cebu blues...

sitting here in Legend Villas lobby just to get myself online for a bit. I'm doing fine here in Manila. Although the homesickness is slowly kicking in especially with different emotional struggle. but so far im looking forward to a career in Accenture... This will be a bit short since there's a couple of people in line to check their emails and friendster since its restricted in the office.

guyz, email me thru vanelin_labay@yahoo.com...it would be nice to hear from you...

I'll be seeing you later!

I cried last night...As far as I could remember, that was the worst cry I did...And you know why I cried? Because I'll be missing a lot of people: my papa, mama, my brother...my friends, events, things and that certain person.

I cried because I realized up to know he doesn't know that I AM JUST HERE. I always have. He still couldn't see that. And my mind keeps on saying to forget him but my heart stubbornly does otherwise.

I cried because in spite of me taking a stand and fulfilling my dreams, I had to sacrifice a lot.

I cried because of this heavy feeling inside my heart that I can't understand, nor can be explained in context.

But even so, I packed my bags, struggled a whole lot with my luggage since unlike my close friend MAIA, I am not a light packer. Included several books and got a bit worried since I think if I had spare money I'd do a little shopping in Manila. Where the heck will I place them? Everybody's going to bed now since we'll be leaving the house pretty early, around 4am. Our flight's at 6:40am!

So to all those who avidly read my blog, I'll try my best to blog my Manila escapade..

From IPAY, MAIA and my bestfriend IVY: Hopefully I'll find my prince charming daw in Manila...hahaha...

So guys, as per my long time friend Mark aka Kelem, no good byes...JUST SEE YOU LATER!

unexpected news...

Just got back last Monday from our Tacloban trip together with my brother. My back still hurts because of the sunburn. I tried to do a follow up with Accenture since my mom keeps on bugging me to either do a follow up for a start date or look for another job. So I did both. Met up with Soekarno yesterday to give him my application for LEAR. Called Gillamac this morning to verify if they've already sent the result for the medical exam to Accenture. I wasn't able to contact HR Dept of Accenture so I just sent them an email and got a response that those who resigned will be starting on the 23rd of April. Then I sent an email back to verify if I'm included on the list of people who'll be leaving Cebu prior to the 23rd start date...

And then the HR recruiter called up and said that we'll be starting on the 16th and will be leaving Cebu on the 15th which by way is already this Sunday.

Things hadn't sinked in yet till now that I'll be leaving a lot behind...Most especially my family. My father didn't talk at all knowing that I'll be leaving soon. The loneliness and fear are all here now. I thought it would be easy but believe me its not. Makes me want to cry and back out. But I have to do this if I want to build a career. If I'll stay in Cebu I'll end up still working in a call center. Its not that there's something wrong with working as a call center agent its just that I wanted to really pursue a career. This is just a stepping stone I guess and after 2 years of training and experience, either I will come back to Cebu and pursue my career as a software developer, take my masters or law or work in another country. Ahh lots of plans and dreams... I hope someday I'll make it through.

I asked for this, I prayed night and day for this to happen. Why am I having second thoughts now?

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