I have been living my life as if it were a dream. My mind keeps on floating, drifting from one situation to another. I can’t help but wonder if someday, these dreams would turn into reality. Sometimes I get so overwhelmed by simple things, I end up feeling something I could not explain. Different emotions result from different experiences and even overt people tend to have such an extraordinary effect on me. Living has always been simple, that is when I was just at toddler. No worries just play and learn and eat and talk. But now that I am almost an adult I could never fully understand the mystery behind what every emotion mean.

I wrote this a few months ago not knowing who's it for.. I don't know if you could relate to this... I guess its just how I felt at that moment...

Today I was able to realize that I should live with the fact that you and I could never be. That fantasy is totally different from dreams and that not all dreams do come true. What’s the point of waiting and holding back how I feel when every time we talk you utter somebody else’s name? It pains me much to dwell on certain instances wherein you let me feel that you truly cared. Maybe you do care but that does not mean that you love me in return. I want you to stop treating me like a child and start looking beyond what you see. If you could only look deeper and see right through this heavy mask, you would find a girl, lonely, cold and isolated. How I wish things could have been different between us since the more we get closer, the more things get complicated. My feelings for you cannot be suppressed if every time we’re together, you touch my heart with your simple act of kindness.

But I do need your reactions people....

Right about now, I'm sitting here in TAPS with none other than ....chideng....MAIA, the fish!hehehehe hey there fishy fishy fishy! I smell something fishy!!! So early to tell conclude the day so just enjoy the songs and poetry....

DAMNED
***plum***

You sing the songs of the heavens
But you don’t sing for me
You paint the blue sky
With stars that glitter in broad daylight
Stars that I long to reach out
Yet seems so distant from my grasp
You grow flowers of every kind
Yet every time I tried to pick one
I drip blood from the thorns
And the fruits that grew from your tree
Are rotten in my orifice.

It seems as if fate doesn’t want me
It forbids my having you
Because every time I gaze at you
Tears fall from my eyes
And my heart breaks into pieces
Knowing that even in my dreams
You are holding somebody else’s hand
Not mine, but the person you love
The person you sing your songs to
The person you would die for

Which is why
I’d rather go sightless
Than to see you cry
Over someone who’s not worthy
I’d rather go deaf
Than to hear you mourn
Over pure love wasted
I’d rather go mute
Than be so coward to tell you
How I truly feel
And I’d rather be numb
Than to feel the pain
Suffer an austere state
Of unending regret
Having not sung my song for you….


Artist: Vanessa Carlton
Album: Be Not Nobody
Title: Pretty Baby

You light me up and then I fall for you
you lay me down and then I call for you
stumbling on reasons that are far and few
I'd let it all come down and then some for you

Pretty baby don't you leave me
I have been saving smiles for you
pretty baby why can't you see
you're the one that I belong to
I'll be the embrace that keeps you warm
for you're the sun that breaks the storm
I'll be alright and I'll sleep sound
as long as you keep comin' around, oh pretty baby

And I know things can't last forever
but there are lessons that you'll never learn
oh just the scent of you it makes me hurt
so how's it you that makes me better

[chorus]

Why can't you hold me and never let go
when you touch me it is me that you own
pretty baby oh the place that you hold in my heart
would you break it apart again... oh pretty baby

[chorus]

Greetings to all the cute bloggers... in other words mga assuming people YAH RIGHT (maia) CUTE MAN JUD KO (maia) WLAY MU ANGAL(maia). Nihirit pa gyud sa akong site....Bouncin Maia ggud! Vincent Tiu is right all along!

Thus I have begun my journey in this world of bloggers! I finally got the chance to blog. We had our practical test in our dance club today. I gained 2 bruises on both my knees and I would probably feel all soared up tomorrow. Well in spite of that, my moderator complemented me on our performance saying it was done with precision and our figures were unique. So is the other groups. Maia and I watched Smallville early this morning. My EIC caught us and he made fun at me making a habit of watching smallville. Hehehehe.... So anyway, I realized that sometimes, we have to take the risk to get what we want but we should also consider the possible consequences. I used to have this fear of my emotions getting in the way of strong friendship. But I learned to control my feelings. I have learned a lot of things as soon as I stepped into college. I have learned to minimize my trust towards people who seem to take advantage of me.
Maia called me up a while ago to remind me to update and to let me know of the certain TORPE article. Comments? Well, I was able to relate coz its happened to me recently lang. I'm not sure if I'm just assuming something or its there gyud! Welcome to the confusing world of boy-girl relationships... I talked to mercy bout this one person I could never forget...And I kinda miss the feeling of tingles and being able to look forward to every morning you wake up. So drama noh? Well maia, this is my serious side. The one your refering to is just me, being quiet coz I have nothing sensible to say! hehehe Well back to the article... That kind of guy needs to wake up and open his big beautiful eyes(assuming he has one) coz, the case is always that He'll realize all of this time wasted if the person is out with someone else. And he'll be left all by himself, LONELY! what a nightmare!

Before I forget, John thanks for being so nice! I was not expecting you to be like that. I guess people do have the tendency to surprise you. Mai, I still owe you a Banana Caramel Crepe...Bill, if you'll be able to read this asap, dungan ta lunch 2morw?
Mitch, how's YOU KNOW WHO? Kase hindi lang kayo friends eh, kayo na ba?hehehehe

Another day of adventure full of realizations....

By the way, Happy Birthday to Jevica and Raquel!

Life is really treating me good. Well as of the moment everything is going great and I can't believe midterms is over. I finally decided to make my own website. I think this would make it much easier for me and my cousins in the states to communicate. Maia I think I still owe you one for helping me out with my D.E. project. There, your the first person I mentioned in this site.hehehe