Dedication

I'm not sure if this song is dedicated to me but it somehow made sense...Thanks to Kelem!

Today is a winding road
Thats taking me to places that I didnt want to go, whoa
Today in the blink of an eye
Im holding on to something and I do not know why I tried

I tried to read between the lines
I tried to look in your eyes
I want a simple explanation; what Im feeling inside
I gotta find a way out
Maybe theres a way out

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know youre unlike any other?
Youll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I dont wanna ever love another
Youll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
And bring on the thunder

Today is a winding road
Tell me where to start and tell me something I dont know, whoa
Today Im on my own
I cant move a muscle and I cant pick up the phone, I dont know

And now I'm itching for the tall grass
And longing for the breeze
I need to step outside, just to see if I can breathe
I gotta find a way out
Maybe theres a way out

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know youre unlike any other?
Youll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I dont wanna ever love another
Youll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
And bring on the thunder

Yeah Im walking on a tightrope
I'm wrapped up in vines
I think Ill make it out but you just gotta give me time
Strike me down with lightning
Let me feel you in my veins
I wanna let you know how much I feel your pain

I'm off to Samar tomorrow...I probably can't blog there...anyway till next week...

just leave a message

Darn it Tag-board is not working anymore...changed to cbox...It's going to be a long week...
Anyway, I found out that I can open my page in our office...goodie...I hope I can open blogger too...It's very secure there that there are a lot of blocked sites...

have to go work...Aurevior...A bientot!

At some point...

I was blog hopping...trying to get some sense out of this world through an artist's mind...I happen upon one of HER blogs... and I just wanted to quote...

The decision to kiss for the first time is the most crucial in any love story. It changes the relationship of two people much more strongly than even the final surrender; because this kiss already has within it that surrender. - Emil Ludwig

Darn it...there's more truth...

Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life…You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love. - Neil Gaiman

and so I'm back to being in limbo...nothing is clear at the moment but the shear pain that becomes very vivid when he's not around...Wanting something you cannot have has been my life's main objective...Darn it...I wish he could read this...but he can't coz he can't know or else I'll be waving the white flag...

Once

Watched a movie from Czechoslovakia 2 Fridays ago. There were dozens of European movies that were shown in Ayala's Onstage. We were hoping we could catch the one in French but then they changed the schedule. The movie was typical, the acting was realistic, plot was somehow new to the Filipino mindset however the soundtrack was surprisingly well thought of. There was one song that was also part of the soundtrack of movie Once (still have to find a copy of this one coz they say its also a nice movie). The song is simple yet it brings out emotion. I think its because of the melody, so passionate and true.

I don't know you
But I want you
All the more for that
Words fall through me
And always fool me
And I can't react
And games that never amount
To more than they're meant
Will play themselves out

Take this sinking boat and point it home
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you have a choice
You've made it now

Falling slowly, eyes that know me
And I can't go back
Moods that take me and erase me
And I'm painted black
You have suffered enough
And warred with yourself
It's time that you won

Take this sinking boat and point it home
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you had a choice
You've made it now

Take this sinking boat and point it home
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you had a choice
You've made it now
Falling slowly sing your melody
I'll sing along

Listen to the song...Can't find just an audio clip to embed!




Had my nails painted yellow green...I was to choose between this color and purple. He was with me when I had this done in Fab Nails...He chose yellow green over purple...And so I went for it. Ahhh....I haven't been so attached to a person for a very long time that it seems so surreal to have him almost always near me...I hope this lasts longer than I expected...

butterflies in my stomach...