Artist: Duncan Sheik
Album: Daylight
Title: Half-life

I'm awake in the afternoon
I fell asleep in the living room
and it's one of those moments
when everything is so clear

before the truth goes back into hiding
I want to decide 'cause it's worth deciding
to work on finding something more than this fear

It takes so much out of me to pretend
tell me now, tell me how to make amends

maybe, I need to see the daylight
to leave behind this half-life
don't you see I'm breaking down

lately, something here don't feel right
this is just a half-life
is there really no escape?
no escape from time
of any kind

I keep trying to understand
this thing and that thing, my fellow man
I guess I'll let you know
when i figure it out

but I don't mind a few mysteries
they can stay that way it's fine by me
and you are another mystery i am missing

It takes so much out of me to pretend

maybe, I need to see the daylight
to leave behind this half-life
don't you see I'm breaking down

Lately, something here don't feel right
this is just a half-life
is there really no escape?
no escape from time
of any kind

come on lets fall in love
come on lets fall in love
come on lets fall in love
again

'cause lately something here don't feel right
this is just a half-life,
without you I am breaking down

wake me, let me see the daylight
save me from this half-life
let's you and I escape
escape from time

come on lets fall in love
come on lets fall in love
come on lets fall in love
again

Well today I have discovered that there is this big chance that he just sees me as a friend... And you know what in spite of the thought of him not liking me the way I want him to, I'm glad he thinks of me as his friend...Its a big thing for me coz....Can't elaborate on that ... I'm nervous for our reporting in ECE... I used to not fear speaking in front of the entire class coz when I was in high school, I usually talk to the entire student populace...anyway, guys we have to study coz finals is fast approaching...take care and God bless...

Funny Sayings

* He who laughs last thinks slowest.
* Everyone has a photographic memory. Some don't have film.
* A day without sunshine is like, well, night.
* On the other hand you have different fingers.
* Change is inevitable except from a vending machine.
* I just got lost in thought. It was unfamiliar territory.
* When the chips are down, the buffalo is empty.
* Seen it all, done it all, can't remember most of it.
* Those who live by the sword... get shot by those who don't.
* I feel like I'm diagonally parked in a parallel universe.
* He's not dead... he's electroencephalographically challenged.
* You have the right to remain silent. Anything you say will be misquoted, then used against you.
* I wonder how much deeper the ocean would be without sponges.
* Honk if you love peace and quiet.
* Despite the cost of living, have you noticed how it remains so popular?
* Nothing is foolproof to a sufficiently talented fool.
* It is hard to understand how a cemetery raised its burial cost and blamed it on the cost of living.
* The 50-50-90 rule: Anytime you have a 50-50 chance of getting something right, there's a 90% probability you'll get it wrong.
* It is said that if you line up all the cars in the world end to end, someone would be stupid enough to try and pass them.
* You can't have everything....where would you put it?
* Latest survey shows that 3 out of 4 people make up 75% of the world's population.
* The things that come to those who wait, may be the things left by those who got there first.
* A fine is a tax for doing wrong. A tax is a fine for doing well.
* It was recently discovered that research causes cancer in rats.
* I wished the buck stopped here as I could use a few.
* I started out with nothing, and I still have most of it.
* Light travels faster than sound. This is why some people appear bright until you hear them speak.

got these funny sayings from....http://www.jardmail.co.uk/factslists/funnysayings.shtml

Got caught up with all these projects and reports that I have forgotten to clean my room...And so I decided to dust off a little...You know, I have allergies...So I'm crying right now because of ya know...kept on sneezing too... Anyway, I still don't know how I'd present my report on Transistors...

Here's the song we've been singing all the days of last week. Even while we took the test in our ECE 312 lab, Deanne and I kept on singing this song... I don't know why...

Artist: All American Rejects
Album: All American Rejects
Title: Swing Swing
Days swiftly come and go.
I'm dreaming of her
She's seeing other guys
Emotions they stir
The sun is gone.
The nights are long
And I am left while the tears fall.

Did you think that I would cry,
on the phone?
Do you know what it feels like
being alone?
I'll find someone new

Swing, Swing, Swing from the tangles of
My heart is crushed by a former love
Can you help me find a way
To carry on again.

Wish cast into the sky
I'm moving on
Sweet beginnings do arise
She knows I was wrong
The notes are old,
They bend, they fold
and so do I to a new love.

Bury me
(you thought your problems were gone)
Carry me
(away. away, away...)